Yesterday school was okay. H&F lesson was ok, played basketball. Just kept shooting but my shooting skill sucks alot. I think i'm gonna spend time learning how to shoot! Next lesson gonna be 2.4km run. Spent D&T lesson doing my SS notes while the rest do the present for Miss Ezarin. (: I wasn't in the mood so i just kept quiet throughout the free period. Lessons then home after school. Dad drive me over to Wenyan's place at 6+pm to save the class photos into my phone and we went back to fetch my brother up then down to Lorong Ah Soo to drop him off before going to Kovan to print the photos. Back to Lorong Ah Soo to have dinner at 9+pm before going back home. ;]

Today school was ok. Rush through the present duing recess time and finally complete it during Geo lesson. ;D Sat at the back of the class with the guys and finish up everything. Assembly was boring luh. Back to class and the whole class waited for Miss Ezarin and her bf. Speech by Roy representing the whole class followed by presentation of the present by Wai yang, presentation of presents from individuals and lastly, class photo taking. ;] Quite a few people teared, held back my tears again. Home after that by lrt. Chatted with Weiwen a little. (: Cooked instant noodles, my only food since morning ok. I'm trying very hard to save money luh. Gonna go over to CompassPt to print class photos again ltr on. The latest photos! ;D

I hate them for looking down on me. Yesterday was really a bad day, i wasn't in the mood for anything and my father just nagged at me. I couldn't be bothered with my brother and my dad of cos, so i didn't answer them or clarify anything at all. I teared while eating, not because i'm guilty that i didn't study but because they don't even give me that little bit of trust at all and i was feeling quite vexed. I dont see any need to clarify anything if they insist on smthing and my father kept saying that if it's my second brother, he would be able to trust him and so on but not me and he just kept shooting me that i'll fail my O's. The whole family is like all ganging up to go against me 1 person. 3 against 1 now. How great uh. (: My second brother left the home first because of this family, i guess next will be me. I'm definitely sure that i'll move out one day but i'll just have to wait till after i've graduated from the poly life and after i've got a stable job to support myself. ;D

I swear i'll prove them wrong, Muthufuckers.

Apologies to my lovelies in school today because of my sucky attittude towards everyone and every single thing today.

I decided to study hard for my Prelims from today onwards, gonna mug hard for the exams and prove my parents wrong for looking down on me. For the time being, please do not ask me out for shopping or slacking except for special occasions. (: And please tell me in advance!

We've agreed to have study sessions 3 days each week togther, both Wenyan and me and most probably Alena will be coming along with us if she's free. ;D Tues and Thurs will be in school for night class and Saturday will be at our usual place i guess. But i doubt i can make it this saturday if Fiona and co. wants to celebrate Saoyi's and Mike's birthday. Damn. My money getting lesser each day. I guess i've to start saving all over again because i'm gonna get smthing tmr and there goes every single cent i have.

Amk study session with Alena at Amk Park McDonald's on Friday night was alright. We didnt smoke but we breathed in those smelly air that almost killed us so we changed seats. (; Had dinner at 7+pm and left at 8+pm. 159ed to CompassPt, Popular to get my glue and accompanied her to the bus interchange before i leave to meet my dad. Home after dad had his dinner. ;]

Yesterday had Chemistry Mock Exam. I don't want to talk about it because i didn't study hard for it. I only studied one chapter for the mock paper so i doubt i'll do well for it. Accompanied Wenyan to wait for Nita and we went home. (: Cabbed down to HougangPt, chitchatted with Cynthia and she told me smthing so sweet ok! Ate and studied a little there before going over to void deck and continued studying while waiting for Wenyan. Meet Wenyan up, Kfc for lunch before going over to the void deck for study session till 5+pm. ;D Walked to ave8 to buy my dinner home and we had a good time laughing at someone, i'm not being mean ok! Walked to bus stop and we separated. ;D

Today went to work, took a cab down because i was running late. Work till 3pm and help out awhile more. (: 161ed home alone today and i've no idea why my backbone hurts so much since morning! Gonna get dad to massage my back for me ltr on. ;P Yayness! Tmr school and there's H&F and D&T lessons so we've got free periods! (: Gonna do Miss Ezarin's present tmr during D&T lesson and i dont look forward to Tues! It's her last day and her fiance is coming to school so we've got phototaking with her again! I think most of us will cry again on Tuesday.

Off to study Social Studies! ;D
HGTR is my love despite all the quarrels. ^^

Wed after school went down to Amk with Wenyan, hoping to get her cardigen but we just couldn't find the shop. Popular to get the board for Yunda's card and had dinner at S11 before going back. 136ed home and i reach home only at 8+pm. Hell tiring. (:

Thurs school was ok. Soccer is getting more and more boring for me. I prefer Mondays cos it's basketball. ;D Maths Mock Paper 2 after school for 2 and half hrs, bet i'm gonna flunk that paper again. Home after mock paper, bathed and changed. 161ed down to HougangPt. Meet him up, had dinner at Kfc then 161ed back to Sengkang. ;D Home at 9+pm. Thanks to him.

