Tell me

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Decided to edit this post if not become multi-post today again because of tht story. Tht story touching okay! MUST READ.

Went to work just now until 1230pm, chatted with Lingxiang and JP aka Jonathan and Eunice for awhile. ;D SEE, now everyone keep telling me the same thing. All say must continue wait when i tell them 3quarter story. Still got 1quarter, half or 3quarter or full story one okay. Only those i rlly close to can know whole story. So far only Sher know full story, Agnes, Jonathan Lingxiang and JP know 3quarter story. ;P Must keep reminding them not to mention anything or say out, so tiring ok. MUST KEEP REPEATING. Okay nvm. I think my determination too strong alr, 6th sense feeling also too strong alr. ;X BELIEVE MY 6TH SENSE AND FEELING OK.

Father sms me tell me to get prepared by 5pm for wedding dinner, i reply: i tired, stay at home do project and he said ok, rest at home. ;D Yaya, i very bad because i dont want go for wedding dinner. ;X So sry. I think i'm gg to wonderland alr, hug my baby shroomy to sleeeep. Shall transfer photos into laptop ltr on! Took pikachu's photo tht day at Kiddy Palace. ;X

Zoo outing coming alrrrr! YAY. Don't jealous i can go zoo see AH MENG'S family tree. ;P Sad. I should go earlier then i can see Ah Meng but he sayonara alr. Nvm. Take alot pictures on Tuesday!

PAMMIE. (; YOU'RE MISSED BY SHARON. Dont wryy! You want hear story you can ask SHER ok? ;DDDD

You're the reason why i can keep going and increase my determination everytime despite seeing and hearing smthings tht i dont wish to. (: You're the reason why i chose to believe in my 6th sense and feeling and it's because of wht you said on 24th May. Tht sentence made me have hope in us. HGTR -

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Camp was much better yesterday, went to school at around 2+pm togther with Sher but i dragged time so i only report at 3+pm. ;X Games then prepare for performance night then after tht i went to someplace first and i still went home in the end. Bathed and sleep right after tht! Okay, i know very boring but rushing time. Gonna be late for work alrrrrrrr! AHH.

Sayo. I'm very lazy to go to work now. Shit.
):


Tell me exactly wht you're thinking, i really want to know the truth. ):
Im trying very hard to ignore wht i see and wht i hear, i dont want to believe wht you and they say because i rather believe in my sixth sense and i believe tht sms or asking about them doesn't mean you have feelings for them. ;D

Blog more when i come home later! ;X

Number 300 post! ;D

Didnt go work yesterday and tday, too tired alr. ;X Go back school in the evening for camp, left at 11+pm togther with Sher. Separated at the mrt thr because i took mrt instead of bus to Amk hub. Caught last bus 73 and spent the whole night togther with hgtr. (: We just talk and talk and sleep only okay! ;X

He pangseh-ed me at 5am because he super tired alr so he went home first but then, i walk to bus stop and found out tht first bus only come at 0610am. So i walked to HgAve8, hoping tht the bus come suddenly. ;P 161 came just in time when i reach Ave8 bus stop so i took and home to sleep! ;DDD

The sad thing is tht i found out smthing again, lucky determination strong. ;P Nthing can beat me down okay! No matter wht i see or find out about you liking another girl or whtever shit, it doesn't matter to me. ;X Oh my god. Tmr is 15th, 9th monthsary hor! Start saving up for Zoo trip next Tues, 26th movieeee! ;D

Kns. 1 more week of holidays left. I havent touch any of my project work or assignments yet. Very lazy to do! ): Not gg home again tonight, i dont care. Mike dont allow me to off tmr smore, BAD OR NOT. He tell me to go work tmr so tht means i cannot sleep. Ltr still have to go back to school to join back the camp, then leaving at night again. ;X

I suddenly feel very helpless and i still keep thinking whether still possible or not. Shit. ): JH fly alr, and he wont be back until 8 days ltr! Nobody to update me alr, dammit. Okay lah, I think he's the 2nd nicest guy on earth because he always tell me things tht i dont know but dont know he saying the truth anot. ;X But nvm, at least know smthing better then know nthing right. But then, smtimes his info not accurate one! Okay, SHHHH. Hgtr is still the number 1 nicest guy on earth. ;D

I'm very very very lazy now. Lazy to go back to school, lazy to go work, lazy to do assignments and projects. ): AH.

Sayo.
(:
I miss tht sweet love and i'll keep praying -

Vry very tired lah. So i decided not to go work today, shall go back to sleep after blogging. ;D I dont know how to desribe yesterday, not tht happy because i was very tired and so dead.

Went to work in the morning and then go home after wrk, met Sher at 2pm and went to Amk again. Walked around while waiting for tht Galex then accompanied him to eat at Subway before we toured tht whole area. ;X McDonald's to slack and rest then he went to meet his friends and we walk and walk and walk around Amk Hub. Met JH and HGTR, passed them tickets then go off alr. Sher went home and i waited for the guys lah. Not gg to talk about wht happen after tht but yah, stomach pain again in the night when i was waiting for the guys to finish their movie. So sickening! ): AH. Today's the camp alr, tmr and Sunday too! >.< No time to rest again. Shittie hell.

I miss you, i love you. Issit still possible to return to our past?
I still dont know if i still stand a chance but i'll just continue to wait ....

Ti Amo

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OH YES. And I got smthing impt to blog lah. And is very very impt okay! ): MingMin told me tht my PANDA EYE become thicker and blacker alr. Omg. I need to sleeeep! ;X Sayo!


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Supposed to be off tmr but i promised Agnes i'll help her out tmr also lah. And it's for FREE okay! ;X It doesn't matter anyway, because she down manpower again but they can't pay me or change my schedule or else they'll have to pay double on my 7th day so i decided to help out for freee lah. (: So i'm gg to sleep after blogging or else i'm gonna be so god-damn tired.

Work today was slightly better then previous two days! ;D Crowds came in for awhile only but it was quite fun because i saw AGNES like finally today and we talked for quite sometime. Told her bout this and tht and she gave me advices. (: Feel much more comfortable after talking to her and she said smthing to meeee. ;X She told me to give him smore time also! YAY.

Rushed home after wrk then rushed down to school to meet the rest. Discussed for awhile only then most of them went off, leaving Sher Joyce and me in the library. Played with webcam as usual then to Amk Hub with Sher at 730pm. (: Helped the guys buy tickets for their movie tmr then 86ed home. I went to RivervaleMall to get smthing before walking home. ;D

JH told me smthing again today! ;X This one PRIVATE lah, cannot say out one. Sigh. But i feel quite sad though. I feel so useless tht i thought of wht i told Agnes earlier on in the morning. It made me realise how fortunate i am to have him, he never tell me anything tht make me worry everyday, he didnt ask for anything from me but yet, im always the one making a big fuss out of everything. He kept everything to himself, all the problems and everything but yet, i dont even know a thing about it. ): And he still have to make me happy everytime. Sigh. I'm sorry love. Agnes said tht i'm way too fortunate alr lah. I shall change and be grateful to you. (: It's time for me to start doing things for you, let me do smthing to repay you please.

I'm gg to start saving up for shopping and rebondingg. ;DD HEHEEE. Both will be done togther with Sher and she have to wait for me lah. ;X EAT LESS, SAVE MORE MONEH!


Let me know wht i can do for you from today onwards, everything is for you. (:
15th Sept'07

I just want to return to the past.

Changed my blog song. ;D Super nice okay this song, the lyrics especially! Yah, i listen to songs because of their lyrics. So whtt! ;X I think only sher knows the reason why i refuse to give up now. And i rlly hope she understand why i refuse to lah, after telling her some of the things ytd. NW YOU UNDERTSTAND RIGHT? (: BLINKSBLINKS.

Oh my shit god. I dont understand whts wrong with myself. I love typing in CAPS for dont-know wht reason. I think words in CAPS look much nicer then normal ones. ;P Okay, i know some of them are irritated by the CAPS but then i love okay. SO MUST EXCUSE LAH. (:

I cannot find the lyrics now lah. Kns. I'll look for it then post it up alright. ;X


This song represents how i feel when i know tht your heart alr got a new her. ): I'm missing you badly, do you knw? Sigh.
But still, i knw tht as long as i continue waiting, thr is still a chance for us ;]

too tired ..

Just reach home around an hour ago, bathed and had my super late dinner. ;D

Went to work again in the morning and i wasn't late tday! Didnt have break because not enough manpower. Rushed home after wrk, rushed out to meet Sher. 86ed to school, pass Faizal things then to Amk Hub. (: Saw JH and friends at McDonald's, did PCMP until 8+pm then 86 back and we saw JH again while waiting for the bus. Talk to him awhile only lah. ;D

I still miss him damn bloody much, until today. Oh great. ): I know i know. Determination and trust him.

Sher know who i saw today and why i'm so happy to see him lah. ;X HEHEHE. SHHHHHHHH!


I still love you so, i'm still waiting and waiting. (: 15th Sept'07

Tht feeling...

Madly in love with this song tht new friend sent me, he heard it from Channel U lah! >.<>.< Super nice, but it's not my blog song anyway. ;D

Is it because i refuse to give up thts why i'll have tht feeling still? I had this feeling since 25th May and it never goes away until tday. Yah, hgtr knows wht i am talking about! (:

Anyway, i forgot to blog tht i chatted with Rickson yesterday morning. ;D TAKE NOTE OF THE SON. ;X Yeah, he said tht i was stupid because of some reason. Not gg to state it down here, it's just like wht alot of people say so clever people should know why. (: It's just tht i feel tht this is my decision so just let me be alright people? I know wht i want so stop saying meeeeeee. >.< I love pikachu and shroomyyyyyyyy tong. ;P They are loveee!

Omg. I so want to watch KungFu Panda! Okay, i know it's kinda lame but the panda super cute lah! ;X WHO WANTS TO BRING ME GO WATCH? Faster book appointment okay. ;X

Chatted with Chunfeng on Msn awhile ago. Super funny lahh! Still the same old xiao hai zi. ;P Yah, he calls me LAO REN! What the hell right. 18 years old only get called lao ren alr. Okay nvm. It's only a nickname so it doesn't matter. (:

Did i tell you all tht new friend sent me two JPOP songs and it's very very very nice?! Seriously lah. If your want can ask from me OK. ;X Tmr meeting Sher to do PCMP project, means we have to bring lappy if i'm not wrong? Might be meeting tht pig one of this day, not confirmed yet because i'm now hesitating. He wants to meet her all along, asked her out and all but she didn't reply? I don't want to be treated this way. It hurts me even more. >.<

Yah, and still, i seriously dont know wht to do again. ): HOW?

