Boyf and me are alright now already.
:D
Love him love him love him!

And it's funny when we dont even know the reasons why we're quarrelling this few days.
Probably pms. Probably exam stress.
We've been really tired due to the exams! ):
Cant wait for it to be over yehhhh!
And both our papers end on the same day. YAY!

Study session at CompassPt yesterday morning for awhile in the morning. Head home at around 130 because i was feeling so tired and M wants to go home. Went home, tv awhile and i slept till around 530pm. Wokeup, surf net again then watched tv then went to prepare. (: Boyf came over to Sk to pick me up before going to Pasir Ris for his brother's 21st bday celebration/bbq. Was feeling so sleepy still! Left the place after cutting cake at 11++pm because boyf had to go meet his classmates for studying. They do midnight study only, dont ask me why. :O

Reach home, washup and i went to bed soon after. :X Doubt i will be going out today. Gonna stay home, cook my lunch for myself and study! (:

Goodbyeeee!

Too lazy to update blogger.

Exam officially started today. Finally the scariest module paper down. 2 more left. (:
Have been studying with classmates recently, otherwise would be working. And thanks JJ for lending me his calculator. Been a great help for my networking paper. :D

Study session again tmr.
Not sure if im going to boyf's brother 21st bbq tmr night or not because of the huge quarrel just now. See how it goes though i doubt we will patch things up by tmr noon. (:

I cant wait for exams to be over. I cant wait to start working everyday. I cant wait to enjoy and go out with my friends. (:

Gonna go study ERP for awhile before going to bed.
GOODNIGHT!

Went on a date with boyf today.

Went to his house in the morning to wake him up, Vivo in the afternoon. Job interview, movie and he bought for me the water bottle i wanted! Shall not go into details, more at wordpress. (: Dinner at Carls' Junior after movie, slowly walked around because we were both damn full and bloated. Went back to his house for tv and rest. He send me back before he go to meet his classmates for studying. :D All in all. Thankyou for everything today dearest!

Goodluck to everyone having exams now.
Goodluck to boyf!
Goodluck to EI08!
Goodluck to Cass and JP for their N's!
Goodluck to Junheng!
Goodluck to myself!
(:

A pity. They are all going out this coming Sunday and i cant join in cause i got a paper on Monday. SAD TO THE MAXXXXXXXXXX! I WANNA ENJOYYYYY. but gonna wait till after 2nd sept! WISH ME LUCK!

Any updates will be over at wordpress for more. (:

I think it's time to change my contacts. ): OH MY GOD. $_$

Anyway, today work not bad. Sales not bad, time never pass so slow because i got my CLEOOOO. :D Was reading the magazine for 3-4 hours. Then talk to neighbours awhile. Fast! Handover at 6pm, walked around the mall and i saw smthing i like again. Oh my gosh! ): Went over to Thomson Plaza, bought some groceries and walked around the mall for awhile before i meet Sheila to get smthing from her. (: Head back Sk, 1hour journey! Was so cold in the bus or rather the whole day cause of the rain in the afternoon and i forgot to bring jacket out. Ohyessss, boyf's comfortable windbreaker is in my hands again! :X Took it home ytd and he agreed cause he still got his jacket with him. Cooked my dinner. NICEEEEEE! Tomyam soup base. Ultra double nice.

Boyf slept the whole afternoon, and he's still sleeping now i think. What a weird guy. He sleeps at near to 12pm when i was on my way to work today. I feel so tempted to eat Sakae sushi ever since i start working at Novena because my workplace is just DIRECTLY infront of sakae. And im dying to try out the korean cusine located at level 4, probably pull boyf to go try it out next month after payday. :D Job interview next monday(coming monday) at Vivo. Then gonna start mugging for exams for the remaining days of the week. Gonna die so badly! OH GREAT. I left two days to study for networking paper. Tues and Wed plus Monday night. ): Dammit! Gonna try to ask for Thursday off. Hope she agreees!

