Wanted to blog on Christmas but end up too lazy cause was busy watching Tao Hua Xiao Mei! And i finally finished 10 episodes after chionging the drama last night, watched till 4+am then sleep.

Anyway, xmas eve was out to have lunch with my dad and sister-in-law in the afternoon then work from 6 to 9pm and then dearby decided to come fetch me! :D So he came at 9+pm, and Jasmine called to say she's at Novena too! But didnt meet up with her cause her friend was rushing off. ): Left with dearby back to my house first cause i was wearing a tank dress plus my laptop was super irritating. Went home, changed into shorts and put all my things. Left the house for Chompchomp for supper! :D :D Dearby's treat! Was dead full! Walked around and had a short chat along the kerb of the carpark before going to Sengkang Park to continue 2nd part of the chatting! (: Left for the newly opened 24hrs Kopitiam to buy food for my father before going home, reached home at 1++am and slept at 3+am!

Christmas on Friday was work again. Met up with JJ before going to work at Bishan to borrow cable! :D Thanks so much! Went to work and head home straight after work. Watched drama all the way till 4+am then sleep.

And so today was supposed to go over to dearby's place in the morning but i overslept. Woke up at 130pm, bathed and changed then hurried over to his house. Reached at 3pm, rest for awhile before having our late lunch at 4pm. And then again i had to rush because i start work at 5pm! Rushed through my lunch, had to take a bus there myself because of the rain. ): Workplace was ultimate quiet today! Sales was $0! Hell sad! Urgh! Close shop at 9pm, left for home.

Oh man. Have been sleeping late and waking up late the past few nights, got to adjust back before school starts on 4th Jan! (: Tmr work again from 12 to 5pm followed by belated xmas party over at dearby's aunt house. :P Am not bringing my lappy to work tmrw. Boohoo, gotta find other entertainment during work already! :X

Work have been kinda hectic though. My next off day will be next Saturday! Worked all the way from 23rd Dec to 1st Jan. KILLER. But not so bad because im not working full shift. :P

Alot people ask to countdown to New year on 31st but then, 31st work from 6 to 9, 1st Jan 12 to 9! ): SAD OR NOT! I'll see how it goes but most probably gonna reject everyone who ask me cause full shift is tiring to the max! :O Alright! Finished downloading episode 1 of hai pai tian xin! Am going to chiong drama again tonight! :O

I finally met up with cliques! And it's funny cause i still had so much fun with them around and Lawrence said that i look like a long lost sister to them! :X
Anyway, deep deep thanks to Lawrence for holding this chalet! (:

Quite a pity cause i missed out hell lots of fun on the first night! Should have went down on Monday night! :P Tues was back to school at 12+pm, rush project and i managed to finish all the diagrams in like 2 hours! Anthony came by to accompany me, left the school at 3+pm. I went over to Hougang Plaza to meet the cliques up, watched them play L4D2, left at 6+pm to go back to Pasir Ris. (: EHub to get more food for bbq, Lawrence's classmates came too! Started bbq after awhile, drank alittle of vodka with mixers and played some games, poor JP gotta pay us cause he lost to us in daidee! :D But overall, it's fun!

Left the place at 10++pm with Eunice! 89ed home! :D Gonna meetup with them again soon!
Reached home, chat with dearby on phone awhile and slept early.
Was kinda upset at night due to some things. Forget about it. I dont wanna mention about it again.

My weekends was somehow enjoyable, except that i didnt get to rest enough, didnt get to replenish my sleep. :O

Saturday was work, and im glad that he didnt came down. Was so busy during work, went for break late so i bought back the food to the shop to eat and when i decided to open the shop and eat at the same time, the crowd came in right after i open the shop. So i could only eat at 5++pm. ): Night time was kinda quiet though, went Amk to buy earphones after work and head home. :D

Sunday was my off day! :D :D Dearby woke me up at 8am, prepared and went to his house. (: Watched Stomp The Yard on his lappy and we took a short nap after that. Up at 3pm, followed his family(excluding his dad) out. They sent me to Wisma to pass something to someone else first though, thanks alot! Went to his aunt's house after that to take something, Amk Aston's for our super late lunch or rather our dinner. Popular after that then head back to his house. (: Rested awhile again, had dessert then left the house at 9pm for ECP. Long long long journey(took us around 40 mins!), butt was damn pain by the time i reach there. ECP to return Sher her friend's calculator, sorry to return so late though! Bought a drink before he send me home.

Holidays = no holidays. BOOOOOOOOO.
Today back to school for project work early in the morning. Meetup with Sher and Junjie at 9+am at Koufu for breakfast, free access lab to do project after that. I stayed on with Anthony and Kimyong after Sher and Junjie left, and Anthony caused my comp to shutdown! URGH! End up, all the things we've done today gone to waste. End up gave up trying to retrieve the file. Played around, laughed around and we went for dinner at Koufu at around 5pm before we walk to mrt station. Left for work after that. (:

And was kinda disappointed at first just now because i thought i wouldn't be able to take off on Sunday! But luckily my boss said that she'll come take over me at 5pm! :P Dearby off on Saturday and Sunday but gotta work 5 to 9pm on Saturday though. ):

I have to go back to school tmrw again to complete the project again. SIGH! But the good thing is im off tmrw because of Lawrence's chalet! :D :D

Thurs was school then rush off to work. Had lots of problems last night, broke down in the end. Well. I know im weak, but there are reasons when i break down. I dont just cry for nothing and i dont cry over small matters. There is just too much for me to take in, for me to face. Too tiring for me. Sigh.

But anyway, i wanna thank my friends. To those who helped me out. (: Appreciate it tons.

Today was totally not in the mood to study for COS test. Did last minute studying, went to Amk with classmates after school, thanks Zonghui for the box of ferrero rocher! (: Some of them went to watch movie so me and sher walked around Amk hub! Bumped into Jasmine and Hoifai! Separated for work at around 5pm, i went off to work. And then smthing happened. Thanks Karina for staying in the shop till 7+, almost got scared to death though. ): Hurried home after work.

Gotta turn in soon. (: IT'S 2AM! OH NOOOOOOO! Full shift again tmrw. Pray hard hard sales will be good. No more stalkers!

Saturday became my off day due to last minute changes. Woke up in the morning and went over to dearby's place. Had our lunch, watched tv and slept till evening time. Woke up at around 5pm, prepared and went out to Bugis. :D Walked around till 8+pm, went back to Bishan's Ajisen for our dinner. I like! Followed him back home to get his things before he send me to Amk and i took bus back myself while he went to meet his friends to study! (:

Sunday was working day. Sales not bad ehh! :P Happy! Nothing much!