Sayo.
Continue to bleach alrrr. ;P

I went back to old wrkplace to work today and seeing some new faces makes me feel abit weird though. But of course there's still those familiar faces around who forever make me feel so comfortable. I seriously miss Agnes, i got so so so many things to tell her and Wendy and Cynthia! ): Oh my god. I made a new friend today, not really new friend. She's my 2nd assistant manager lah! But we talked today, first time meet smore. SEE, i can make friends easily. Wrking everyday this whole week there cept' for Thurs. Should tell them to let me work on Thurs as well because Pop dont allow me to work this wk. ;X SooHua told me she got too many full timers alr so i can only wrk next wk. RAH. Nvm. I just need to work everyday, probably extend my hours from tmr onwards at old wrkplace.

Baoyin and Kelly told me smthing tht makes me dont know wht to do again. So many people tell me things tht make me feel like breaking down nowadays. Sigh. ): New friend told me smthing again today lah. It is a good thing to know all these bad news so tht i can be well prepared but it made my mood worst everyday. I'm feeling tired, really tired. Faking the smile infront of everybody is my job now. Kelly and Baoyin said tht they could see tht fake smile on my face during wrk because whenever i turn around to face the wall, the smile disappears straight away. Okay, shut up sharon. The smile will still remain there for as long as your want, people. (: I wont ask anything from new friend anymore from today onwards. He sweared tht he wouldn't tell me anymore things, it's alright anyway because very soon, my heart wouldn't be able to take it anymore. I seriously cannot take it anymoreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. SHITS. >.< But i think i dont have a choice, i just have to continue to keep things to myself. ): OH RIGHT.

I wan to go watch Bleach alr lah!
Sayo for now.



I've lost completely, i cant win her or replace her anymore. (: I'm ok, perfectly fine. I'll still wait. (:


Class chalet in Sept coming up. ;D

Hurting me way too deeply.

SCROLL BELOW BECAUSE I EDITED TODAY'S ENTRY FOR TONIGHT'S POST. ;D BLINKBLINKS.

Kiss on the stomach = "Im ready"
>
> ~Kiss on the Forehead ="i hope we're
> together forever"
>
> ~Kiss on the Ear = "Your my everything"
>
> ~Kiss on the Cheek = "We're friends"
>
> ~Kiss on the Hand = "I adore you"
>
> ~Kiss on the Neck = "we belong
> together"
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> ~Kiss on the Shoulder = "I want you"
>
> ~Kiss on the Lips = "I love you"
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>
> What the gesture means...
>
> ~Holding Hands = "we definitely love
> each other"
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> ~Slap on the Butt = "That's mine"
>
> ~Holding on tight = "i don't want to
> let go"
>
> ~Looking into each other's Eyes = "i
> sincerely love you"
>
> ~Playing with Hair = "Tell me you love
> me"
>
> ~Arms around the Waist = "I love you
> too much to let go"
>
> ~Laughing while Kissing = "I am
> completely comfortable with you"
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>
>

Sharon Soo Ying Jie You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

You Inner Gender is Female

You're sensitive, caring, and willing to connect with anyone who's open to you. You make friends easily, and you enjoy all sorts of conversations. You understand most people you meet - better than they understand themselves. You're totally a woman... or at the very least, your soul is female.

What's Your Inner Gender?

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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Crap. I think i know why Sher hates May because i hate it now too. I don't know wht happen to everyone on this earth last month and early this month. Many couples tht got togther before i do broke up as well just last month end(May end). Whtever it is, life still goes on. It's very sad when smthing like this happen to you and i understand lah! Chatted with Kenny in the afternoon on msn and smthing happened to him. I consoled him okay! ;X SEEE, I SO NICE. Macs gathering on 5th July most probably, early bday celebration for Kenny on tht day also! ;DDD PLEASE COME OK. Dont be such a buay steady person! I tried to keep things calm and cool tday but i failed again miserably. Chatted with new friend also the whole afternoon and i dont know why my mood went to the lowest stage suddenly. Sickening. It's hurting me way too much lah! >.< It's hurting me way too bad.

Whtever. I didn't know tht it will hurt me so deeply, it's hurting my beautiful heart. ): Okay fine. Let it be. He will never ask and he wont care. Just take it tht i'm rambling bullshits all this while. (:

Sry to Guy Z { He know who he is, name not disclosed because i dont want ppl to misunderstand}. Seriously, you know who is gg to stay inside my heart. You know who i trust, you know who i love. I'm sry but i've made up my mind to wait. (: Thankyou very much still. I know you care.

The scar is left thr for you to mend it, only you.


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Went out in the early morning to HougangPt to have McDonald's brkfast with Sher and pass Mike my schedule! (: Hehehe. Kept thinking whr to go and we decided to take 89 to Pasir Ris park. Talked about somethings again and then we went to E! Hub, super boring okay the place! ): Then took 89 back home lahh, because she had to go smwhr else ltr on. ;X

I seriously miss him alot. I've no idea wht to do anymore, maybe because i'm feeling as though there's a lump of feelings stuck inside my heart. No matter how hard i try to remove tht feeling, it's always there. ): The feeling make me feel worst every single day. But i know, no matter how hard i try, things will never change anymore and the fact tht you like her cant be changed anymore. I feel the stress and bad feeling deep inside in my heart but nobody will ever understand. I dont know until now, i still choose to trust him. I seriously dont trust guys but i don't know why im still trusting him so much. ): Shits. Forget it. I shall keep all this to myself.

I'm sorry friends, this is wht i want to do. I'm sry tht i cant let go, to wait for him is my choice. No matter wht happen or even if they are togther one day, i'll still wait. I know the consequences, i'll just take the responsiblity alone. Just let me wait alone, please.

If i can turn back time, i rather i wait for you since 2007 and not to be togther if i know the ending would turn out this way. I rather wait then to regret. I'm sry tht i can't give up, i'm sry tht even though you dont want me to wait, i still will continue to wait. I'm very sick and tired alr. SIGH.

I finally know smthing today. It's not hurting, but it's very hurting. I dont want to talk about it anymore. Skipped all my meals today, seriously no appetite and i wasn't feeling well during work. Almost fainted lah! Oh my god. Wanted to work tmr but body cannnot take it alr so never wrk tmr! ;X But meeting Sher go HougangPt to pass mike my schedule and eat brkfast. ;DDD YUMMY. And POP outing on 27th to play poool and steamboat! YAY.

I didn't sms him after i know about the news today. I dont know wht to say but i've decided to let go. Sorry to make my best colleagues worry just now because my eyes went red and i almost tear and they kept asking wht happen but i just dont want to say out. ;X In the end i told Baoyin about it and i made tht decision lah. Heart to heart talk with Baoyin after wrk, walked all the way from HgMall to Rivervale Plaza then i took 88 back home. (: Stomachpain today, gastric pain or whtever. But dont careee lah. ;D

I've decided to let go, not because i dont love him anymore but it's because i choose to wait silently. I'm sorry for all these shits tht i've thrown out during this period of time but maybe, it's time i step away and let you find your new love. I know you'll be happier tht way and for me, i rather wait silently then to give you stress. I choose to keep everything to myself and from today on, all the rantings will be in this blog. (: I will keep everything to myself, face everything myself and wait silently. This is the only way to make everyone around me happy. I'm sorry everyone, esp to him. Just let me be from today onwards. I dont need anybody's pity, i dont need anybody to comment, i dont need anybody to tell me wht to do because i know wht i want to do and tht is to keep quiet about everything. Bck to the past-

I would rather hurt myself then to ever make you cry.
There's nthing left to say but good-bye.

I should learn to be like the past.

Changed blogskin, very happy. I edited with my own hands, although not very pretty but i like it. ;D

I like can alr right! Was reading my archives and realised i'm being too silly now. ): I shall treat him the way how we used to be, before we got togther. Dont ask me how i treat him in the past, READ MY ARCHIVES. It's under the past section. ;] Start reading from 2007 posts onwards then you'll know. I seriously, seriously miss the past. The times when we'll all go out togther and have fun and do all those lame craps with Kenny and the rest. The times when Wendy and Cynthia would help me and cheer me up when i've problems with love. ): Shall call up Wendy soon and chitchat with her. ;D And from now, i'll treat him the way i treat him before we got togther. Shall wait quietly, give him all th freedom tht he needs and pray hard enough. ;D Trust him again of course. I love you pigboy.

Electicity bill and water bill shot up this month, way too high. I don't know how the hell we used up so much of the water and electricity. >.< Oh yay, i'm wrking tmr and i still dont know if i want to work full shift or not because i'm still very tired. ;X I hate it when i'm tired, i'll feel very pissed off over the slighest thing. I miss his hugs. RAH.

I love the way you hug me,
I love the way you kiss me,
I love the way you say you love me,
I love the way you are,
I love everything about you.
(:

Going off to wonderland alrrr.
Sayo people! ;X

Today super tired but very relaxing day in school. (: Html teacher let us off early tday after teaching for an hour only because we're good students. ;X So nice right. And so, i went to Amk hub togther with Sher and her boyfriend again. (: Wanted to go to play the swing but got some kids snatched my SWINGS lor. ): So end up we walk back to Amk hub wanting to watch movie, check time slot but doesn't match lahhh! We don't want to pay normal price when we can pay $6 for student rate. ;P So didn't watch movie in the end and we went to interchange thr and stood for like 50mins. SCARY RIGHT. 50 mins to think on a place to go for dinner, all thanks to me. ;X HEHEHE. They wanted to go Cityhall initially but today me wear lok kok so of course i dont want to go lah! And the stupid adaptor inside my bag plus tht laptop on my hands is super heavy. ;P So we took 166 to Cheenatown instead to have dinner. SEE, TRAVEL ALL THE WAY THR TO EAT. MADDNESS RIGHT. ;D So tempted to go town area/bugis/raffles city when on the bus because the bus got drive pass thr lor! Stomachpain when walking to tht place, abit of gastric also. Sad case man. ): Took mrt to Harbourfront and 80ed back to Kovan then 82ed back home. Very tired lahhh, keep sleeping on bus. ;P Planned my schedule for 2wks holiday alr! Tmr or Sunday passing both managers my schedule! Madness lah. Oh my goddd. I need to sleep now or else tmr i'll die. (:

HGTR you pig! I lovehim many manyyyy! (: Work hard togther with him, no matter how long it takes. ;D PIKACHU TONG AND SHROOMY TONG IS MY LOVE togther with HGTR!