Happy 9 months anniversary boyf! (:
Love you boyf!
And im feeling tired now alrdy.
MEANS. GOODNIGHT ALL! :D

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY. :D Me attack boyf today. End up he promise me two things. TEEDEEE.
(: (: (:

Went to work in the morning, almost late and i missed the train smore so end up, gotta waste money to work. ): YOU KNOW WHAT LA. Damn sad please. Open shop, rot there. Sales not bad. And then, Michelle Chia and her group of friends came into the shop and i gotta serve them. Pretty ladies! And luckily they damn nice to buy. :D Handover shop at 6pm, meetup buyer to trade then to boyf's place. Apologies to Ry, Xueqin and co. for not going to have dinner with them. Damn broke alrdy now thts why. Went to boyf's house alrdy, waited for him to bath then to golf house there to meet his friends Tk and Sj for number ball. Slowly, their other friends came. Alan, hoifai and one more guy. Boyf won money again! But end up, the money he win is mine! Cause he promise to get me that top! :D HAPPY! Watched them play till 9+pm then went to have dinner at Bishan with boyf, tk and sj before tk send me back to sengkang along with boyf by car cause boyf lazy ride bike! (: LAZY PIG! Reach home at 11pm sharp today because of 7th month.

Ownself give target to be home by 11pm. :D And what's next. I HAVENT STUDY FOR MY EXAM AT ALL! Great. Most probably tomorrow gonna go home straight after wrk and chiong the next few days alrdy. MOTIVATE MYSELF!

20mins more. I think boyf forgot about it alrdy. Sigh.
Wait for him to talk about it first. ):

Gonna go sleep soon. TIRED LEHHHHHH.
Goodnights!

Quick post before i go to work.

Monday - Stay home the whole day. Tw drama all the way. Forgot what i did alrdy that day.

Tuesday - Stay home again for tw drama the whole day. Dinner at night with father at ave8. Home.

Wednesday - Morning and afternoon spent watching tw drama again. Fine finee, my life is all about tw drama now. But it's damn nice! :X Went to Bishan to take key from Jo in the evening, back home to change cause of the last minute decision to head out. Home at 11++pm. Continued again. :D Chatted with Tk awhile last night too. Sometimes we cant control this thoughts from entering our head but there is nothing we can do about it too. Sigh.


Working till 6 later on. Gonna meetup with a buyer to trade my dress and hopefully the other buyer doesn't play me out then i will have extra moolahhhh! :D Might be going over to boyf's place after work today.

Go and do smthing about it before i really really give up.

Very tired now still despite sleeping from 6pm to 1am. :O

Im irritated with irritating boyf now. HE KNOWS THE REASON WHY! From last night ok. I never say anything about doesnt mean i dont mind. IT IS FOR YOU TO REALISE. YOU BETTER DO SMTHING ABOUT IT BEFORE I @($*%)^!# YOU.

Stayed home the whole day today. Damn super lazy these days, probably because of my eye infection which made me dont feel like going out, dont feel like doing anything.

Managed to pack my room on Sunday and my wardrobe on Monday anyway. Threw away alot of clothes already. :D Sense of achievement! But im still not done yet deh. Kinda lazy to continue packing my room already. Im hungry now! And there's nothing for me to do. Probably go dig out food later on but i guess there's nothing for me to eat. OH MY GOSH. Hope i wont be tempted to order McDelivery. I hate to pay that extra $3 surcharge just for one meal because i rather go to the outlet and buy it myself! :X

Am getting very lazy now again. Blog tmr! (:
9th month anni in another 3 days!
YAYYYYYY.
And guess what? I will be wrking at Novena on Thursdays too so drop by to buy me drinks ok!
:X

Went to work on Friday, sales not so bad. And that was when i realise my atm card is missing also. Head home straight after work at 6pm, dig out all my bags to search for my two cards but still couldnt find. ): Onlined till around 9+pm, brother and sister-in-law came to pick me up. Left the house for supper at Geylang, dimsum! :D Went over to Geylang East NPC to make my police report then they send me to Bishan. Boyf came to pick me up at J8, went over to 186 to meet his friends. As usual, their daily routine. Went back to his house at around 3, had a chat before going to sleep at around 4 or 4+am. TIRED DEH.