Today had Physics paper after school. It was a re-test but i didn't study for it. Meeting Alena at 5pm ltr on. (: Amk for study session today! I realise i've been going out every single day this whole week and not staying at home. My family relationship has been getting worst and i realise he's the only one who i can confide on when i've problems although he always scolds me. >.< Thanks to my lovelies as well!

I'm somehow annoyed by someone's behaviour. Just stop acting like it's her fault alright. Blame it on yourself because your character just turns people off so dont blame her for ignoring you and etc. Change your character before you try to act kelian and you dont deserve any sympathy at all!

School was ok except that we're having more and more mock exams. >.< 24hrs is really not enough for me. I dont know what's wrong with me this whole week and last week. Throwing tantrums, making a fuss out of everything, breaking down and crying suddenly and etc.

Monday had school until 530pm because i went back for Geog Crt at 430pm. (: Yesterday meet R up and i showed him attitude again. Cried again in the night. Poor him, he've to tolerate all my temper and attitude everytime we meet up. ): I'm really sorry. Home at 8+pm and luckily, the night was good before we went home. ;D

My schedule is like so packed this whole week again. Have to get Yunda's bday card and get everyone to sign the card by Saturday, probably going down to find them this coming Fri. (: Alrights! off to school!

Quarrelled with him badly yesterday, one of the worst quarrel ever. I don't want to talk much about it but his words are always so hurtful to me. Choices have consequences.

A great marriage is not when the perfect couple comes togther. It is when an imperfect couple leaves to enjoy their differences. (:

Monday had my O level's Chinese Listening, it was quite tough but still pretty alright for me though. (: After school cabbed down to HougangMall togther with Alena and Wenyan. Bought candies and to the libray to borrow books then home. ;D

Tues after school rush home after class photo taking togther with Miss Ezarin and Mr Rashidin, bathed and changed then meet Wenyan at Kovan. Bought drinks and Popular to get pens and notebooks before taking the train down to Parklane Mall. Had a hard time in the shop because everything was in a mess and we just had to rush everything. 65ed down to Tampines, had our late dinner at LongJohn then went to get snacks for the camp. (: 72ed down to her place to get the class list and i went home. Started making calls and it was tiring but my dad was nice to fetch me home anyway. Brother came along and we went back to Sengkang to fetch my brother's girlfriend before going over to Amk for supper but i skipped it. ;D Home at 11++pm.

Wed to Fri was motivational camp. It was awsome because of the trainers. Danny, Adam Khoo and Andrea. (: They really changed my life and woke me up from all the stupid things that i've done for the past 16years. Really appreciate them for everything on the past 3days and i salute them! Home at 10+ or 11+ for the past 3 days cos we're dismissed only at 9pm. And now, i really miss those 3 people esp Danny because he's so so so cool, his strawberry, his jokes, his vulgurities! And Adam Khoo because of his poses that make us laugh alot and his motivative words. They're just like one of us throughout that 3 days, the 5N's togther with them cried togther, laughed togther and cheered togther. Cheers to them and they'll just stay in my heart forever and the 5N's will definitely rmber them for life! The last day of the camp was closing ceremony at night, Danny was suppose to close but because of us, his friend took over the job. >.< The closing ceremony was really touching, esp KenT words to his parents and Lisa's one. I almost teared but i held back throughout. After the closing ceremony, 5n2 went to look for Miss Ezarin immediately. Everyone spoke to Miss Ezarin and hugged her. ;D She's another lady who inspire 5n2 and never gave up on us for the past 2 years. We're just gonna miss her and keep her in our hearts as well! (:

Today school for mock exams. Only sat for the Physics paper and skipped the English paper togther with Feng Wei, Darren Choo, Ah boon, Alena, Wenyan and Yue Seng. ;D 5N2 united. Went to Rivervale Plaza to withdraw money then to Kfc for brkfast/lunch at 10+am. 80ed down to Bugis with Wenyan while the rest went home. Wenyan and me bought a top each then walk around there. (: Started raining but we still walk to Parklane Mall. Waited for 2hrs for the class tees to be ready, collected the tops and train-ed down to Serangoon. 82ed home. ;D


your words sometimes hurt me deeply, so hard that i feel so useless and have the thought of giving up.

This week gonna be hell busy. >.<>.<>.< I think i'll probably die soon.

Tuesday school again then to Kovan with Wenyan and Alena for snow ice but only Wenyan ate snow ice because Alena and me changed our mind to have a proper meal instead although i was quite full. Kinda regret because i was full but i still ordered the food. ): Whatever. Home after that because i needed to do smthing. Hah. Out to meet R at 6+pm and back home at 10+pm.

Wedneday school but it rained when i was preparing luh. Wanted to take a cab to school simply because my house doesnt have any umbrellas but the rain stopped! (: So took lrt instead and reach school just on time. Home after school.