Another post for the day but this one is just a survey lah. ;P

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Go blank? then cry. ;P

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
To have him back and i'm still waiting for tht day to come.

#3. What will your dream wedding to be like?
Just a simple one, with just close ones and family.

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
Yah.

#5. what's your ideal lover like?
Thr's only one guy who can take away my heart, and thts hgtr. (:

#6. What is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved by someone?
Both. (:

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
Until i've die? Haha. The only thing i know now is tht i'm still waiting for him.

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Continue to wait because i believe thr is still a chance. ;D

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Everything.

#10. Is being tagged fun?
-.-" Lame.

#11. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
10 yrs? Maybe a mother by then? (:

#12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
Hgtr, Sher and Pam. (:

#13. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
Funneh. ;D

#14. Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?
Married but poor because i know we'll be able to overcome every obstacles togther.

#15. What's the first thing you do every morning?
Check time and handphone.

#16. Would you give all in a relationship?
Depending on whom i am with.

#17. If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
No idea because i doubt i'll fall inlove with 2 person.

#18. What type of friends do you like?
Funneh and who will be thr for you. (:

#19. What type of friends do you dislike?
No idea, nobody's perfect.

Nobody knows how i feel.

Oh my god. Tmr is the manufacturing test alr! ): Anyway, today very fun inside library. ;X Not very but the company was great. Post alot entries tday smore, nthing better to do lah. ;P So your must continue scroll down hor!

Stayed inside library up till 7+pm and Aaron drove all of us to Amk S11 to have dinner togther but without Kim Yong & Timo. Eat bakchormeeeeeee and it's damn nice lah. My 2nd time eating thr, yesterday also eat their bakchormee. ;X Your must go there and try lah! So after eating, i wanted to take 88 back home because cannot be lightbulb again but the stupid bus ran away when i was at the traffic light. SUPER SUAY RIGHT. And so i went back interchange to take 86 instead but didn't sit togther with th couple. ;P Say i auto please.

Tmr lesson is like halfway here halfway thr. Kns. If only internet computing lab will be cancelled then very shiok, dont need to stay until 6pm. ): Holiday after tmr! YAY. Saturday work, Sunday swimming/suntan then Monday work both sides. (: Moneh please. I think i'll fail tmr's manu test because i couldn't get those points into my small brain tht consist only of stupid things. ;P

I love singing nowadays. Sing emo and sad songs togther with me please. ;X Touching lyrics make me tear. I love tht lady who sings outide Amk hub on certain days, super nice! Go thr and listen to her sing! ;X I want to go learn pool, hire a teacher for me please. CS and dota too. Bball too. Galex aka galgal asked me whether if i want to go study during the wkends. ): See how it goes tmr. HEHEHE.

Nobody understand how i feel, nobody asked how i feel.
Since tht day, all i can see is your backview from far apart. Would you ever understand?

Jaci Velasquez - Imagine me without you


As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
'Til the end of time, forever
You're the only love I'll need
In my life, you're all that matters
In my eyes, the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You're the one that's there for me

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you
I need you

Chorus:
Imagine me without you
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day
I'd be afraid without you there to see me through
Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it's just impossible
Because of you
It's all brand new
My life is now worth while
I can't imagine me without you

Verse 2:
When you caught me I was falling
Your love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard my calling
And you rushed to set me free

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you
I need you

Chorus

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you
I need you

Chorus

I can't imagine me without you

OH MY GOD. I'm now at NYP's library doing self study togther with mates. I feel as though there's smthing in my mind and heart, it's not a happy feeling. It's a feeling tht i dont like and it happens when i'm feeling stress.

AHH. Whtever. No more talk about unhappy things, shall just let it be. OH MY GOD again. I think i'm going bonkers soon. OKAYYYYYYYYY. Shall keep myself very very busy. Brother's bday coming and i doubt i'll be joining the celebration with family because got work.

OH RIGHT. Dont know wht to say anymore.
I miss him damn bloody much but i just have to stop myself from being a burden to him. Wait silently and keep quiet. (:

{EDITED}
Oh yes, new friend told me alot of things yesterday and i feel happy lah! Thankyou thankyou new friend. He's very good lah! No wonder is HGTR closeee friend, they two super good! ;D HGTR best of course. HOHO. But i super happy lah, because i know smthinggggggg. PIKACHU.

I finally understood why i love you so much. Sorry for the emo post just now. ;P I keep wondering and wondering after having my dinner just now togther with Sher. (: Studied at McDonald's today, finished one of the worksheet alr. FINALLY. S11 for dinner and sat there talk while waiting for her boyfriend. (: Amk hub walk around, then they took 86 home but i went to take 88 instead. Cannot be lightbulb alr you know. ;P My laptop went bonkers at McDonald's today, the internet connection suddenly just went bonkers and i couldn't connect because the network dont-know wht blocked me. KNS right. I thought my laptop gone case alr because not the first time spoilt lah. ;X Okay fine. I think i got no more time to play around after next wk, gonna chiong work like mad woman lah. ;P Work, study and projects. I can just bloody well go die. ): NO MORE TIME TO POST BLOG OFTEN. Sad or not people. ;X No time to sms, no time to eat, no time to play. Okay whtever.

Want go out with me must book appointment by this wk okay. ;X Confirming my schedule at both workplace this wkend. ;P Working everyday at both sides cept' tues and wed because of project work. BLAH. ):

I miss you, really. I love you, really. Thankyou for letting me understand why i'll love you so much. (:

Not gg to blog about today, super emo today. ;P Although i see him at Amk today and i'm damn freaking happy about it but i don't know why i'm upset lah. Maybe i'm still waiting for his reply. ): Okay, thankyou alot to my new friend who helped me. ;P I know you very good lah, next time treat you eat. (: And tht gavin haven't send me CS yet lah! Kns. And tht Arian havent send me DOTA yet. Kns.

Feeling damn tired and stressed up these few days because of Manufacturing process. 2 wks holidays is nthing lor, seriously. We've got piles of projects and assignments to complete and i've to go work. Sucks. (: I love HGTR and baby shroomy many many many. ;P

I think i didn't pray hard enough for you to come back to me, shall pray harder from today on. ;D

15th Sept'07

你那么爱她 歌手：林隆璇＆李圣杰


直到爱消失你才懂得
去珍惜身边每个
美好风景
只是她早已离去
直到你想通她早已经
不再对你留恋
最后的你
开始了一段挣扎
你那么爱她
为什么不把她留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱他
这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱她
为什么不把她留下
是不是你又深爱着
两个他
所以你不想再让自己
无法自拔
直到爱消失你才懂得
去珍惜身边每个
美好风景
只是他早已离去
直到你想通她早已经
不再对你留恋
最后的你
开始了一段挣扎
你那么爱她
为什么不把他留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱他
这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱她
为什么不把他留下
是不是你又深爱的
两个他所以你不想再让自己
无法自拔
你那么爱她
为什么不把她留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱他
这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱他
为什么不把她留下
是不是你又深爱的
两个他
所以你不想再让自己
无法自拔

Time really flies. I didn't realise tht i've fell in love with the same guy for more than a yr, Since March2007. I've been waiting all along, trying very hard. Sometimes seeing tht my friends are happily in love really makes me very tired. All the hurtful words he said in order to make me give up really makes me feel very tired. But still, i manage to overcome all these obstacles and continue to wait for him. (: Thankyou for tht love and i'll still continue to wait. ;DD Shroomyyy is love, you is love.

School was boring today lah, kns. ;P Maths test was bonkers, i didn't know how to do. I shall study harder from today on! (: Oh yes. 4hours break was spent at the library with 1hr plus chatting with my new friend. ;X Yah, been chatting with the new friend recently bout him. Thankyou for listening to my troubles. ;P He even tell me don't be emo and jiayou and to continue wait sia. And he told me some things! Heheee. ;P Great friend righttt! Jealous of HGTR because he got such great friends. Of course i have great friends too but they know about my problems alr lah. ;D Maths lecture was great, i listened throughout the lecture today! Can't afford to play during maths tutorials and lectures anymore. My maths bonkers alr lah! ;X 86ed to Amk hub after sch with Sher and her boyfriend then walk around awhile then take 86 home. (:

Oh yes. Smbody chatted with me ytd, i still gave him my number anyway and he was quite mad at me for telling him smthing wrong. Sher knows, HGTR knows. ;D I don't know why i gave him my number in the end also. But whtever lah, if anything goes wrong HGTR will be the first to know. ;P

At least i know, there's still a chance for us when i receive your reply after i ask you whether issit still possible or not. (:

God heard my prayers, really. I'll still continue to pray everyday and be devoted to HGTR. (:

Thankyou for everything, boy. I'm sure we'll be able to overcome this test and be togther once again. (: 15 Sept'07 love.

郭静- 百分百

牵着手买的白色的T-shirt
像约定什么都要一起了
情人節唱歌跨年看烟火 都粘着

第一次为你庆生还记得
你微笑 把烛光 吹灭了
你许的愿望让我落泪了
每个祈祷都为我

喜欢 靠在你胸口
就像躺在棉花田那么暖和你的耳语彷彿风和云朵帶我飘向天空
你的爱 让我想 作更多的梦
因为有你 让梦想都结成苹果

喜欢 你握着我手
就像合吃棉花糖那么快乐你的呵护让我像个孩子无拘无束的疯
真的爱 不用伪装 不用強求
很轻松就会懂 爱的人看着我 想什么

第一次为你庆生还记得
你微笑 把烛光 吹灭了
你许的愿望让我落泪了
每个祈祷都为我

喜欢 靠在你胸口
就像躺在棉花田那么暖和你的耳语彷彿风和云朵帶我飘向天空
你的爱 让我想 作更多的梦
因为有你 让梦想都结成苹果

喜欢 你握着我手
就像合吃棉花糖那么快乐你的呵护让我像个孩子无拘无束的疯
真的爱 不用伪装 不用強求
很轻松就会懂 爱的人看着我 想什么
Ho~ Wo~
很轻松就会懂 爱的人看着我 想什么

Janice Wei - Goodbye

I can see the pain living in your eyes. And i know how hard you try.
You deserve to have so much more. I can feel your heart and I sympathize.
And I'll never criticize. All you've ever meant to my life.