Monday was school and work at night, i always have to rush like a crazy girl. ): SIGH. School was better because it was MingMin's bday and so, we had a bday celebration! :D Work was kinda scary. Well, now im afraid to work there already due to some things. Only those who are closer to me will know about it! Prays double hard everything will be fine.

Today after school rush project report, dearby decided to come pick me up so hurried everything. And i had to rush again, but he was kinda pissed off because i always have to make him wait for at least half an hour! ): So sorry! Went to Bishan cause he wanted to print some notes before going back to his house. Ate maggi mee and watched tv, left the house at 530pm and he sent me to work! :D Today sales also not bad eh! Head home after work on my own and i only reach home at 11pm today. SIGH! ):
Super tired right now.

Gonna crash my bed soon! :O Goodnights!

Whole week spent rushing project, busy working and school. The most torturous week of all. Presentations finally over. Kinda screwed things up. SIGH.

Everyday same routine, school and rush to work at 5+pm everyday after doing project. Cept' for Wednesday, dearby fetch me on Wednesday after my school. Left the school at near to 4pm cause of project work. Went back to his house, watch tv and ate lunch before he send me to work in the evening time. (:

Today was kinda relieved presentation is over. But we got more things to do. ): And im really really grateful to all my friends because they helped me alot, knowing that i have to rush to work in the evening everyday, and by the time i reach home everyday it's already near to 11pm. And thanks to those who cared. :D Yeaps, everyone was like you better dont fall ill despite me feeling worn out everyday. Went to Amk Hub after school, dearby decided to come pick me up so waited for him to come. Was on the way to Novena when the bike died on him at Bishan. And he said that the bike shop uncle lied to him, telling him that there is no problem because it was only 1/2 hour later after he left the bike shop and it died. :P

Left the bike there, we went to S11 for my dinner first then he send me to my workplace by mrt. :D Hahaha! And he accompanied me in the shop till around 8pm when his friends came to pick him up. Close shop at 930pm instead because customers suddenly came in at 9pm. Luckily! (:

Supposed to work tmrw but last minute changes again. Initially had plans on Sunday to go shopping but now gotta cancel cause i got to work on Sunday! And i thought that im going to be bored to death tmrw but dearby agreed to bring me out! :D Gotta go his house in the afternoon to do project first and hopefully his bike will be okay by then else we gonna have to take bus out! (:

Alright! Gonna go wash up now! (:

Yesterday was Monday so daily routine continues~ Was seriously worn out by the time i reach home at 11pm. ):

IST tutorial, breaktime and to lecture. Skipped lecture because dearby called so i met him and accompanied him for lunch, sat there and watched him eat. :X Back to our own individual lecture, RAD class and did project at ELP after school. YES, I HAD TO REDO 3 TIMES BECAUSE IT KEPT CRASHING. IRRITATED!

Rushed to work at 530pm, late for 2 mins. :X And i had to starve till after work, i almost thought that the sales would be very bad last night but luckily, got saviours! hiak hiak. :D Bused to Amk to buy my dinner home after work, and finally home at 11pm. (:

OKAYYYYYY. And now im rushing off to school already! ): Dad not driving me to school today so i have to leave house earlier! URGH! Blog again soon!

Im back! :D

Worked yesterday, close shop only at 10pm because of customers. (: Sales was good at night but daytime was seriously damn quiet. Dearby came by at around 9pm but accompanied me till 10pm, helped me close shop and everything. Went to Bishan for some food after work, bumped into SJ and one of their friend, sat awhile and left for home. Dearby was speeding all the way, shiok. :D Went to prepare and meetup with Sher, received a call from dearby, something happened. ): Felt super guilty towards him. Sorry! Thank god he's alright, hopefully his darling will be alright too! Went for our standard chartered duty, seriously tired out. Clapped non-stop for 5hours or so! :X Like a crazy girl. And best, we saw Mark Lim there! :D My hunk lecturer! HAHAHA. And i saw one of my friend there too! (: Couldnt recognise him at first though! It was great!

Everything ended at around 12pm, took train back with Sher. And we slept on the way back. :O Reached home, bath and slept till evening time! Still feeling sleepy, head still spinning. ):

Tomorrow back to school, and my daily routine continues. School, work and home. Everyday standard routine. ): SIGH. Everything will go well. Hopefully..

Thurs was boyfriend day! :D He came back to school to fetch me after i end school, went to Novena to collect my paycheque then to TPY but realised that the bank was closed already. ): AND HE SCOLDED ME! He scold me = quarrel. Didnt talk all the way till we reach Bishan. Mood spoilt because of this! Went up to buy tickets, wanted to watch New Moon but i wasnt in the mood so end up didnt watch. We only started talking to each other after that because of a phone call. :X Hiak hiak. Patched things up, went to bubbletea shop for drinks, crazy mood while walking. I think everyone who saw us would think we were crazy. :P Sat there for near to an hour, thinking where to have dinner. Ended up at Bishan's RK for dinner again. Crazy mood again! Last minute decision to go over to golf course there to meet his friends, YZ, SJ and Tk for number ball. Was feeling so tired so dearby had to send me home after 3 rounds of game. :O

Friday school + work. End work at 9pm, bused home though i was feeling so so so sleepy that i felt like taking a cab back. Slept right after washing up.

Today work again! Workin full shift today followed by SCM duty tonight. (: Dearby might be coming down tonight after his soccer, prays hard that he will come down! Gotta report at Tampines at 12am tonight. Teehee. Im gonna standby redbull in case i get so sleepy. AND THE BADDEST THING OF ALL, my contact lens wont have a chance to rest today all the way till tomorrow. God dammit. Looks like i need another pair of lens!

Finally all the tests are over. Software Engineering and IST test is so screwed up. Went to work after school, dad came over to fetch me after work to go fetch my brother, Chinatown for my late dinner then home. (:

Today went over to school in the morning but didnt go for class, met up with dearby and we went to Bishan for breakfast before going to his house. He had his nap while i studied for DI test. Almost go crazy just to memorise 1-2 chapters. AND WE GOT 3 CHAPTERS TO MEMORISE! ): My head was hurting. Woke him up, ate our lunch cooked by his mum and off to school IN THE RAIN. Poor him gotta carry two helmets and walk around in school today! :X DI test was big big sigh for coding section.Went to work after school, no phone no laptop. YES, I FORGOT TO BRING MY PHONE OUT TODAY! ): But anyway, i managed to overcome it. Hiak hiak. Went home after work and im feeling hungry.