Woke up at 8 to go do the registration thingy again at Orchard Hotel with Hweezi. (: DAMN TIRED. Didnt felt like going actually but that is the only day Jimmy will be going so have to go in order to settle the thing at one time. Reached there at around 10, lasted till 10++am then we went back to Sin Ming cause too tired. :X And i actually fell asleep till 2+pm. Bathed, prepared, eat then boyfriend send me to Yishun IN THE RAIN. But he told me it stopped raining when he was on the way back home. Well, smbody said that i didnt spare a thought for others just because i fall asleep. If i didnt, would i even bother to apologise in the first place and yet rush down and we had to travel in the RAIN. I didnt know that i will be so tired to fall asleep when i get home. I know it's my fault. I should have known that if im so tired then we shouldnt meet. But i didnt mean for it to happen AT ALL. ):

Boyfriend said that it was my fault too and i know it. But i was being said like i did it purposely and didnt feel sorry for it. I apologised and i've explained. Sigh. Let it be then.

Didnt have my dinner last night, left for home at around 8pm. Head home and dropped dead on bed. Did i mention that my eye is getting worst now? And now i cant wear my contact lens out. ): GREAT UH! UNLUCKY TO THE MAX THIS WEEK.

Thanks to Sher for the help btw. She's there to help me out everytime i face problems and my family refused to help me out. Thanks alot sexy! :D

Thanks to Boyf for being so nice to me. Well, maybe he was right not to answer some of the question marks and insecurity in my heart. He said that he dont want to answer the questions because he would be lying to me and himself if he answered yes or no. Because he wouldnt know what will happen in the future. Maybe i shouldnt even talk about the future anymore and the more i shouldnt talk about the past anymore. But there are times when i just couldnt control the attacks by all those questions that made me feel insecure. Boyf said that we should just care about the present and cherish all the times we have now. (: (: Love him! 9th month anni coming soon but it's on a friday. SAD! He got soccer on fridays, i got work on fridays though it ends at 6pm but it's the time his soccer game start! And his exam is 4 days after our anni. ): See how it goes yeh. I was expecting a meal tgt only thats all but it just coincidently happen to be on a friday. BLAHHHHHH.

Gonna go study now already. (:
Probably stay home today.

I realised...

there are so many things i still cant let go up till today.

.I dont know what i want either. I dont know myself anymore. So many things kept aside in my heart. So many things i chose not to talk about. So many things i pretended like it is no longer bothering me. So many things i want to let go long long long time ago. So many things i regretted.
.So many things i thought i had already forgotten and let go.


.And when it come to times like this. The only thing i yearn for is boyfriend's comfortable hug, telling me that everything will be alright and he'll be there for me. But a pity, he's not here with me right now.
I just hate to think about the past. I am gonna try again, try to let go all of it.
All over again.


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Back home after a long and tiring day. Slept at 4 last night, woke up at 9 this morning. Hell sleepy. Rushed to Woodlands to meet KY at the library to study. Yawning non-stop. As usual lah. Rubbish all come out in between to make us laugh. :X And damn greatttt. ME KANA SORE EYE! PAIN YOU KNOW! ): Left the library to have lunch at 2pm, and i regretted eating ban mian cause it sucks. NOT NICE. Didnt even finish half of it, walked around the whole mall again and again after eating. He accompanied me to wait for time to pass cause i only had to reach town at 430. :d Took mrt to town, meetup with Hweezi. Wasted trip. And i realised smthing. IMPORTANT NEWS. Got a shock of my life and i only just realised today.

DOUBLE.
SWAYNESS.

Went to Taka with her after that, then back to Bishan to buy desserts then back to the guys' house. Our boyfriends laaa! (: Dinner followed by dessert followed by teeveee. Almost fall asleep. Boyfriend accompanied me to Thomson to collect my dress then he send me back.

Im feeling so shitty now. I cant find my IC. WHERE THE HELL DID I PUT!
DEEP SHIT.
Work tmr.
PLEASE LET ME FIND MY IC BY TMR! ): ):

Gonna turn in already cause of my SORE EYE.
RED EYEEEEEE! :d

Studied, nua-ed at home today. Still feeling damn lazy and tired after around one month of chiong-ing for tests and projects. Slept for near to 12hours last night but the more i sleep, the more tired i am. Killer.