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but good-bye

You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure I'm worthy of. Losing you is painful to me

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but good-bye

You would never ask me why. My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore. I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry. There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say good-bye

Today Sharon is a happy girl. ;X I met Sher in the early morning to Bishan library to do some studying, end up we got really bored there while waiting for her boyfriend GAVIN. We waited till 4++ near to 5pm and we went to Kfc to have our first meal for the day. ;D Didn't finish up again lah, expected one. Only HGTR know my pattern when i eat KFC, and it shall not be disclosed. ;P We waited super long for him at J8 and he told us he's still at esplanade so we decided to meet at Amk. Sher and me went around laughing like kids at Amk Hub, up to down. ;X Met her boyfriend outside McDonald's and i suggested doing the report at Ronald's bench but MISTER GAVIN needed the aircon so we went in. Thankyou Sher's boyfriend MISTER GAVIN who suggested going in lah! ;X They know the reason hor! HEHE. MY GOD. Super happy also. Too bad sher didn't manage to see his handsome face, but backview and sideview alr so charming liao rightttt. ;D Do finish report, parted with them. They went off to take 86 home and i went anyhow walk until 88 bus stop and of course took 88 home. ;P


I seriously miss his hugs, i miss all his sweet actions especially. ): But it's okay! I WILLLLLLL WAIT. ;X EXAM WEEK ALRRRR. SUCKY. ); The wkend fly so quickly, need to do duty for the stupid youth day event on Friday during our brktime. SEE LAH. POLY LIFE NOT SHIOK AT ALL.

And i got smthing to showoff, I KEEP WIN SCISSORS PAPER STONE. ;P I think i become so childish and lame is because of him lor. SEEEEEE, FOR THE SAKE OF LOVE. SO WEI DA RIGHT. ;P Sher and gavin can do anything for the sake of love, I ALSO CAN OKAY! I should wrk more during the holidays so tht i have enough to survive else i can die alr. ): Nowadays people keep saying LAME to me. So bad lor, why do they have to say tht i'm lame. I'm a very serious girl okay. Imagine people i dont know also say me lame. Kns. ;X

I LOVEEEEEEEE MY BABY SHROOMY AND MICKEYMOUSE and of course HIM. ;P
i keep praying everysingle day and every minute for us to be togther once again.
I believe in God because He allow us to be togther tht time and turn this into a test for the both of us now and i'm sure we'll be able to overcome this test. (:

I hope you stay strong and let us overcome this togther. ;D
15th Sept'07

Girl: do i ever cross in ur mind?
Boy: no.
Girl: do u like me?
Boy: not really.
Girl: do u want me?
Boy: no.
Girl: would u cry if i left?
Boy: no.
Girl: would u live for me?
Boy: no.
Girl: would u do anything for me?
Boy: no.
Girl: choose-- me or ur life?
Boy: my life.
The girl runs away in shock and pain
and the boy runs after her
then says...
The reason u never cross in my mind is
because u're always on my mind..
The reason why i don't like u is
because i love u..
The reason why i don't want u is
because i need u..
The reason i wouldn't cry if u
left is
because i would die if u left..
The reason i wouldn't live for u
is
because i would die for u..
The reason why i'm not willing to
do
anything for u is
because i would do everything for u..
and
The reason i choose my life is
because
YOU ARE MY LIFE..

Hello everybody. I know you all miss me very much. ;X I GOT A SUPER GOOD THING TO TELL YOU ALL TDAY! I won the couple in scissors paper stone today. SEEE, i'm pro in tht okay. Gavin promise to send me counterstrike so tht i can play but he still havent send. Kns. ;P

Tday wasted trip to HougangPt, but still okay cos can eat fillet ohhhhhhhhh fishie. ;X Very long never eat liao hor. JEALOUS rightt. ;P Toook shuttle bus down to Serangoon North Ave 4 because of the rain and we couldn't cross over to take 159 so the clever me suggested to take the shuttle bus when we don't even know whre the bus is going. ;X Luckily it went to Serangoon NorthAve4 and we waited very very very long for the stupid bus 73. STUPID BUS, SO SLOW. SLOWPOKE. Big Mac Centre's McDonalds to study, i ended up chatting on msn with mrlamer. (: Very fun to play around on msn! Studied abit of Maths and i think i'm still very noob with it. QingLi didn't join us, we didnt find Qing Li because by the time we finish it's alr 5+pm. ;X And i wanted to pull the couple to Amk Park de playground but it rained. KNS. SO LUCKY LOR ME. ): So we ended up taking 86 back to Sk then i took 86 back to Amk to meet Gavin to study. 159ed home alone and reach home at 11+pm. ;X

Msn is getting more and more entertaining. ;D I LOVE YOU YOU LOVE ME.


Sayo.
Eyes closingggggggg alr lah!
Scissors paper stone challenge on MONDAY with my class guys and tht GALEXY. ;P
PRAY THT YOUR LOSE, I WIN.

HELLO EVERYONE.

YAY YAY YAY. Today is Saturday you know? ;D Had fun lame-ing around with polymates yesterday on Msn. I realise my life is so bitter, i always get bullied by the guys in my class and they chicken. Don't dare to accept my challenge for the scissors paper stone smore, afraid of treating me cheesy hotdog. SEE, DARE TO BULLY DONT DARE ACCEPT CHALLENGE. ;P And for your information, my school sells the yummiest and cheapest cheesy hotdog okay! want try? Come NYP buy, come come. ;D

The conversation only got two girls and thts me and sher ytd so i got bullied until super jialat. OWN CLAS REP BULLY ME LEH. Smore gang up with 0807 people, tht galexy. ): Must train our girls' power alr. ;X Girls so poor thing. I want to play counterstrike. HEHE. And Sher say she love bball, so we're gg to play soon! But still dont know which basketball court to go, jealous tht Pam's boyfriend Gary is a basketball pro. I want to be like him. EVERYTIME SHOOT CONFIRM GOAL. ;X YAY. GOAL! Then like tht everyone will cheer for me at the basketball court, SHARON WAN SHUI. Lame lah. I shall go prepare to meet tht couple soon, then to HougangPt to have lunch and do project with QingLi joining us ltr in the afternoon. HOHOHOHO.

I need to help Sher draw notes later on, she say she wants to draw money today so i told her i'll draw for her lah. ;X SEE, WHT A GOOD FRIEND I AM. Next Sunday suntanning day! HEHEHE. Super happening sia. Everyday so many things to do. Die also must complete my assignments by today! ;D

Sayo everyone.
I'm lazy to type sayonara so i type sayo. ;X

Scissors paper stone is my new game. I am going to play it with everyone tmr! (: Hell many assignments this wk. Poly not nice to study. ): Need to clear up most by tmr because it's common test wk next wk! BOOHOOOOHOO.

STUDY HARD PEOPLE TO PULL UP GPA! ;X HGTR, tht includes you. (: Jiayou jiayou jiayou. Mickeymouse and shroomy is super nice to hug at night when i'm feeling very lonely. Jealous i got shroomy right. ;X

I stay at hougang chalet level5, smbody sent me in today after verifying tht i've got serious illness for being so crazy and lame and childish. ): It's okay, i found alot of games tht i can play with them when i am bored. At least i have my shroomy and mickey to accompany me. ;D Everyone will stare at my shroomy and think wht a cute baby i have. Of course cute lah, he give one hor. Nobody can snatch. ;P Kns. Gavin checking in next tuesday and because he got a very serious illness, he's gg to stay at level 1 because the people there is afraid tht he'll commit suicide if he xiang bu kai. ;X Sher is joining him also i think. SEE, FOR THE SAKE OF LOVE LEH. I jealous alr lor. I have turned into a lightbulb alr lor, everyday be tht super bright lightbulb. ;X So sorry da ge and da jie. I shall find new friends at my new chalet so tht i won't be so bright. But bright also good right? PIKA.

Off to do smthing, very impt. And tht is to play with my lame khakis. ;X

Very very boring in schoool now. Whole class is at lab now doing some revision for the HTML test ltr on. So shitty and boring. I hate tests! Next wk is the Common tests for all modules alr. I only knew about it this morning when they mentioned tht the Manufacturing common test is just next wk, have to chiong for this whole wk alr. THEN HOLIDAY TIME! (: Holiday = party time. Gonna wrk more and play more. ;X HEHE. Zoo outing on the 17th with polymates is confirmed. I haven't eat at all today. It's okay, no idea why i've no appetite since last wk. Whtever, it's either i dont eat the whole day or eat only a snack everyday. DIET LEH. WHO CAN WIN ME. ;P I want to have small waist but the stupid bone on the sides of my waist is stopping me to have small waist so i can't wear small sizes. STUPID BONES!

I need to go rest, feeling sick. SO SICK.

Really go bonkers alr. Early in the morning come blog because i need to do smthing to occupy my braincells or else i'll be thinking about it again. PIKACHU. Add smore things to do alr! ;X I'm gg to learn how to play CounterStrike(CS) and get hooked on it. SHOOT SHOOT SHOOT. So cool right. ;D I want to play badminton, learn to play bball, tennis and play online games to make my life more happening. ;X Bball is because can tan okay, the color super chio. Who can teach me how to play around with tht ball?! If Junlong still around in Sg then good, can get him to teach me. Maybe i should swim over to Msia and find him. Hehehe. (:

Kenneth tay suan me ytd, he says tht i'm trying to revive my stupid friendster acct by adding comments to people. Fine, lame and kiddish comment. ;X He's just jealous tht i've more comments then him lor. RIGHT KENNETH? ;D And i hate taking 159, seriously. Whts wrong with those tikopeks who like to look look. Tikopeks. No matter wht time you take 159 also have tikopek one okay! I must complain alr. ): I must go prepare for school alr. SEE, poly students need to go school so early. I also must complain. RAH. TMR IS THE DAY! HEHEHE. HAPPY OKAY!

And when i say sher and bf, Gavin it means HER BOYFRIEND. DONT MISUNDERSTAND OKAY. Very impt hor. ;X

I didn't realise tht i waited so long for him alr, yet i still refuse to give up until today.

Many places to go and many things to do. (:

1) Zoo & Night safari(Act like kids there)
2) Kbox(Party time!)
3) Club/Pub(I only want to bio bio only okay!)
4) Tht playground beside Macs@AmkPark(I WAN TO PLAY THE SWING!)
5) Tanning every 2wks! START ALR!
6) Miss him
7) Think of him
8) Wait for him
9) Love him
10) HgPt Macs gathering! (I'M PLANNING ONE NOW OKAY PEOPLE!)