And tmrw is THURSDAY! :D The anticipated day of the week! And i love him even more for trying so hard to compromise to my working schedule now because i cant take off days. So he says he'll TRY to, but gotta see how it goes first. ): So many plans this Saturday but i cant go for all of them because i got to work! And i got to work because there's SCM duty this Sunday. And i have a feeling i'll be so tired out on Saturday night. I need redbull for sure on Saturday night.

Gonna sleep soon. So so so tired. :O

Went to work full shift on Saturday, head home right after work. Sunday was spent studying at Bishan, without dearby. ): Studied till library close, had dinner at S11 and bumped into dearby's friends. Mrt-ed home!

Yesterday was school in the morning. Last minute study of RAD written test because i just couldnt get anything into my head. Was feeling so worried in the lecture and i was so thirsty but dearby was the saviour! He bought for me greentea and m&m chocolates and pass it to me outside my lecture hall! :D Written test was alright, head home after school with Sher. Studied awhile, dearby came over to Sk to meet me for dinner in the evening! (: Put things at my house, walked to CompassPt for dinner, walked around awhile then walked home! Went home, play uno with dearby awhile. :X Yesyes, we love uno games! Dearby went off at 9+pm and i started touching my books for the next few hours. AND I SPENT 4 hours on one module! URGH. Yet to touch on IST. ): Flunk for sure. URGH.

This week gonna be a hectic week! ): Tests, work, school, SCM duty. The only thing i guess im looking forward to is THURSDAY and maybe sunday. :X

Monday and Tues was busy rushing project.
Wed was supposedly supposed to meet RY and co for his early bday celebration but because i was broke, i didnt go. ): SO SORRY! Planned to head home initially but dearby brought me out for dinner. Went to his house first after class and had a nap till evening time before we go to Tiong Bahru Plaza for steamboat buffet dinner. Thankyou dearby for the treat! If not for him, i think i'll be starving at home that night. :D

Thurs went home after school, slept at 4am last night. KILLER TIRED. :O

Today nua-ed at home the whole day till evening. Went to meet buyer, sold my phone away. (: Extra moolah. Although little but it's spoilt lah. And my brother and dearby encouraged me to sell it away cause that phone is simply hopeless. :X Went to work after that, finish work at 9pm, head home straight. Dearby broke promise! He didnt come fetch me in the end so i had to go home on my own. But it's okay, he promised next week! :D

Sales was bad today. ): Prays hard that it will be good tmrw! *CROSS FINGERS!*

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Feeling tired. ):

Worked full shift today, close shop at 9+pm. Dearby came over to pick me up today, went to Jalan Kayu for supper. Super full and bloated after we finish everything. Home after that. (:

I just realise we have only one week left. Time flies. It's already week 6 and then wk 7 is the tests week again. ): SIGH SIGH SIGH. Start to worry already dehhhh.

Still grateful to Sher for her help today. Grateful to dearby for everything. :D

Too tired now. Thank god tmrw morning's tutorial is cancelled. Sleep in late. :O Week 7 gonna be a damn busy week for me. Hope everything will go well!

Quick post before i go to work! (:

Thurs night was spent having dinner with Ry and Kat at ave8 then went back home. :D

Friday was work at night, boss came down at around 8pm to start packing up the shop, moving the stocks and the cabinets. Finished it in an hour, just in time to close shop! :D Close shop already then went home. (: Found another fast way to get home! Super fast, train to amk then 86 back and i reached home at 1015pm. Killer fast! :D :D

Saturday was dearby's and my 1st anniversary! (: Went to his house in the morning, bought breakfast at Bishan before going over. Woke him up, had our early lunch, packed our stuffs and when we were about to leave house, it started raining! ): SPOILT OUR MOOD! But we stayed at home to play instead. Spent 1 hour plus playing and laughing non-stop. Love him! Watched White Chicks on his lappy after that and he went back to sleep. How irritating right! So i watched tv, fell asleep in his living room and i walked back to his room to sleep. :X Both of us slept till 6++pm, woke up and went out to Vivo! Wasted another hour thinking what to eat, end up walking up and down between Vivo and Harbourfront Centre. Settled down at Pizza Hut because we couldn't find any restaurants having buffet dinner. ): The service was terrible, the waiting time was terrible but we got a baked rice for free. :P Dearby and my secret! Heeehee. But anyway, where do you see them serving pizza first, followed by soup and finally after we finish EVERYTHING on our table then they serve us our baked rice. I guess i wont patronise there anymore. ): Walked around awhile and we hurried off because it started drizzling. Back home after everything.

And my dearest was so sweet. (: Thanks dearby! I love you!
Happy anniversary to you!

Dearby gonna start working on weekends from next weekend onwards, lesser time to spend together, no more dating days. ): But he promised to stick to our usual Thursday and he's gonna come pick me after work every Friday! :D Teehee. He promised to take off on Saturday sometimes to bring me out too! Love him tons.

And i hate people who tries to break couples up. Be it breaking my friends' relationships up or mine. Dont be such a bitch/bastard to break couples up.

Alright, gonna go work already! BYEBYE!

Spending time with him really makes my mood feel better. (:

Went to school for Entre class yesterday, ended school at near to 11am so i went off to dearby's house. Went to st22 to buy ice cream and drink first before going over! (: Ate maggi for lunch cooked by him, he went to school so i was left at his house with his younger brother. Studied, msn, surf net till he come back. :D

And i practically just spent one whole day at his house doing nothing but sleep, eat, surf net. ): Didnt study at all too! Oh my gosh! Left his house at near to 11pm, went home and slept!

3 more days! (:
Happyyy!

Sunday was working full shift. Sales was not bad before break, after break was terrible to the max. ): Didnt join Zhongwee's party in the end partly because by the time i reach Hougang, it would be near to 11pm already. Sorry guys! Finished work at 9pm, close shop then took mrt back. Reached home at around 1040, ate dinner then did some assignments before going to bed. :D

Not really a good day for me this few days. I have the feeling like something is missing, i dont know why. The feeling is making me feel down. Tried hard not to think about it but sometimes, it's just not possible and worst still, i dont know whats the reason that made me feel that way.

Urgh.

Anyway, something happened today. Hope Jasmine will cheerup and dont be sad anymore! ): I know it hurts alot, i know how you feel but like what i said, cry for someone who's worth your tears. Else just let it go. Someone will learn to cherish you and love you for who you are.