Thurs school, had Maths Graph test after school. I bet i'm gonna flunk that paper as well but who cares. Quite a bad day for me anyway. Ladies know why uh. ;D He came down to Sengkang to find me after my school. Met him on the bus when we were alighting. Slacked at void deck before going home at 5+pm. Time just flies whenever i'm with him.

Fri school. Home after school, played Time Crisis II on my brother's Ps2. ;D Bathed and prepared den bused down to his place and waited for him downstairs. Went separate ways at 8+pm. I walk alone to RivervaleMall and it was kinda scary for me but was quite a bad day for me anyway so i needed some quiet time. (: I just love walking so much because it makes me feel comfortable. Friday the 13th just sucks.

Today woke up early in the morning, helped my dad dye his hair. ;D Watch movie on crunchyroll till 2 den prepared. Out to meet Wenyan, 80ed down to Bugis. Went to get her shorts then 80ed back. She went to her grandma's place and i alighted at Sengkang. (: Walked back home really slowly. The cramps are killing me. Damn. Did my Maths homework just now and i've alot more to go. (: Gonna complete it by tonight cos i've work tmr!

Lots of unhappiness between me and him these few days, but there's still happy moments as well. Thanks alot for giving in to me and tolerating my sucky attitude. I just want to tell you that i'm sorry for spoiling your mood. ):

Friday school. Rivervale Plaza after school togther with Wenyan and Alena for lunch then back to school for Chinese Oral with Wenyan. It was tough but who cares, it's over. (: Head home, bath and prepared. Meet R and trained down to PlazaSing for movie, Transformers. ;D Nice! Home at 11+pm after having supper at RivervaleMall Mcdonald's.

Sat school for Chem & English Mock Papers. Prepared to fail these two papers because i didn't study for Chem and i didn't have the mood to do my English paper. Home after school then meet Wenyan at Serangoon at around 2pm. (: 105ed to Singapore Poly and we just walk aimlessly around the school. Mrt-ed down to Bugis, search for Kenny's present and got him a top. Window shopped awhile then 80ed back to Kovan at 5+pm. Popular to get Wenyan's stationaries and we went to see smthing before going back. I left first at 7+pm. Mrt-ed then lrt-ed home, showered and changed before heading out again. ;D Waited for R then we slack at void deck again before going to Amk at 10+pm to meet the rest. Waited for that birthday boy and we had super late dinner/supper at Kfc. Cab home at 12++am.

Sunday went back to Msia in the morning with my dad and had lots of durians over there despite the heat. The sun was killing me when we went out to have lunch togther with my uncles and cousins but i love the sun! (; Slept in the afternoon then we went back to Singapore. Reach Sg at 6+pm, had dinner at Tpy before going home.

Today back to school. Lessons sucks on Monday lah. But we get to play Bball during H&F lesson every week! ;DD But i didn't get to play it today because i didnt take my Napfa test last term. >.< Meet R again after school. Home at 5+pm. ;D

Dad fell sick alr and i may have to go school alone tmr. ): How sucky.
Life rules with so many loved ones around especially my sisters and R. (:

I'm gonna have lots of Mock Exams coming up every Saturday and Motivation camp from 18th to 20th 8am to 9pm for that 3days. And i won't be able to eat every day during recess because i skip CCA ever since sec4 and i've to make up for it. ): The school is just trying to stress all of us out.

Friday was outing day togther with Wenyan. Amk followed by Bugis then to Far East and back to Serangoon then lastly, home.



Saturday was CIP day followed by lunch togther with 5N2 then walk around CompassPt togther with Wenyan and Alena then home. (:

Sunday was working day, Pea Program so i had to help Wendy to work. Work till 430pm and wasn't such a good day anyway. Cynthia's bday so Laytin bought a cake and we had cake cutting session after we punch out at the lobby togther with a few people including our birthday girl! ;D Went home at around 5+pm. CompassPt to buy dinner home and then walk home.

Monday Youth Day. Went out with Wenyan and Alena to Pasir Ris Downtown to play arcade. (: Played for a few hrs then we went to Mcdonald's for drinks. I left at 5++pm and took bus down to his place nearby. Went to Hougang Green for dinner then went back Sengkang. Smthing happen after that, not gonna talk about it but it made me sad and i cried alittle. >.< But ltr on things were ok alr. ;D Slacked at void deck till 10+pm then home.

Tuesday school day. After school went out with Wenyan and Alena to CompassPt for Burger King. (: Home after that then went out to Amk with them again in the evening for study session. But turn out to be a slacking session instead for me. ;x Didnt have the mood to touch my books that night. Home at 10+pm.

Wed school then home after school because school ends late on Wed.

Today school then CompassPt with Wenyan to get her brother's bday present. Bought candies and seaweed and milk tea! (: Home after that.

Tmr and saturday gonna be a long day for me! And i'm having my O'levels Chinese Oral tmr!
Kenny's bday this coming Saturday! One after another..