Interesting anot? So many places to go. ;X Gone bonkers alr me. Saturday super shiok, intend to play badminton but because of time constraint, we had to postpone. RAH. All because of tht stupid PD project, do a parachute or a glider. So stupid right. Meeting Sher and bf, Gavin to do the stupid thing and before tht, we're going to have breakfast at Hougang McDonald's! HEHE. (: Super happy. Don't tell you all Hougang whre. BLEH. Sher didn't have to do the project but i don't want to do with her boyfriend alone lah. ;X People's boyfriend leh, so of course i have to call her along right. (: A TEAM CAMP IS COMING! HIGH LAH PEOPLE. Decided not to go for dontknow who's wedding dinner afterall. Next sunday suntan session at SWIMMING POOL. Imagine me jumping inside the BIG swimming pool, so shiok. ;P Don't worry people, I'm alright. I went ki siao on the bus just now because i kept laughing to myself. But, i'm perfectly normal okay!

Gavin say my blog super emo while her girlfriend's blog very cheerful. Kns. BIAS RIGHT? ;X I shall laugh at him from today onwards. WHO TELL HIM TO SAY MY BLOG VERY EMO. (: PIKACHU TONG bite you then you know. YAY.

I'm still waiting for tht day to come, hoping tht my prayers are heard by God.

Very lucky this whole week. Lost my thumbdrive just now, and i only realise tht i didn't take back awhile ago. Must have left it there at the lab after Photoshop lesson. So sucky. Tell me how lucky am i? Now all the impt information are losttttttt smwhere on this earth. I feel like killing people lah, seriously. I want to go to ECP to blow wind. ): Yeah, thts wht Bryan said last time. Wind blow, blow wind. ;X

Anyway, i haven't joke around for a week alr. I know everyone miss my super lame jokes and crap, i'll be back soon okay! ;X So sorry to be so lame in school. Apologies to Sher and Pam who tried so hard to make me smile but sometimes i just couldn't force myself to smile. Yah, i'm damn tired this wk. So screwed up also. ):

Thankyou thankyou everyone in EI0808 who didn't ask me anything or talk about my problem. (: I WILL ENTERTAIN ALL OF YOU WITH MY SUPER LAME JOKES FROM TMR ONWARDS! Lame. ;X

I'm starting to lose confidence in winning you back from her alr. Maybe right from the start, i've alr lost but i knew how hard i've tried. And up till now, i'm still trying very hard. Not that i refuse to let go, it's because you choose to go just when i needed you most but you didn't know. Friends ask me tht day, why do i've to tear so badly for you? The reason is stated above. I choose to keep quiet and not tell them about this because i deserved it. Yeah, i deserved it for trying so hard yet receive nothing in return. I deserved it for refusing to let go and keep bugging you with all sorts of messages. I tried to stop myself from thinking about all these but i'm not you, you can just let go at once because all along, your heart was with her not me. You can't forget her and i can't forget you. Even if you've said that it's impossible anymore, i still rather wait then regret.I'll continue to try but maybe i still need sometime on my own before i can continue to be strong.

Before our relationship started, i waited for 6months.
In our relationship, i waited for 8months 10days.
After our relationship, i'm still waiting for the day when you'll forget her.

Tell me when you're ready, tell me when you've alr let go of her.

When she walks away from you madly
[ Follow her ]

When she stares at your mouth
[ smile...then kiss her ]

When she pushes you or hit's you
[ hug her tight ]

When she starts cursing at you
[ say i love you ]

When she's quiet
[ hold her hand and ask what's wrong ]

When she ignores you
[ act cute so she'll notice you ]

When she pulls away
[ Pull her back ]

When you see her at her worst
[ tell her you love her and she still
looks amazing ]

When you see her start crying
[hold her...ask her what's wrong]

When you see her walking
[ approach her..give a kiss on the
cheek. ]

When she's scared
[assure her you're not goin to leave
her ]

When she lays her head on your
shoulder
[ tilt your head too..and hold her
hand ]

When she steals your favorite hat
[ let her keep it]

When she teases you
[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]

When she doesnt answer for a long time
[ reassure her that everything is
okay ]

When she looks at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]

When she says that she likes you
[ she really does more than you could
understand ]

When she grabs at your hands
[ Hold hers and play with her
fingers ]

When she bumps into you
[ bump into her back and make her
laugh ]

When she tells you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]

When she looks at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until she does ]

When she misses you
[ she's hurting inside ]

When you break her heart
[ the pain never really goes away ]

When she says its over
[ she still wants you to be hers ]

When she repost this bulletin
[ she wants you to read it ]


- Stay on the phone with her even if
shes not saying anything.

- When she's mad hug her tight and
don't
let go

- When she says she's ok dont believe
it, talk with her

- because 10 yrs later she'll remember
you:

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday
to
te ll her you love her

- Call her before you sleep and after
you wake up

- Treat her like she's all that matters
to you.

- Tease her and let her tease you back.

- Stay up all night with her when she's
sick.
- Watch her favorite movie with her or
her favorite show even if you think its
stupid.
- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes.

- When she's bored and sad, hang out
with her.

- Let her know she's important.

- Kiss her in the pouring rain.

- When she runs up at you crying, the
first thing you say is;
"Who's ass am I kicking babe?"

If you do post this in the next four
minutes the one you love will :

•Call you.
•Kiss you.
•Love you.
•Text you.

As most of my friends or rather our friends know, this whole thing ended alr. And because of tht, i haven't eat anything for 3days. So no appetite and feeling damn sick now. Made up my mind yesterday to continue waiting no matter wht and no matter how long.

Apologies to pam and sher who've seen me cry throughout yesterday. Couldn't control. Cry until no more tears and water inside my eyes alr. Boohoohooo. Okay, i shall be strong from today onwards because i vow to wait. (:

Okay, there's this event after school tmr. Have to do duty smore lor but the shiok thing is tht we're stationing at the swimming complex which means i can suntan again. HEHE. ;X My burn is not yet healed but i dont care lar. (:

15 Sept is gonna have a place inside my heart and i will wait no matter wht happen. Even if you said tht there wont be a chance for us anymore but it doesn't matter. All your promises for me are not true but my promises will be true. ;D

Smthing terrible happened this morning. I dont want to talk about it. I hope things will be fine soon for us. (: But anyway, i went swimming with cousin today at my aunt's place over at Simei. I got sunburnt lah. Parted with her at Tampines, i took 72 then 25 back to boyfriend's place there. Thts when i couldn't control my feelings. I didn't get to meet him anyway, but i saw his brother by chance. He told me alot of things tht made me understood why boyfriend will make this choice. Instead of pushing him and forcing him, i guess i should listen to boyfriend and not make him worry anymore. ;D I love my boyfriend plenty. I hope you'll give me a chance to work things out with you once again. ):

I still choose to trust bf despite wht happen. I know him and i think i should trust him. He's the one who trusted me all along and gave me whtever i needed, i will continue to trust him until the day he mention tht hurtful word. (: I loveyou dearest!

15th Sept'07

No more doubts in the future, i promise not to make him worry anymore. (:

I don't know if boy will see tht anot but i just hope he sees it. (: Anyway, i went out today in the afternoon to meet Sher and we watched Wht happens in vegas. The movie was so-so but still okay. Abit not used to watching movie with friends alr because have been watching with boy for the past few movies. ;X And i dont like the seat today, it's kind of squeezy.

Okay, i removed the whole chunk tht i typed down there awhile ago because i remembered smthing. ;X Not gonna talk it out but whtever. You can ask me personally if you like to know. ;D PIKACHOO.

Sudden craze over PIKACHOO nowadays, i dont know why. ;P PIKACHOO AND MICKEYMOUSE IS EFFIN' ADORABLE. (: When i say PIKACHOO, your say PIKA! I'm serious okay. You can ask how great my friends were when i always disturb them with pikachoo. ;X Love them plenty lah! Cept' for kenneth who actually replied me "zapzap!". Seriously funneh. 0808 YAY.

Oh yes! I rented P.S I love you vcd just now over at Hg Mall. (: Haven't watch it yet because i reached home only at 1130pm. So tired okay. Shall watch it tmr morning instead and i've to return it by tmr. So sucky. RAH. ): Company supper was really great. Food was great, people were great too. ;D Cept' tht this time round alot of people didn't turn up. Alrights. Off to wonderland! (: YAY.

Happened to see this smwhere else and i find tht it's really true lah.

A girl wont cry easily, Except in
front of the person who she love the
most, she becomes weak..

A girl wont cry easily, only when she
loves you the most, she put down her
ego.
Guys, if a girl cries because of you
please hold her hands firmly, she's
the one who would stay with you for
the rest of your life.
Guys, if a girl cries because of you,
please dont give her up, maybe because of
your decision, you ruin her life.
When she cry right in front of you,
Look into
her eyes, can u see n feel the pain n
hurt she's feeling?

She cry not because she is weak, She
cry not because she wants sympathy or pity,
She cry, because crying silently is no
longer possible, the pain, hurt, and
agony have become too big a burden to
be kept inside..

YAY. I am back from work and i am freaking hungry now because i havent eat my lunch plus dinner. Holy crap. I haven't been updating often because of my busy schedule. ): Cca, tests, assignments, work. 24hrs seriously not enough for me. ;D But anyway, thank god for tht 3 aces in a week. I did my photoshop assignment myself this week. HEHE. Good girl right? (:

Haven't been eating on time recently. It's always very very late dinner for me or no dinner. So sucky. Gastric pains kept visiting nowadays also, sickening. >.< Anyway, 8th monthsary was very great. ;D Really. Although me and boyfriend only meet at 6+pm but we still went to Amk hub to watch movie and he was super duper sweet tht day! Love him hell many. I'm like half sick now, since few days ago. Holy crap again. I can't fall sick lah! Doing grad duty on Tues! YAY. Super fun i think. Signed up for OGL thing and i'm bloody looking forward to it also. Signed up for many events as well. (:

Alot of craps nowadays. Yaya, concentrate on studies first. ;X I am a hardwrking girl who's lazy to study. Manufact process test this coming Wed, wish me luck because i know i'll fail. HO SEH LIAO. ;P Sayonara. I shall go disturb my father to bring go eaT!