Love my new blogsong now. Credits to Jasmine. Super love it despite the fact that it makes me tear and the song really makes my mood even more down. But i still love it.

And im really thankful to some guys who tried to cheer me up. Esp someone who's his friend, he said something that i feel touched towards. He told me to look from the outside of the circle because only then i will realise how much T loves me. And i wanna stand out of the circle to look at it.

(:
I know i haven't been spending time with my own friends, have been really busy with school and work. Did meet up a few of them but not the cliques! ): Promise to meet them up soon since i didnt join them yesterday. But gotta let everyone know, my working schedule will be changed from December onwards. My off days are only Thurs and Saturdays which means, i'll be working on Monday to Wed after school too. Tiring i know. Have even thought about quitting school last week due to some reasons but brother and sister-in-law told me not to because it'll be such a waste. Gonna try to stay put and be strong. :D And i have to apologise to Teri teo for being so problematic recently. For showing the attitudes and everything.

There're times i needed someone to rely on and the reply i got from you was .... There're times when i expected something but it didnt happen and i can only dream about it. What can i do?

Thurs was school + boyf day! :D Went to school, soft eng class was boring but of course i have my ways to entertain myself! :X Facebook-ed with the guys looking at pretty girls and handsome guys. And triple L had a new name, Cloud Lam named by me because he showed us a girl named Sky Lam who he claimed that it was his sister(but she's not!) so i asked him, "Your sister name is call Sky Lam, then why you dont have english name? Why not you call "Cloud Lam or Moon Lam?" And that entertained us for quite awhile because everyone was calling him Cloud Lam throughout the rest of the lesson. :X

After school dearby came back to fetch me, went to collect my items then back to house. (: Had lots of hotdogs for snack but became too full by the time we finish so watched tv for awhile. Dearby then brought me to Icekimo for waffle icecream and he had brownie with ice-cream! Waffle with ice-cream is still the nicest especially with peppermint which they named it as cookie minster! :P Love it! Thank you dearby! After dessert, dearby send me home. (:

Friday was school during daytime, work after school at 6pm. Worked till 9pm, went home after work and because i took 88 home, i reach sengkang near to 11pm. Tiring dayyyyy! The bus journey home made me even more tired and sleepy.

Today woke up at 9+am but decided not to go for briefing because i was too tired. ): Laziness. Went over to Bishan st22 to buy food then to dearby's house in the early noon. Ate our lunch, watched tv then went to Upper Thomson just to buy snacks. Spent $50 within that half hour or less than half hour. ): KILLER! We were like, OMG. WE SPENT $50 JUST ON JUNK FOOD. Bought B&J icecream, pringles, kitkat, biscuit, egg tarts and his cig. :X Went back to his house to continue watching tv, slept in the evening time till 8++pm. Left house at 9++pm for Junction8, walked around awhile, ate whipped potato! My favourite! Left for home at 10++pm. (:

Tmrw work again! ): End up i didnt bring back my SoftEng book from dearby's house today because my bag couldnt fit in and i forgot to bring back my cardigan too! Urghh!

Dearby again promise to bring me to Sentosa next Saturday! Hope he wont break promise again! :X Gonna go sleep soon cause im feeling very sleepy still! :O

Tues went to school, stayed back after school to do Entre report till 7+pm. Anthony and Joyce accompanied me walk to Amk to buy my dinner then all went separate ways for home. (: Head home, continue rush report and other projects till 10+pm and my stomach was in deep pain! Dont know what happen too but it just came too suddenly. ): Could barely move so i spent quite some time lying down and resting.

Today woke up late for Entre class, head back to school only at 11+am to meet Sher and the rest to do project. (: Did project till around 2+pm, Sher went off first. Waited for the Kenneth's group to finish up, walked to bus stop with them then took 72 to HougangMall to meet RY. :D Ajisen for lunch, chatted for awhile then went to walk around and finally NTUC to buy candies! Interchange for ice-cream before going home. Rush project all the way the whole evening! ):

Feeling so sad now though. Gonna go sleep soon. ):

Anyway, had a really bad weekend.

Friday was good. Went to Marina Square with dearby, Erwin, Ah Tank and AhTank's gf after school. Had dinner, sat awhile then back home because we reached there only near to 9pm i think. (:

Saturday was the ultimate bad day. Fell asleep just half hour before the time dearby is supposed to come over and he got angry. ): Woke up at 7+am, went over to his house at around 8+am. He end up decided not to go Sentosa cause he was too tired. Smthing happened and i cried like shit because of it. Patched things up, had maggi for lunch and back to sleep till 6+pm. Received another phone call that made me cried like shit again. 2nd terrible cry of the day. Thank god dearby was there. Wasn't in the mood at all so dearby brought me out. He wanted to bring me go Icezkimo for dessert but it was crowded so we went to Bishan's RK house for drinks and tomyam soup then he send me home. (: Slept early that night due to some problems.

Sunday went to work full shift, bought dinner at Amk before going home after work. Reached home only at like 1130pm. Dearby was kinda angry because i did something to myself. ): Can only say sorry but i cant help it.

Today back to school, late for school again. Stayed back to do project for awhile, didnt really do anyway. Cabbed over to dearby's house after that at 5+pm, he surprised me with chocolates! (: Left his house for his aunt's house at 6++pm. Went there to have dinner, watched tv awhile then dearby send me home.

Am just not in the right state nowadays due to some problems that had happened. What does it feels like to be blamed for everything? What does it feels like when you got no one to turn to in this family? What does it feels like when you cant do anything at all? What does it feels like when you have to resort to doing things to yourself to make yourself feel better?

Pardon me for my sudden mood change nowdays. I hate to be reminded of all those things seriously. But there are a few times when i can't help it too especially when i see guys trying to piss me off. I still got to thank dearby for being there this few days, he know everything that have been happening, taking care of me and cheering me up. (: I still love him deep deep depsite the super huge tiff that happened on Saturday.