Told mum about the HK trip in December and she allows! :D Happy shit. Cant wait. I wanna go Bangkok, I wanna go HK, I wanna go TW. So many places i wanna goooooo but have to one at a time. ): Gonna study hard for the upcoming exams and prove my dad wrong.

Gathering next Friday evening! Not sure am going or not but i wanna gooooo so much. Miss them alott but gonna see if im still broke by then or not. Am very broke this month especially now. I miss going out with cliques too but i guess everyone are busy for their N's and school and everything. ): And im busy with my schoolwork and exams. Wont be having too much fun during this two weeks of study break deh.

Gonna go watch tebe again! (:
And lastly, i love teri teoooo! Sometimes i miss disturbing him so muchhhh. :X

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Life is damn short. ):
R.I.P Noorzan.
Seriously, he's a really nice guy. He kept quiet throughout the times when people commented about him and everything. He didnt even say anything about it and tolerated it. He talked to us nicely still despite all. And now, he's gone. To a better place i guess. ):

Last minute change of plan in the evening. Went down to usual place to meet Cass to have dinner. JP was there too. Sat down and talk after dinner at Kfc, talked with riders and Rohman uncle. Rohman uncle is another guy i admire, he's like a father to us who give us suggestions and advices. And he gave me advices just now. :D Damn long never see them already especially Syazwan! He was there working today, had a short chat with him while i was waiting for Cass too. (: Glad everything's fine for everyone of us now. A pity i didnt get to see Azri and Azhfar today. Left even before they arrived.

Left for home soon after cause my head was hurting. Shitty. I hate it when my head spins. It gives me headache. Tmr study in the morning with KY at Woodlands then to town in the late afternoon to meet Hweezi for the F1 registration thingy.

Gonna sleep early again tonight.
((:

Finally its overrrrrrrr! Shiok to the max. Like a burden off your chest. But another burden entered my chest.

Spent the whole day doing project, rushing like hell yesterday. Afternoon went over to RVM to meet MM and YL before going to Sher's house. Was feeling damn sleepy. Head home at 6+pm and continued doing all the way till 12+am. And yes, my "GREAT" father actually took out the plug and i left my battery at home. Great uhh. The whole laptop shut down on me and i didnt save. Was feeling so pissed off. Curse and swear!

This morning woke up at 6+am to rush the report, meetup with Sher and we cabbed down to school at around 8. Last minute rush through the project work and report, presentation over. Went off with Sher back to Sk to put our laptops at home then to PS for lunch. ION cause she wanted to get smthing and we had to rush over to Lavendar for my interview which i didnt go in the end at the very last minute because of the environment around the building. Walked back to bus stop, took bus back to Amk and that pighead didnt answer my calls. Went down to Eunos alone in the end to collect smthing then head back home. Expected, my dearest boyf fell asleep again! ):

Very tiredddddddddd. Gonna go watch tv already! :D
Finally can relaxxxxxx.

Too lazy to dress up on National Day. Dressed casually and went off to Novena for my interview. Or rather go there to sign contract only. :X Starting work this coming Friday at Novenaa! Bought McDonald's for lunch then to boyf's house. Ate our lunch, watched tv, watched him play dota and then tv again. Bored to the max. Head out at 7+pm to meet Hoifai and gf and their friend at Macperson. The journey there ultra shiok. :D ME LIKE. Went up to blocks cause wanted to watch fireworks but realise it's over already. Went back to Sin ming cause the guys wants to play number ball. Watched them play then TK came and yayyyyyyyyyyy.Boyf won money! (:

Left the place at 12, boyf wanted to ride his bike home first so TK drove us back to boyf's place to fetch boyf after parking his bike. (: The way he drive and corner, one word. SCARY! Reckless driver indeed. :X Went to fetch their other friends at Bishan then wanted to go to Jalan Kayu for supper but boyf decided to let me go home first cause i said i didnt want to go back late. END UP, NO FOOD FOR ME. Sad or not! Quarrelled with boyf after i reach home, BIG BIG QUARREL. WTH. Double sadness for me. Slept without eating after i got so pissed off. ):

Boyf's family gonna go watch GJ today! In the afternoon which means i cant join in cause have to go to Sher's house with MM and YL to chiong project. STUPID PROJECT! Curse and swear. ):

Blog again tonight! :D

Friday was spent in school. In school from 12 to 6pm doing project with the guys + Yannan. ): What a project. Worst than any other projects. Left the school at 6pm for Clementi then to Whampoa then to Serangoon then cabbed home. Killer tired. Continued project awhile then knocked out on bed at around 2.