I'm a super lonely and sad girl today. Whole family out for the whole day okay, so i'm left alone. ): Hell sad. Last min decision to meet boyfriend so i had to rush over to his place in the noon time. Accompanied him till around 330pm and he had to go to work so i took 315 togther with him but i alighted at Serangoon Interchange. (: Seeing him makes me smile! Super cute boyfriend. ;D

And i 82ed to Rivervale Plaza after tht to rent dvd 'Stomp The Yard' and it's very nice okay! (: Bought my late lunch home and ate it while watching. Super bored at home luh. Family wont be back until 10+pm. There goes my Sunday. Wanted to go work initially today but luckily i didn't or else i won't be able to meet boyfriend today. ;D 2hrs also can make me smile okay! love.

I still don't know wht to eat for dinner. Shall go night market and buy food back to eat. ;D So shiok to eat and eat and eat when i've nothing to do. BLAH.

I'm still widely awake now all thanks to the list of assignments i have to complete and the stupid photoshop project i've to submit by next week and i've yet to touch on it. So shitty. ): Happy bday to Pamela now, because it've past 12am! ;D Hehe.

Completed most of my assignments alr, only left with the freaking hell PCMP and photoshop. Both are on the top list of Sharon's most hated modules. Sicko. Okay, whtever. I dont know wht i am talking anyway. Feeling so shitty nowadays. Anyway, so many people quitting pop. I dont know why. Our outlet shuaige JL is leaving this month end instead of tmr, thank god. ;D He decided to stay on till this month end instead. Teehee. Must be because of KBY and i am joking. I went to work today and everyone said tht i've become so bloody tired, the look of my face i mean. No choice, i am indeed very tired. You tell me lah, so many assignments to complete everyday tired anot. And everyday so late then reach home. Kns. ;X Okay, fine. I chose to return home late. So whtt. Boohooohoo. Feeling super duper broke nowadays cos i've been saving up and i choose to put my money at home instead of bringing it out so i choose to skip my meals and eat 1 meal perday. Must be nuts lah. ):

But anyway, A-team's GM meeting is super great cept' tht i fell down while playing wind blow wind. Fine, go ahead and laugh at me. ;D Fun lah, looking bloody forward to the camp. *GRINS* HIGH lah. But the bad thing is tht we've to get 1 full set of formal blouse + skirt + heels by next wk i think. So sucky. It will be around $100 for the cheapest set okay. Yah, we went to check out the prices at G2000 tht day. Boohoohoo. Now you know why i'm trying to save up and since i've overspent my savings this month, i'm feeling even more worst for godness sake. ): Shitty feeling. Stress over everything this whole month, made me cry so badly tht day in the morning. It's just yesterday morning, to be exact. I dont know wht happen. Don't bloody hell ask me why did i cry, because i myself dont know the reason lah. Stress i guess, over everything. Thts it, end of topic. ;D Felt better after the crying. Rahhhh. (: Alrighttt, i'm gg to sleep now and complete my Pcmp hwrk tmr instead. I am so so so tired and sad.

First of all, i got into the Ambassadors' Club! ;D So glad i got into it, it isn't easy okay. Have to go for interview one heh. ;X Quite sad tht Kim Yong didn't get into the cca, but thank god the rest got into it. ;D EI0808 got 5people in the cca! YAY.

But the sad thing is, i have to go for meeting on Wed and it's from 6 to around 9pm i think and i end school at 12pm on Wednesdays. ): Alright, i shall be grateful tht i'm able to get into it. So whtever.

Friday school isn't tht great afterall. I'm not going to talk about it anyway, since the matter is over. (: I just hope she's gonna stay strong and think through whether if she's willing to give him a chance anot. This is her future afterall and i'm going to send her an email ltr on! ;D STAY STRONG GIRL! You have EI0808 alrightt!

Alright, let's blog about ytd. ;D I went down to boyfriend's place and waited for him then went for lunch at Shieng Shiong and he went to work so i took 159 back to CompassPt, window-shopped awhile then 80ed to RivervalePlaza to rent vcds. (: Went home to find out tht my father brought my laptop out so i couldn't do my assignments so i watched vcds to waste time. ;X Out to Amk with father at night when he comes home, my super late dinner at 9++pm near to 10. Bought two tops there, i should stop bringing my wallet out. ): I keep buying new clothes lah. So shitty. Went to ave8 nightmarket after tht and bought food home. ;D

Meeting sher ltr on to do smthing and study maths. ): 4tests coming up this wk. RAH.

8monthsary coming up! ;D

Alright, weekly update again. (: Nothing much again this wk except i got to meet boyfriend twice last wk and i met him again on Tues. Happy girl again. Smthing happen to Pam last wk too but i have faith for her, she've to be strong. ;D Yah, Yiling too but i guess her mood was still pretty alright.

Today's PH and i didn't go work, so so so wasted. Sickening. $5.50 per hr lor! Whtever, i've become so lazy to work ever since i enter poly. Working only on Sundays every week and half day smore! ): HOW TO EARN MONEY LIKE THT. I must get smbody to feed me alr! Sher, see tht anottt?! ;X School's been pretty fun since the very first day cept' when we've alot assignments den you'll see everyone's very tired face. (:

Super sad because my pay's like all gone within 3 days, i need to dig out our savings again. Yah, i mean ours because it's my + bf's money. But i got put back one okayy, i always put back the next mth! ;D So honest right? *GRINS* Got my contact lens a few days ago, a new flats from Kappa few days ago, hoodie and bf shirt from online shopping a few days ago too. Dammittttttt. I feel like i'm buying things for nothing lor. But i think i'll benefit because i get to wear pretty clothes! ;DDD

Need to go do my assignment alrr, I seriously hate tht PCMP teacher. They're the only ones who give us so so so many assignments every wk, like we only have got theirs to do. SELFISH BRATS. Next wk hell lots of quizzes coming up which means i've got hell lots of things to catch up. No more playing after today! ;X Going Bugis to shop with sher ltr! Triple YAY!

Super tired now. ): Ever since school's started, i've been feeling tired every single day. RAH. 8am class just sucks lah. Why can't poly start school later? So tired to wake up at 5+am everyday lor. Kns.

Lots of homework every week and projects to be completed. ): Very sad okay. Stayed back in school to talk and slack with Pamela and Sheralyn ytd, we visited online blogs using Pam's laptop. Had to go off at 3pm, went to Popular@J8 to change my thumdrive and i waited quite long lor. Kns again. >.< Meet boyfriend after tht, blahblahblah. Private time togther. ;D I guess some of my friends can see tht my mood aint so good for the past few days. School work, Geraldine, family and relationship problem is making me feel so shitty. Crying over some small problem and making myself so stressed up. I need to de-stress lah! ): Anybody can entertain me or make my mood feel better by donating some money to me? ;DDD

Geraldine quitted school on Monday alr. Kinda sad of cos and although we were friends for only 7days or less, it felt as though we've known each other for over a yr. Whole class was super down tht day okay. ): Rah. Alright, i know we still have to continue our poly life no matter wht though. And i'm not going to waste time alr lah, going to study Coms skills. ;D Hardwrking girl okay.

Back to blog, super busy this few days with assignments, CMS and so on. Didn't have a time to rest and play since ytd because i had to rush and complete everything by today. ): Boo okayy!

Met up with Sheralyn ytd and we 159ed to Amk. Had subway for my lunch and chatted alittle while waiting for Gavin. (: He still haven't reach when i finished eating so we walk over to the library and he came over to find us when we were at Guardian. Walked to the library and it was so so crowded so we walked back and went to Coffee Bean but couldn't connect to the wireless internet so we went off to McDonald's. Gavin's "friend" came to find us and we did our CMS. Super boring okayy! ;X Sheralyn and me left first at 7+ and we 86ed back to CompassPt. Popular to get some stationaries and some food then back home. Chiong-ed all the way for my CMS and now i'm only left with Web Design CMS to complete! Have to write notes outtt. ): Super duper tired okayy.

Im going to finish everything up nowww! RAH. DONT DISTURB PLEASE. ;D

School started alr and yah, so far so good. (: Everything's so perfect in my life now! But it wasn't tht good ytd because had a super super bad quarrel again. Not quarrel but cold war. I don't know wht happen anyway, but it was my fault and i know it right from the start. Super bad mood i guess? Never ending cries after boyfriend went off. He came to find me again after awhile and we had dinner at LongJohn's, my all time favourite. ;D Everything's back to normal again.

EI0808 super nice class, crazy and fun class okay! 3yrs of friendship for us! ;D I think i'm more hardworking this year, study at home and revise notes. But poly's life super tiring for me! Sighhh. Going to revise my tutorial notes now. (: HARDWORKING RIGHTT?!

SMILESSSS.

Super good mood today because me and boyfriend okay alr. He went to work today in the end, i dont know why. So again, i didn't got a chance to talk to him. ): But it's okayy. *GRINS*

I really hate that two newcomers, girl always act innocent everything not need to do. Kanasai. Guy too too too dao alr, act for wht lor. >.< Act cool. BLAH. Tmr work again then Monday dont know do wht then Tues orientation. I AM GOING TO GO ONE DAY ONLY. ;X Xwei's brother teach me pontang lor. ;D

So happy, i dont know why. ;D Super good feeling although i'm feeling a little tired. I am going to sleeep alr. Loveeeeeeeeee. (:

I'm sorry, no more next time.

I think i ought to apologise to him, again. Super big quarrel over the past few days, things not getting any better and we didn't bother to sort it out. Sorry love. ): Mood not really that good for the both of us for the past few days because of this. Sort it out with him awhile ago and now he's sleeping alr. ;X Love love. (:

Anyway, today work was alright but it was alittle boring though. ): At least cashier was more fun than any other department. ;X Teeheee. And i loveeeeee to disturb Agnes and Baoyin today! ;D They got teased by me the whole day. Tmr working with tht new guy named Ivan, whtever. SO MANY NEWCOMERS NOWADAYS LOR. ;X I have to bring one girl to eat today because it's her first day and she got no friends. ): I AM NICE OKAY. Yah, i forced Agnes to say tht to me too. ;DDD

I am going to sleep alr because i am tired because i need to work because i need to earn money because school is starting because i need money to survive. UNDERSTAND? I think very simple to understand lah RIGHT? Dont understand means you're stupid, but it's okay, i won't scold you so don't boohoo cry ok? Like i say, I AM A NICE GIRL. (:

Gonna call boyfriend tmr because i haven't spoke to him for a long timeeeee although he just called me ytd and we talked on phone for like 5 mins ONLY. Shitass. Both of us busy with work nowadays. And tmr he's off as well as on SUNDAY. ): BUT ME? I GOT WORK LOR. Kns. ): So not fair! Sway sway tmr my housekeeping day somemore. ): URGH. I want hugs badly. Moolah running out after spending SO MUCH over the past few weeks. Wht to do nowww?! CANT REFUND. But i won't refund also lahh, so many nice clothes to wear now. ;X

Baoyin also know i rather spend my money on CLOTHES than on food. (: YAY.