Too bored! :X

Anyway, went to school late again today. Purposely late everyday. :P Reason: school is so boring nowadays! Dearby decided to have lunch together today so both of us meet up after my class ends. Wanted to go to st22 to eat but because of heavy rain suddenly, we got stucked in school. Lunch over at koufu then spend sometime talking till 3pm. (:

I went for my class after that till 6pm. Home with sher after school and cooked maggi for dinner. :D
Anyway, lookout for something that is coming up soon!
:D :D :D

Teehee. Looking forward to tmr and Saturday! (:

有一种爱叫做放弃 当你不再爱我，当爱你已成为你的负担，当相爱已是一种痛苦，那么，我选择放弃。 放 弃你，是因为爱你。因为爱你，所以不愿看见你不快乐；因为爱你，所以不愿看著你强忍内心的挣扎；因为爱你，所以不愿看见你勉强的笑容；因为爱你，所以愿意 放了你。当爱已成往事，又何必苦苦追寻？强求得不到幸福，强求只能拉大你我的裂痕，只能加深你我的痛楚。如果你真的想走，我无言，只能任你去。 曾 经以为你是风筝，我手中握著那根线，无论任你飞向何方，我最终都是你的归属。现在终于明白，其实爱你，就不应该束缚你。"春花秋月何时了，往事知多少？" 往事如风，不如就让它随风而去。当一切成空，惟有回忆伴我。时间能冲淡一切，包括我爱你的心。不愿意你看见我的眼泪，因为怕你会心软，怕你不开心。 因为爱你，所以不会用泪水强留，所以放了你。你的心已远去，我又何苦留下你的人？ 虽 然我渴望天长地久，但如果那只是一种奢求，那我不如只求曾经拥有。曾经拥有过你的爱，这已足够。因为有一种爱，叫做放弃。放弃不是无私的奉献。放弃你，这 不仅是对你的爱，更是对我自己的呵护。放弃你，我很痛心，但我不会后悔。让你从我的生命中消失，是因为"长痛不如短痛"。当我容颜尽老、行将就木，我依然 不会后悔。因为曾经爱过你。 因为爱你，所以希望你快乐。 有人说过这个世界不会有永恒的爱情。你我之间，如果连短暂的爱情也无法存在，不如放开彼此。爱你，就让你去追寻你的幸福。只要你快乐，我也就快乐。 因为你的一切，我都在意。 如果你要离开我，我不会怪你，只能怪我自己，怪自己太爱你。 也许是我过分的宠溺让你习惯平静，也许是我过分的放任让你没有责任，也许是我过分的爱怜让你压力重重，也许是爱情她美丽的容颜让你迷失方向。只怪你我有缘无份。 当你想要离去，请别管我，你只需告诉我，你不再爱我，你要走。我一定会让你走，不会乞求你留下，哪怕听见自己心碎的声音。当你离去，请别再回头。回头是一种错误，回头是对你我的不公平。去了，就不要再後悔。 因为爱你，就该放了你。 因为我知道，有一种爱叫做放弃，那是对你最深的爱。

Back to update! :D

Friday night went to work after school and went back on my own after work.

Saturday stayed home the whole afternoon till evening time. Thought couldnt meet dearby already cause of the heavy rain suddenly. ): But luckily he called me up telling me to get prepared. His cousin and him came down to fetch me to his aunt's house for steamboat dinner! Very nice! :D Watched tv after dinner then dearby send me home after that.

Sunday work full shift.

Monday back to school, head home after school after buying dinner at ave8. (:

Tuesday school, followed by meeting dearby. End up didnt go Novena but went to his house for dinner and we wanted to go eat dessert but the guys called him up for number ball so end up, NO DESSERT FOR ME! ): Went to golf course there to meetup with Tk, Yuzhong and JJ. Watched them play 1 hour then dearby send me home.

Today stayed back for project after school, stayed in school till 1+pm then went to Amk hub with classmates. (: Dearby came to fetch me after his school, was on the way to bike shop and it started raining so we stopped by a HDB block to wait. Less than 5 mins, the rain stopped! Urgh! Continued the journey there, waited for him to do smthing then went back to his house for dinner before he send me to town. Walked around town on my own for hours! Head home at 9+pm. :DDDDD

Feeling lazy again! ):
Feeling hungry tooo!
BAAAAAAAAAAH.

I just want to be alone.

Please tell me.
I will be here with you.
This is the only thing i want to hear from you now.

I'M SO SLEEEEEEPY RIGHT NOW.
:O

Anyway, went to school today and was hoping that the time would pass faster! Ended school at 6pm, meet dearby up and off to TTSH to visit his grandma. (: Stayed in the hospital till around 8+pm then off to Casurina for dinner with his mum, brother and relatives. Ate already then he send me back home.

Tomorrow Friday! Still have to work after school! Urgh. And im now thinking if i should work on Saturday or not. SHOULD I? OR SHOULD I NOT? Troubled! ): Two projects discussion next week. One project due next Thurs, well done. It's on the 2nd week of school and we have to be do all those projects and everything already. URGH!

I feel so empty inside now. Dont know why.. I just feel that way and yet, i have a feeling that you dont care and cant even sense it. ):

I love today's catching up session. :D :D :D

Met RY at PS at around 2+pm. Walked around, went to Suntec City to buy something then back to Hougang. Went to KFC and sat down for an hour, up to Popular to get smthing and then i was there chatting with Auntie Agnes! Miss her like hell lots! Talked to her for quite sometime, went to meet XQ and had dinner at KFC. (: Bumped into Cynthia and Meiyun, like after so long we finally get to see each other! Talked for awhile then saw another person who used to work with them too! And then we saw Kartika too! So coincidence right!

Walked around for awhile before going home. (: Anyway, somebody told me somethings and i felt that i'm really fortunate. So what if he's not loaded, so what if he can't buy for me all the things i want, at least he doesn't go around and flirt and do things behind my back. Even though there are times when i feel disappointed about him not being able to give me something i want so much but after seeing and hearing things, i learned to cherish him and appreciate him for the efforts.

And there're more things i want now. OH MY GOD.

GIVE ME MONEH MONEH MONEH!

Okay, i just realised that all my entries are like SUPER DUPER LONG everytime i blog. Pardon those long and boring entries! Gonna make it short and sweet from now on. But i'm still not going to blog frequently here. Still love wordpress like hell lot more than blogger. :D

Sunday work full shift. Dearby came over to fetch me to work in the morning and i went back alone at night. Today went home straight after school to do assignments. (: ALL THE WAY UNTIL NOW OK. Sad or not!

And im going to sleep soon! It's past 130am. Just one more thing to do before i go to bed! :D
Meeting up with Ry in the afternoon tmrw and XQ in the evening for dinner! (:

Continue from previous post! (:

Saturday woke up in the noon and nua-ed at home the whole day. Wanted to go trim eyebrow so dearby brought me to Bishan but it was closed. Went to J8 to walk around and to help his mum buy something then to NTUC to buy some snacks and groceries before going back to his house for dinner. Had maggi for dinner, nua-ed till night time and he send me home.