Today cabbed down to boyf house cause i was DAMN lazy. Ate the bread that his brother's gf made then watched tv and continued on my project. The whole afternoon till evening was spent doing that project. Ate our dinner after his father came back, bathed and went out to meet his friends. And his friend actually said that im so quiet. I think for boyf's friends and relatives and family would always be saying that im very quiet. :D Good sign or bad sign? Up till now i still cant open up to them, probably because i seldom see them. VERY VERY SELDOM. ): Boyf sent me home tgt with his friends at around 1+am after we got so bored sitting down at st22. And he got pissed off because of smthing when he reach my place downstairs so i shall be a good girlfriend and not irritate him now. :X

Tmr National Dayyyyyyy. Gonna be another day spent with boyf. (: Afternoon will be going Novena for my interview first. Gotta go back to do my project now. TOOOOOODOO.

I realise we got alot of things left undone. One word. DIEE!

Yesterday was really a busy day so didnt update. (:

Woke up at 7+am yesterday morning and realise i was about to be late. Rushed all the way to school, reached at 9am instead of 8. And furthermore, i got a test early in the morning. Lucky manage to finish within an hour. :X Hiak hiak. After netcom, to library to study WAD and CA with classmates. 1-2pm netcom lecture then to level 5 to continue study for that two test. Kinda screwed up my CA test. Did study for it but out of a sudden when i realise i only have half an hour left for 2 or 3 qns, my mind went blank. WTH. And i just anyhow scribbled the answers down. ):

Walked to yck with the guys and Joyce caught up with us after awhile. Last minute decision to have dinner with Kimyong and Joyce over at Bishan. :D Love having dinners with friends! And i brought them to all 3 coffeeshops and finally settled down at S11. And irritating cleaner at Kim San Leng who said that we were blocking the way just because me and joyce was playing sissors paper stone to decide on where we should eat instead though no one was trying to walk pass us. So we left that coffeeshop and went to the other. Talked after eating, then head home. (:

And today, woke up at around 10+ in the morning, head out to TP to meet Sher and Kenneth to do our proj. Gavin came afterwards, was like stoning there instead. :X Left the school at around 5+pm, took bus to Tampines and walked around awhile before going home. Started on making my ERP notes just now. (:

Boyf called just now. Plans to go HK in Decemberrrrrr! :X Not sure if im going or not though. Gonna confirm by end of this month. If im going means gotta save up every penny for this trip! OHHHH MY. But the good thing is that, we dont have to worry about our lodging issue cause will be going back with his friend who's staying in HK! See how it goes yeh. (:

Gonna go back to my ERP notes while waiting for boyf's call! (:

Edited post options again. Time check: 0224AM.
Everytime post at 2am then go sleep. :O

Very bery tired. To the max already. Body system gonna die soon. ):
Mood wasnt very good since Sunday. Broke down at night on Sunday. Sudden attack. Buried myself in the wet pillow to sleep.

The next day Monday was super bad. Whole day having severe headache but not to the extent that i will faint. Was damn tired. Went to school, supposed to meet boyf after school but he decided to bring his bike for inspection because i end school late. So end up not meeting but its alright. (: Had dinner with Kenneth after school and i went to CompassPt to get my solution for my lenses before going home. Small tiff with boyf but after that made it up. Gotta apologise to boyf about it deh. Forgot what i did in the night. Watched tv, studied abit of CA. Slept at near to 3 again. WTHHH!