Yay. New blogskin, super nice. ;D I love.

Anyway, i spent alot over the past few days. Bought a new bag, 3 new tops, 1 pair of flats, snacks, lingeries and foodd! *SMILES* Super happy when shopping, even if i'm alone. ;X Yes yes, i went out shopping alone yesterday and the weather was killing me okay. Sorching hottt! But i manage to buy new things to pamper myself. ;D Pekchek when i wanted to get a top from Fox because the size just doesn't fits me well. I tried from Size 3 to Size 1 and yet, i decided not to get because it's still quite loose for me. ):

April Fool's was spent with Pop mates, total of 10. ;D FUN DAY! Dinner at Dragon Gate Restaurant at Harbourfront in the night, had a great time cam-whoring and laughing. Sat there for 2 and half hours talking, laughing, eating. They ordered over 20plus dishes okay. Hungry people! ;X Went to outdoor area to continue chit-chatting till 11+pm and took the last train home. (:

Been going out every single day this week, only got work in the weekends plus Friday only for this week. ;X Rahh. Ltr might be going over to HgMall to find Baoyin and the rest or going to KK Hosp with mumsy for her operation. (:

BLOG AGAIN TMR!

Bad bad day tday. Kanasai. Mood spoilt early in the morning and i didn't get to meet boyfriend as planned tday. ):

Wasted cab fares tday for nothing. Not going to talk about it anyway. Super sad tht i cried again on the way home. ): Cry cry cry, cry until no more tears and water inside eyes alr. Actually still have lah, how i wish i can cry until all the water dry out. Give me a shoulder to lean on please.

Ltr going out with POP mates, combination of both groups plus gekeng. ;D Harbourfront for dinner plus shopping plus laughing. Happy thing for tday. (:

Ytd also happy day, pack condiments in the morning togther with boyfriend till noontime then to his place until evening time. I went home and he went for his competition. (: I went out to Tampines for some shopping then to T3 then to J8. Brother came to meet me, bumped into Laytin. Popular to get smthing then back home to fetch dad. Supper at Bedok before going home to sleeep! ;D

Very sad again, cannot find the korean drama i want to watch. ): Youtube, crunchyroll, tudou all dont have. Kanasai again. Curse them. ;X Going to prepare alr. Sayonara.

I decided not to change to tht blogskin anymore because it's not good. ;X BLAH.

Spent an hour or so looking for a PERFECT blogskin but couldn't find any nice one. Sucks okayy.
Okay, i take back my word. I just found one but i still prefer the current one. ): Whtever, gonna change first then continue look for another one.

Ytd off day plus payday so i went shopping with boyfriend. (: Went over to his place in the noon time and off to Bugis at around 3+pm. Yet to buy my jeans, gonna go back again to get another black skinny and denim skinny. Overspent this month so i'm now so dead alr. ): Walked to PlazaSing and i got 2 tops there and mrt-ed back to Sengkang to get my water bottle. ;D HAPPY OKAY.

Beautiful seed is my new layout. ;X i think i will miss this one more but i don't have a choice. ): Sad. Work tmr then sao mu at 1+am till morning then back to work. Shit. See, so now i am gonna have a sleepless night tmr. Can't concentrate on Sunday alr. ):

That qing wa wang zi bian dontknow what show is super nice. I am going to find tht drama from crunchyroll and watch it all tmr so tht i won't fall asleep while waiting for time to pass. ;DDD SO HAPPY AGAIN.

Talked to Agnes from POP on the phone when i was on the way home just now. Talked about some people who everyone dislikes. ;D I'M A NICE GIRL OKAYY. I listen to their troubles. ;X TEEH.

Alot of paragraph tday, no choice. Rubbish post tday. (: So tempted to go look for tht serial now. EEEE. Shall go watch it now.

I shall blog very very fast because i'm running late for work. Work work work, everyday only work. ): Super sian alr ok.

I think there's smthing wrong with my blogskin, dont know why got error. Shall change to another nicer one tmr or when i got the time. I busy woman okay. (: Dad decide to be early bird today leaving me alone at home and so, i've to go to work on my own today. Adult transportation is super expensive. Going to make my tertiary ezlink card tmr or when i'm not lazy.

Wahlao. Life sucks terribly these days. Nobody to play with me after Xwei, Winnie and Joanna left. But i manage to laugh with Waipeng and Pat and they're leaving soon also! This month end their last day so i'm going to be lonely after that. Sad case.

I want to be emo so that i can diet and eat less. ): EMO = no appetite = less food = save $$$ and slim down. ;X CLEVER RIGHTT. I'm going to do that everyday now, be emo but i think it's going to be quite tough for me because i laugh at some people ytd, again. God, please be nice to me and let me slim down. I promise i won't laugh at some innocent people if only they don't let me see their stupid actions. ;D I want to go shopping but have to buy less things this month because school starting.

Contact lens number 1, cut hair and rebond number 2. ;D
The rest i dont knowwww alr. NEED TO GO WORK LIAOOOO. Sayonara.

Super happy with my new blogskin because it's very very nice. ;D Back from Malaysia just this evening, i went there yesterday night because of qing ming jie but it's really very comfortable back at my grandma's place. Although grandparents' not around anymore but everything still the same, laughter and family love still around. (:

Very long never blog alr. Not my fault okay, super busy with work. By the time i finish work and reach home, i'm god-damn tired alr. ;X Anyway, school's starting in another 2wks and Xwei's brother is going with me to the orientation most probably. I feel as though i'm meeting him for matchmaking session because i haven't seen him before and i don't know him! Super shy okay. ;X Nobody believe me though. Winnie and Xwei laugh at me when i say i'm gonnna be super shy and i'm afraid that i won't have friends in poly. ): They say i'll definitely laugh at some people on the very first day. So nice of them rightt? ):

Class bbq on 4th April, not sure whether i'm going or not but i doubt so. Old friends going off except for a few only and let's welcome our new life with new friends in another 2wks. ;D Payday in another 3days and it's my off day togther with payday. YAY. Out with love most probably. Gonna be super broke this month anyway. ):

I promised Agnes to go back to help her out for 3hrs next wk. Gonna pack condiments for her otherwise, i won't go back there. >.<

Super busy this few weeks. School starting on 14th April, 6th monthsary tmr! ;DD YAY.

Work today is boring but okay lah, not so bad. ;X

Did cashiering today at Counter 1 and everything so accurate okayy. ;D Don't jealous. I miss boyfriend alot alot alot now. Dammit. ): Work again tmr then Sentosa with them on Wed, pray hard that it won't rain okay! No chance to meet boyfriend this week because of my work. Super saddddd.

But it's okayy, gonna make him come down to fetch me up after work! ;X I normally don't make him come down because i don't wan to waste his time and tire him so i get my father to pick me up but there's gonna be exception this week! (:

RAH. Gonna call boyfriend up nowww. ;DD

Joanna last day yesterday, super sad okay. She went for work half day somemore, everyone was like feeling quite low for the whole day. ): Luckily i had the chance to have lunch togther with her during our breaktime, my playmate!

Appeal result was out on Thursday and i got posted to NYP's Engineering Infomatics, was kind of disappointed because i wanted to get into the first choice but i got into smthing i just appealed for fun. ): BLAH. Work was really tiring yesterday and i became very very very tired.

Went to bank this afternoon then to HougangPt to accompany dad have lunch before he send me over to boyfriend's place. Went to his house to play while waiting for Kenny. (: Took 73 but we alighted at Srg Garden's bus stop to change to another bus to Amk. Movie with boy, L Change and it's quite niceee! SKIP THEN SKIP THEN SKIP, lazy to elaborate. Home awhile ago. ;D

YAY. 15th gonna go sit Singapore Flyer thinggg, boyfriend is the nicest one on the earth! (:

Today was suppose to go shopping with Baoyin but she had stomach cramp so she went back after having lunch with me. (; And so, i went shopping alone and although it's quite boring because i didn't have anyone to talk to but it's quite comfortable because i get to buy my things without any embarassment or whtever. ;D

132ed to Far East after separating with Baoyin at Hg Interchange. Walked all the way from there to Suntec City and Marina Square and it's really tiring because i stopped by each and every shopping centres on the way. ;X Got myself my conditioner, denim shorts and a watch at Bugis. And i was so tempted to get a Fox translucent top and a Grey Esprit top but when i finally decide to get it, it's either that top wasn't sold at the Suntec City or my father called at the wrong timing when i was looking at that Fox top. ): Luckily boyfriend called when i was walking to Suntec City and i finally speak up after hours of walking okay. ;X

Clarke Quay with dad for awhile then to Bugis again before going back home. (: Rah. Tmr work again, so not looking forward okay. Gonna open a new bank account this week. SMILEEEYY. MORE MONEY PLEASE. ;D

RANDOM: Super addicted to Subway for the past few weeks. ); Not a good sign because it's expensive and fattening! DIET.

Hello people. I decided to blog because i'm going ltr on! ;DD Superly happy yesterday although work was very very very bored.

Sunday off day so i went to get smthing at Amk Hub then i had my lunch at Subway. Yummy! ;D 73ed down to meet boyfriend then i went back at 3+pm and slept all the way till 6+pm. (; Dinner with my family at around 7+pm at Amk. Out with brother and girlfriend to T3 and spent hours at TCC chitchatting and eating. Home at 1+am. (:

Monday work like i said, is superly boring. But yay, boyfriend came down to have dinner with me during my dinner breaktime. (: Back to work, time pass very quickly. He fetched me home in the night after work. ;D Bedok for supper with father after that and slept from 12+am.

Rah. Joanna is leaving soon alr! ): MY PLAYING MATE is just gonna leave like this okayyy. Super sad. She's one of my very very very close friend at Pop although she's like older than me by alot but we had fun all the time when we work togther. ;X The supervisor whos taking over her came yesterday to take a look and i don't like him. I'm not being bias but he's a guy and he's not handsome. ): I am not going to play with him. ;DDD

Going out with Baoyin ltr on to trim eyebrows and she's going to wash her face and off for shopping after that! Gonna bring her brother out as well to Marine Parade. ;D SEEE. WE'RE NICE PEOPLE!