Sunday work full shift, went back on my own at night. :D

Monday school, went to Bishan to trim eyebrow after school then head back to Amk for dinner with Ry at Aston's. (: Walked around awhile then head home.

Tues had lunch with dearby in school after my school ended, went home early that day cause was too tired! :O Huge quarrel with him at night, talked things out in the end and he promised me somethings. :D Really touched by his efforts again.

Wed school from 9 to 11am, boring! ): Head over to Bishan to buy lunch then to dearby's house without him. Watched 2 Fast 2 Furious on his lappy then fell asleep till around 3. Woke up, washed up and had another subway meal his mum bought for me. :D Left his house at around 4pm for PS to collect the tees before going back to Amk and then to SK then finally home. (:

Thurs end school at 6pm. ): Back to dearby's house, waited for him to bath and get changed then back to my house for me to get changed then to Tiong Bahru Plaza for dinner with his family and relatives. Separated after dinner, dearby and me went to walk the night market then back to his house for awhile before he send me home.

Fri supposed to work after school. End up didnt go. Went over to dearby's place again after school. Rested for awhile before leaving house to meet his friend, Harvin. Went to Balestier, bumped into Syazwan. Spent 2 hours at the bike shop waiting for the things to be done. Ah Tank, Erwin, Hoifai and gf(Jasmine) came down to join us. Off to town after everything, meetup with Tengkiat and Shijie then Erwin went off. (: Cine for dinner, the guys decided to go Yishun Dam but went back to Thomson to gather first. Spent sometime there before Hoifai and gf decides to go back first, Harvin went back first too so leaving Ah Tank, Tk, dearby and me so the guys sent me home first. :D

Today again another meet dearby day. (: Supposed to be awake by 5am so that he can come fetch me again but i was really too tired. Woke up at 9+ in the morning instead, prepared then dad send me over to his place. Stomach cramp like hell. Ordered kfc for our lunch, was left alone at his house because he had to go bike shop with Erwin. And finally he came back at 4pm, he had his lunch then watched tv, cold war again and off to Jurong. Cold war remained on the way there. Killer. ): Went to Jurong Point after passing Victoria the stuff, walked around and our legs got tired. Watched movie, Imagine That at 8++pm. Not bad eh! :D Movie finished at around 1040pm, head back Punggol for dinner then home.

Feeling tired now. Tmrw got to work and im going to do some studying tmrw! :D Poor me with my stomach cramp. Poor dearby gotta tolerate my attitude again this few days.
Urgh. ): I cant wait for payday. Gonna turn in soon. :O

Am at workplace now. (: Last day of holiday and i still cant enjoy! SO SAD RIGHT!

Anyway, continue from Wed! Wed worked full shift. Customers all suddenly came in after 830pm all the way till 930pm. End up closing shop at 930, luckily dearby came down to fetch me and he helped me with the closing else im gonna reach home later! :X Thanks thanks! Close shop, went to Velocity to collect smthing then to Bishan for our dinner. His friend Khairol came to join us, went to Sathiya's block to wait for him to come back. End up waiting till 1230am and i was feeling so sleepy after waiting for 2 hours. Guys are even slower than girls! ): Dropped the idea of going to Punggol End with them to meet another group of friends, the guys send me home first. :D

Thurs off day, went over to Tampines to take smthing then took bus to Yishun because i got no direct bus to Bishan! ): Dearby decided to pick me up at Yishun, but the bus journey to Yishun was so slow! Reached there earlier than him so waited for him by walking around and round, went back to his house first to watch tv. (: Down to Raffles City in the evening to take smthing then to Bugis to make reservation before going back to his house again to take his phone. Rested awhile before going back to Bugis to meet my family for steamboat. Killer tired just for travelling up and down so many times. ): Left with dearby after dinner, back to his house. Slept for awhile till near to 12am then he send me home.

Friday working day. Worked till 6pm, mood was bad. Meetup with JP sister and Eunice at point after work, walked to ave8 for dinner with JP sister after sending Eunice dajie to the bus stop. (: Home at 9++pm. Slept early because was in a bad mood. ): Woke up at night because of a bad dream, shocked me so i woke up and texted dearby! And he decided to come pick me up at 5+am. Thanks alot again dearby! :D

Alright, and im lazy to continue alrdy. :X Blog another day!

Friday night was spent watching tw drama again. Talked to dearby for awhile at the very late night, and we were both hungry! ): End up i slept without eating dinner cause was too lazy to cook.

Saturday went over to dearby's house in the afternoon, rested for awhile then we ordered McDelivery while his brother and gf and dearby played mahjong. Looked at them play while eating and i was feeling so sleepy after that! :X Went to sleep for awhile till around 5+pm. Had a chat with him then went to bath and prepare. Off to J8 to meet his friend(Ah Tank) and gf for dinner at Pastamania. Send his friend's gf home first then they send me back. (: Couldnt sleep that night so end up sleeping at 3+am with dearby's constant reminders to go sleep go sleep even though he's out partying. Nice of him to even call me and text me!

Sunday work full shift. Sales not that very good. Dearby came over to fetch me after work, he helped me with my closing then to Bishan's RK Eating for our very late dinner after my work before he send me home. (:

And again Monday work again. Sales was terrible, seriously. ): SIGH!

Thurs should be going out with dearby i think, Fri class outing after my work and Saturday should be Sentosa with dearby and his family. But i'm thinking if i should go Sentosa or to work in the evening. If i work, i'll have to leave at 3+pm and rush home to prepare for work. SIGH!

Should i work or should i just enjoy myself? ):

Just got home and i decided to blog over here today! :D

Life have been the same. Working everyday and finally tomorrow is my off day! Finally! Went over to Bugis to meet Ry, Kat and Joyce for steamboat on Tues after work. (: Had a good time with them! Wed was meeting up with JP sister and Yunhui to Peninsula Plaza then to ave8 for dinner. Thanks sister for the treat! :D But he's still as noisy as ever. Hahaha!