TODAY. Slight headache still. Despite sleeping late, i went back to school in the morning even though no class. Studied with Anthony, MM, YL, Joyce, Yannan and Gavin came in the afternoon. (: CA the whole morning, WAD in the afternoon but MM only went through with me. DBMS lecturer was damn nice to let us have his 2hours of class to do our own revision for our test. I think even he pity us for having 3 TEST in a SINGLE DAY. Killer. He went through DBMS test paper for an hour and let us have the rest of the time. :D Left school at around 530pm, cabbed to boyf's place because i was too tired to walk to yck and take a bus. Ended up, i waited at his house downstairs for half an hour! >< Went up, had dinner, watched movie, had pizzas and short nap for like 10mins. (: Cold war with boyf all the way till back home. Or rather until now still cause i said smthing wrong. Though i know i've been feeling so tired thats why i feel irritated and will pick a fight with him. But i guess he's clever enough to ignore my nonsense. :X Love him deh. BUT IRRITATING HIM IGNOREE MEEEEE.

Studied WAD and CA just now. Double killer. Anthony was damn nice to call me go sleep just now at near to 1am. Mother said that i would definitely collaspe if this continues. Tomorrowwwww or rather later. Less than 2hours of sleep left for me now. Have to wake up at 530am cause class is at 8AM. I AM VERY VERY TIRED.

F1 job secured. Thanks to Jimmy. Managed to pull in Sher and Hweezi too. :D
Novena job interview changed to Saturday morning. Teedee.

Me not enough rest = mood down = DONT IRRITATE ME.
And if i did show a moodless face to anyone of you, please dont mind me! ): Just too tired and stressedup already. I NEED REDBULLLLLLLLLL.


I miss Teri teo's hugs now. I NEED IT!

Today is just so not my day. I feel like hurling !#$%(^)&@$* but i know i shouldn't.

Enough nonsense, enough shit to make me break down today. When i was feeling better after complaining to someone, the other person was making the other part of me GO UP again. Adding on to everything.



And conclusion, im feeling very down now. Hope i wont break down today. NOT TODAY. I AM NOT GOING TO SHED ANY TEARS FOR ANYONE TODAY.



I AM SUPPOSED TO STAY STRONG AND NOT CARE ABOUT THESE PEOPLE WHO DOESN'T APPRECIATE ME AND MY HELP. I AM NOT GOING TO BOTHER ABOUT PEOPLE WHO DOESN'T GIVE ME BASIC RESPECT WHEN I GAVE THAT SOMEONE. So what if you have the rank? So what if you have the authority? AT THE VERY LEAST. Give someone the respect if you want them to respect you. I dont deserve such treatment at all.

We are all human beings. And so much for going down to work today. Shouldn't even have agreed to help out if i know that such a thing will happen. And they will definitely say, not happy dont work. They can live without us. Not the first time hearing that from them anyway.



And i think i have to apologise to KL. But yeh, KL and the topic im talking about above is totally irrelevant. I have nice RM. (:

URGH.

Enough about it. Last minute called down for work, 330 to 7. Head home straight. TV, abit of ERP and abit of CA revision. Tomorrow ERP day because morning 2 hours of ERP, 2hours of WAD and another 2 hours of ERP make-up class. I hate long school days.

I need something to make me feel better. I need someone to make me smile.

Today woke up at 12 all thanks to my alarm. :O I think i would still be sleeping if my alarm doesn't sound. Job interview later on at Eunos. FAR DEH! Hate travelling so far now cause i will be very very lazy to go. And i dont like job interviews!

Gonna go home after job interview and wait for F*47**D to comee pick me up! (:
Should i work on National Day? Wahpianggg. I wanna go out i wanna go out!
And the more i dont think i should work after last night.
If im unappreciated at work, then why do i have to work right?

See how the interview goes later on. :D
Blog tonight after i come back from boyf's cousin's bbq.


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Time check: 207AM. Just bathed finish, smell super nicee now. Plus boyf's jersey, make me ultra comfortable. I think if at boyf's house plus his bed, would be perfect already. ):

Watched tv, onlined while waiting for boyf to come pick me up just now. He finally came at around 8pm, reached Pasir Ris park for his cousin's bbq at around 830. All the way till 1am. Eat, talk, laugh, cut cake. :D One of boyf's aunt family only came in near to 1030pm and the other one about 11pm. Kept eating throughout the whole night. :X Grown fatter again. Boyf was so nice to peel prawns for me, take out the crab meat for me, feed me stingray and sotongs, take water for me again and again. Me love him! :D He then send me home at 1+am after we cleared up the place. Gonna stay home tmr to study i guess. (: Gonna nights out soon!

Goodnights people!