SENTOSA, I AM COMINGGGGG! ;D

Pay very little this month because of CPF. ): Left with $400plus after giving $200 to my parents but whtever, i will TRY to save and not spend money unnecessarily. ;X OFF TO PREPARE.

I want to watch P.S I love you! ): Step Up 2 is coming out soon again. ;DD Work today is super duper fun again with my mentor around. We laughed like crazy throughout the whole day and i think many customers were looking at us because we seemed to be laughing like nobody care. ;X All thanks to that new multimedia supervisor who's coming in on Monday. ;P

Counted coins for 1/2 of the day and i got really really bored inside the office. ;X Had to go home myself today because my brother drove the car out and he wasn't free. Poor me okayy. But it's okay because boyfriend called me when i was on the way home. ;DD

I wan to visit the Zoo! ;X It's been around 10 yrs since i last visited that place. ): Sentosa next Wednesday with my group. YAY. ;D

I got posted to RP's Supply chain management and i was rather looking forward to it but yah, it was spoilt by my dad's choice. He insisted that i submit an appeal to enter NYP's IT course so i had to just for the sake of him. Wanted to appeal for RP's Customer service & Relationship management or whtsoever but brother insisted that i DO NOT choose RP. Feeling damn sucky because of this now because IT is just not my type and i doubt i'll be able to manage with that course. ): Whtever. I'm going to amend my appeal ltr on and it's gonna be RP's Customer Service & Relationship blahblahblah as the first choice then NYP's IT for the 2nd. And of course i won't let them know because they gonna carry on about their fact that RP sucks terribly and i've to keep quiet throughout.

Yesterday was really a tiring day. Woke up at 8+am after receiving a sms from MOE regarding my posting result and i went online to find so many vistarians online. ;X Had a huge lecture by my dad regarding the posting result but i just kept quiet and ignored him. Out to meet Wenyan and off to Amk Hub to have Subway then to Cathay because i needed to buy tickets and so we decided to watch Ah Long Pte Ltd and it sucks, i don't know why. No storyline and it was quite lame. Thank god the movie ticket was just $6. Mrt-ed to Orchard and we walked around Far East for awhile before walking all the way down to Bugis. We dropped by Taka's Kino for awhile to look for her book before we continue walking. ;D Almost died by the time we reach Bugis because we were god-so-damn tired okay. Bought our shorts and her bag then 80ed back to Kovan. Bought t-shirts for myself and dad came to fetch me at Rivervale Plaza to Hougang8 for my late diner. (:

Meeting boyfriend ltr on for CJ7 and i think i'm really getting more and more lazy. ;X Lazy to dress up or whtsoever. Gonna wear just a t-shirt and a shorts with my havanians and off to meet him for movie. ;DD Brother is hooked up with my DS now. SEEE, i told you guys DS is addictive. (: I shall be nice and lend him for awhile since i'm heading out ltr on with my two precious love. ;D

Yay. I requested to punch out early today at 5pm because i'm lazy. ;X Tookaway dinner then 89ed home and we might be going to bai nian ltr on. (:

JAE results out tmr at 8am! Can't wait for the results. ;D Meeting Wenyan tmr for shopping and she's not coming over because my family will be home lah. Changed off day with Baoyin because i'm meeting boyfriend on Wednesday and so, Sunday no off day alr. ):

Had to record stocks these few days for CD-Rama. Tiring okayy but i had fun lah. ;X Work with KBY is fun also because she taught me how to look at handsomes and pretend that we' aint looking at them. She said that guy look like Jaychou but i was like OMG man, he's not handsome at all and he definitely dont look like Jaychou. I wonder what's her taste man. ;P

Going window shopping ltr on. TEEhee. Not going bai nian alr because brother got appointments for the rest of the night. So busy with plans this few days. RAH.

5th monthsary just ended like this. Kungfu dunk in the early noon with boyfriend at Amk then Cafe cartel for lunch at J8. Took 88 back and he dropped off to meet his friends at Hougang so i went walking around alone till my father and brother came to fetch me. Back home awhile ago anyway. (: Was super upset today i don't know why. Teared on the bus on the way back with boyfriend and yah, some kpo-s looked at me like i'm a monster or smthing because i was alone tearing like some idiot. Whtever.

Boyfriend finally called at 8+pm after i sent few sms-es over. Sucks okay. I hate the way i behave sometimes when i'm feeling super low. Apologies once again. ): I think i'm a super bad girl because i always make him angry and pick up a quarrel for nothing. ))):

Millions of sorry to you. ):

And i'm super jealous when i still see people carrying roses around today. Stupid shit. I wan roses too. ): RAH

Say goodbye to 5th monthsary and welcome 6th monthsary next month! ;DD Countdown again!

Meaning of Roses... ♥



♥ Number of Roses ♥
1 stalk - Love at 1st Sight
2 stalks - Mutual Feelings
3 stalks - I Love You
7 stalks - I am Infatuated by You
9 stalks - Together as Long as We Live
10 stalks - You are Perfect
11 stalks - You are My Treasured One
12 stalks - Be My Steady
13 stalks - Friends Forever
15 stalks - I am Sorry
20 stalks - I am Sincere Towards You
21 stalks - I am Committed to You
36 stalks - I Will Remember Our Romantic Moments
40 stalks - My Love is Genuine
99 stalks - I Will Love You Till the Day I Die
100 stalks - I am Totally Devoted to You
101 stalks - You are My One and Only
999 stalks - My Love Will Last Till the End of Time



♥ Colour of Roses ♥
Red - I love you or Encouragement
White - You are heavenly, reverence of innocence & purity
Pink - You are gentle & graceful
Light Pink - Gratitude & appreciation
Dark Pink - Admiration & sympathy joy & gladness
Orange - Enthusiasm
Blue - You are special
Purple - You are my romance
Yellow - Joy, Gladness, Freedom
Two Roses - Joined Together, Engagement
Red and White Roses - Together Unity

Lonely valentine. Super sad okay. ): Worked the whole day today and it was fun. ;DDD

Downloaded NDS games that day and i'm super addicted to it alr. Finished reading my storybooks and i'm going to borrow more tmr to keep me occupied. (: 5th monthsary tmr and it's movie with boyfriend then cafe cartel again! Gonna head home and play with my NDS in the evening because he's meeting his friends. ):

Might be going for a movie with Baoyin next Wednesday although i've work but might be going for night movie.

Wahpiang. I ate so much recently that i've grown fatter. I need to go on a diet lahh. Determination is the most important thing! ;D Off to sleep alr! Super tired after 5days of work. ;X

Helped out Stationary department today and it was boring, tiring and fun. Ran around like a stupid girl helping out both Multimedia and Stationary department, asking for help when customers ask questions that i don't know how to answer. Tiring okayyy. Run from one end to the other, why stationary department so freaking big?! Why not tiny winy then i don't have to run about and persire. ):

Tmr work again equals more running unless i'm doing cashier. At least Popular is still much wayyyy better then McDonald's. ;X SiewLuang gave us youngsters angbao today, happy girl again. So fortunate to be in my outlet. (: Joanna getting more and more crazy these days because of my influence. She said that i influened her to become more crazy, more playful and made her keep talking to herself. That's what i do when i close my cashier in the night you seee. ;X Talk laugh to myself and don't know the reason why i'm doing that. Sorry, that's how i am like.

Spent 20dollars at Pop today, after staff discount okay. Dammit. Save money save money. I feel so bad for laughing at this girl today, couldn't help it okay. Told Winnie about it and she laughed too. ;X That's how i laugh at that girl i saw outside McDonald's the other time, that one was worst okay.

Wenyan is madly inlove with this mister cutie named mph's brother. ;X She know i know and Alena know can alr. ;D I need my beauty sleep now. I want nintendo DS games, please download games and inform me. Thankyou very much people, greatly appreciated. (:

Dreads going to work. Back to work day sucks alot. I'm finding reasons to go to work late now but seemed like i failed. Whatever, i still have to go back to work. And worst. i haven't collect my angbaos yet okay. ): Family gathering on the 13th at my aunt's place but me got work so equals no angbaos this year. Sad case.

Download songs again just now, super nice songs. Dou Niu Yao Bu Yao series very nice, gogo watch. Introduced by my msia cousins, they super high tech now. Phones more expensive than me, internet is unlimited access but cheaper than mine. So unfair okay! I want to go Msia moreeee, March going back there again. You'll know the reason if you're clever, clever people. ;D

新不了情 is nice, by yang zong wei. Repeat repeat repeat all day long, at CD-Rama and psp. ;X Songs make me cry all the time, super baddy. Whyyy why why?! Need to rush to work now because i'm running late and guarantee plus chop confirm late alr. ):

And alsoooo, i bought my bangles alr! Happy girl i am. (:

Next off day on the 15th then 19th then dont-know-when alr. Tired tired but for the sake of money, i need to chiong work. Anymore lobangs people? Can start to countdown to payday again alr. ;DDDDDDD The happiest day okay.

It's Chinese New Year alr! (: And i'm back from Malaysia an hour ago after two days spent over there. I love Soo famiy lahh, they rocks plenty.

Went back to McDonald's to work on New year eve and i almost died there. Not going to hesitate about the decision i've made i guess. (: Reunion dinner with my family in the night, steamboat at home togther with my brothers' girlfriends. Both of their girlfriends came over to join us for the steamboat! ;D

New Year Day1 back to Malaysia as usual, received angbaos then slack around. Stayed overnight there then Day2 again slack around. ;D Back to Sg at 12+am because of the traffic jam at the custom. Sucks.

I hate boyfriend for working so hard sometimes. It's 2+am now and he's working, not sleeping. Piss me off, seriously. Gonna kill him when i see him. He's working at 8am again after he knock off from work at 6am.

Movie dates soon! Got 3 movies to catch this month and Cafe cartel treat from boyfriend again on the 15th for our 5th monthsary! ;D YAY. Window-shopping trip with Wenyan on the 19th, no more postpones this time i hope. (:

Save up money for shopping for the next few weeks! I've yet to visit my maternal's side relatives. Angbaos pleaseee. ;D

Woosh. Welcome my new baby from wed onwards ...

but i'm getting the one in black, not pink. ;DDD Thankyou mr KENNY. I bought it from him lahhh, still in good condition somemoree and he's selling pretty cheap. (;

Work work work all day long. Off day only on Wednesday but going back to McDonald's to work because i promised Wendy i would help her out. (; CNY comingggggg, super happy. More money into my account! Yay! Going off to work alrrr. SAYONARAAA.