And finally today, dearby finally agreed to come over to fetch me after work after my unhappiness last night. ): I told him about it and all and he promised me smthing. Really could sense your efforts dearby. Thankyou so much! :D And so, today he came over to fetch me after work and he made me wait again. Reason for making me wait, he went to buy a new helmet for me! Appreciate it alot! His friends came along as well but we separated after that. His friends went back home, me and dearby went to Amk to get my belt then head back to his house. (: Watched tv all the way till 9++pm then we left for Jalan Leban to collect my top. Spent quite awhile finding the exact location. Up and down, up and down. :X SORRY! And after that he send me home! He brought me to Seletar Dam to take a look before we go back to Sk though! Super love him. :D

Tmr meeting him again! (: But i dont know what to wear tmr cause it's like finally i can wear tee, shorts and slippers out. And he was so nice to agree with me wearing slippers out tmr! But then, i dont know i dont know! :X

He's going clubbing tomorrow night though! ): SO SAD RIGHT. But it's okay, he's gonna celebrate his classmate's bday! At least you know what i will do if you ever ever do smthing against me. (: But still, i love you la!

Anyway, work have been really good with all my regular customers. So friendly and all! And my boss actually told me that some of them actually go down on Saturdays to look for me but im off on that day! (: Hahaha! They're really nice people!

Alright, gonna go continue on my tw drama alrdy! :X So addicted to it nowadays!

Fast one before i go prepare for work.
(:

Thurs was my off day and so, as expected, i spent time with dearby! :D Went over to Bishan to buy lunch for Hweezi, myself and small bites for dearby then to his house. And i spent an hour waking him up! Can you imagine how lazy he was! He woke up already then have lunch tgt and he was such a lazy bum by refusing to move at all. Even eat and drink also dont wanna move. ): Watched tv and talked about somethings. Prepared to go out at around 3++pm, left house and rush to Orchard Hotel. Hweezi and Terence took cab there while dearby decide to ride there, he's just a lazy guy! He sped and beat red light because i was running late! :X Went to orchard hotel to meetup with Hweezi and Terence, Hweezi and me took our F1 pay then we 4 separated outside the hotel cos dearby didnt wan to watch movie. (:
Went off to FEP, Wisma and Ion for some window shopping with dearby, left for his house at 7++pm because we promise to go back for dinner. Ate already, watched tv for awhile then took a short nap. Both of us are damn tired! :X Woke up near to 11pm and he send me home.

Fri back to work 12 to 6pm. Meetup with Ry and XQ and Amk for dinner. Spent on a pair of sandals from C&K, a bag from my workplace and a top at Amk Hub. KILLER. I spent 2/3 of my F1 pay within 2 days. Ate at Aston's and im so damn happy cause i finally get to eat it again! :D :D Went back to Amk Hub to get that top i want then took bus home. I want to get another pair of sandals!

Yesterday(Sat) was another day at work! (: 12 to 4pm but sales not so bad. A pity i forgot to bring lappy adapter out cause i thought the battery life is enough to survive for 4 hours! It went dead in 2 hours because it had only 30+%. ): Went home after work because i was so so tired. Hweezi ask me to follow dearby's family to their grandma's place but i was so tired and dearby wont be going so i didnt go in the end. (: Bought my brkfast-cum-lunch-cum-dinner home, ate my food and watched movies on lappy then tv at night followed by sleeping! Was running a slight fever last night and it was terrible i swear.

Today is another day at work, but gotta work full day today. Will be bringing lappy to work anyway. :D I want to rest i want to rest i want to rest. Gonna try to ask dearby if he can send me home after work today. :X

Anyway, Tues is coming! Steamboat! :D Happyyyyy. And thankyou very very much to RY! He did me a really big help! (: (: (: THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!

And i seriously miss going back to Hgpt! Miss the clique too! Havent seen them for quite sometime already. Too busy with work, tired out from work. And one day of off day is seriously not enough for me. Really sorry! ): I cant wait for my timetable to be out!

Alright! Gonna go prepare for work already. BYEBYE!

Friday to Sunday 25-27 Sept was spent working for F1. Work was good. With dearby coming to fetch me on the first two nights. (: Last day extended till 12am and took cab back to Sengkang with Hweezi.

After that was back to work at Novena the following day. My laptop is being kept away currently so dearby was very nice to lend me his lappy! Went over to his house on Monday morning to take from him but i forgot to take his lappy battery so he came down to fetch me after my work to Bishan cause i wanted to go there to send my phone for repair BUT i reached there only at 8pm when the last queue number was 745pm. ): WASTE MY TIME! Took mrt back home after buying my dinner.

Went down to orchard hotel yesterday morning to return uniform then went for breakfast at Forum with Hweezi before going to work. :D Meetup with her again after work at Bishan to go home tgt. And today, gonna go down to Bishan to send my phone for repair then back to Sk with her again. (: And im so damn tired now because i didnt sleep well last night! ALL THANKS TO TERI TEO! He didnt contact me at all yesterday because he forgot to bring his phone out last night and i couldn't sleep well because of that. Urgh! End up i have to keep calling him this morning to make sure he's alright but it's okay. At least he apologised. (:

Tomorrow my off day! Hopefully can collect my F1 pay already by tomorrow. :D And pray hard hard that i can meetup with dearby tmr!

Will be working from this Friday to next Friday continuously everyday, next off day will be next Saturday and that is the only off day i have for next week! ): Sad right! Gonna bug boyf to fetch me after work whenever he's freee. :X

Another 1 and half hour more to finish work! hiak hiak! :D
BYEBYEEEE.

21st Sept Monday - Work from 12 to 6pm, initial plan was to go movie with boyf after work but it started pouring heavily and he was stuck at prata house. Poor him! Drenched within 5 minutes after he left house to pick me up so i told him to go back home first and i would go to his place on my own. (: Left workplace, went to his house and we watched tv at his house instead. Left his house after watching Singtel Grid Girls, went to AMK Park McDonald's for our late dinner before he send me home. So no movie, no Astons. ): How disappointing all because of the rain!

22nd Sept Tues - Work full shift from 12 to 9pm. Thank god Tengkiat and Hweezi was online to chat with me, Hweezi in the noon and TK in the evening till i end work. :D Head home straight after work on my own and i reached home only at 11pm because i took bus back that day.

23rd Sept Wed - Off day. Stayed home the whole afternoon till i went out to Dhoby Ghaut to meet Hweezi in the evening. Walked to orchard hotel for our briefing, lasted for near to 2 hours then i went over to ave8 to meet Ry for dinner after that before going home. (:

Today boyf's place in the afternoon, just feel like sleeping everytime i lie down on his bed. Big and comfy. :D Left his place at 4+pm to Braddell to meet Hweezi then to Lavendar to meet the rest. Walked to Marina and the walking is a killer. Very far plus the sun, double killer. ): Site training lasted for around 1 and half hours, went to take a look around after training then walked back to mrt station. Took bus to Boon Keng then separated with Hweezi. I took 13 to Bishan to meet boyf, went to Amk with him. Wanted to watch movie but no slots alrdy! Double sadness. Ate kfc for my late dinner, sat down to talk awhile then he send me home. (:

Boyf say he'll be sending me back tmr! :D But i'll be meeting him at Bishan first before he send me home. Long wkend! Gonna go turn in early. Anyway, if you guys realise i havent been updating often over here, i have been updating at my other blog. (:

Goodnight all!

Apologies to 5n2 classmates for not being able to go for the bbq.

Spent my day going to work in the morning, meeting up with Rickmond, Saoyi and Yihao in the evening for a movie at Plaza Sing. (: Watched Aliens in the attic and it's damn funny and cute! Nice, recommended! :D Dinner at Astons after movie, late dinner. Mrted back to Sk then took last bus to my house. (:

Today work full shift. ): Boyf came over to pick me up after work, he accompanied me to close shop. :D Upper thomson for our late dinner then he send me back.

Tmr gotta work 12 to 6pm again. PH LEH. WAHPIANG! ): Everyone enjoying at home or have double pay. Sad case. Luckily working till 6pm only and then dating with boyf after wrk! (: Watching movie! I wanna eat Astons again! :X Gonna ask boyf to bring me there tmr if possible!

Didnt blog ever since my birthday.

Birthday was spent with boyfriend, enjoy life only. :X Im like the queeeen on that day! HAHA. Birthday eve spent with family in the evening, dinner at Brewerkz at Clarke Quay. Food so-so only. Liquor attracted me more but i only had a few sips because of my parents around and i dont want to end up like a wobbly girl. Meet boyf at night, lan shop with him and his friends. 4 bikes, 1 car. Total 7 + 4 people. See them play dota till i get bored so boyf opened one comp station for me to surf net, played L4D awhile and it scared me so i stopped. :P 7th month play L4D is a scary thing. Left at around 3am, back to his house. Played poker, eat maggi, talked till 530am then sleep.

Next day morning, i woke him up because MM woke me up! Her calls is a killer. Bathed and prepared, left house at around 1+pm. He accompanied me home first to pass my brother his keys then we went down to Farrer to find his friends awhile before going town. (: Accompanied him for his hair cut first, lunch at Meridien, buy movie tickets at Cathay, PS to walk around and we both earned one casper stamp chop at Spotlight! :D Starbucks to have a drink then walked back to Cathay for our movie. And he told me "WAH. THAT GIRL VERY SEXY LEHH!" when we walk pass the bus stop. How sad. :X Watched G-FORCE in 3D, walked back to centrepoint after movie then he send me back to Sk. :D

Next day, BACK TO WORK DAY. Boring! Meet MM and YL before work, they passed me my present. 5 boxes of chocopies, total of 60. ALOT LAHH! But still, thank you very muchieee to the 6 people who shared! (: Went home to put down that 60 chocopies then rush to work. Worked from 12 to 6pm, went to Bishan to meet Ry after work. Walked around while waiting for time to pass. Met Kimberly for awhile to pass her thing then back to Novena to find Xueqin. Walked around Novena while waiting for her to close shop, cabbed down to ChompChomp after she close shop. :D
Had our dinner there then cabbed back home after dinner. (: Thanks to them for the treat!

Wed full day.
Thurs off day but had a busy day. Paya Lebar the whole afternoon, Tpy then to Clarke Quay then home then to have dinner with my two brothers and sisters-in-law then home and rushed through alot of things. ):
Today full day again! So tired nowwww. And i miss teri teooooooo! Can you please please appear infront of me now? ):

Goooddbyeeee. And now i have to start counting down. 1 more hour before work ends. And school's starting in 1 month's time. GREAT. :d I miss school. And results gonna come out next wed i think. PRAY HARD HARDDDD! (:

Big big thanks to those who wished me. You guys are great. Love you guys lots! :D And i love my boyf super lots! Thank you for everything!


Update another day!

YAYYYY! Im back to blog! :D

Thurs was spent with boyf, from afternoon onwards. (: (: Went to his house in the afternoon and waited for him to buy our lunch back and he bought McDonalds! Tv the whole afternoon then we slept in the late noon till around 7. :D Woke up to watch tv again then ate dinner at his house then continued watching tv. Too lazy to get out of the house! He brought me to Thomson Plaza for dessert at 9+pm because i felt like eating. Met his friend awhile to talktalk there before he send me home. And because he didnt take back the helmet, i had to use his friend's one. But his friend's one has gold colorr at the side! NICEEEE.

Yesterday went to work. Sales kinda bad! After work went home straight to type pdf file. ): Sad case. Work whole day! Finally finish it up at 12++am. And i was so busy last night that i didnt bother to give boyf a call or a msg but luckily he did call up at night when i was typing. Talked to him for a few mins before i go back to my pdf file. :D Slept at 1++am. Hella tiredddddd!

Pray hard hard today sales will be good okay! Work from 12 to 9pm today. Gonna be a long day again. But the good thing, im off for tomorrow and Monday! :D :D

Supposed to work on Monday but i decided to take off because boyf took off and i end work quite late yeh. So im gonna spend my day fruitfully on Monday! YAYYYY!

But back to work on Tuesday, sad case. ): And i think im meeting Ry and co. on Tuesday for dinner! Have to arrange with them on Tuesday because i'll be kinda busy these few days. :D But still, im happy! Gonna go prepare for work already! Byebyeee!

Im back to blog after 5 days! :D
Sunday was spent working and was told to work till 9pm at the last minute. Monday also work, 12 to 6pm then went home. And i only reach home near to 8pm. SAD ANOT. 2 hours from Novena to Sengkang. Partly because i waited about 20-25 minutes for the bus to Thomson Plaza at Novena. Was feeling so irritated because i was feeling so tired and i regretted not taking mrt back home which is definitely so much faster. ):

Tuesday my off day, ask for off last minute because i know my body cant take it already after working for 5 days straight. It's not about the 5 days. It's just that after the wkends, im feeling tired. Yes, i end work at 9pm over the wkends, reach home at near to 11pm and of course i sleep later. Anyway, spent the day at home to type pdf file then out to ave8 for dinner with Ry. Had my favourite fish noodless then went to Ntuc to buy some snacks back home. :D Head home and surf internet plus msn chats plus pdf file. :X

Wed work again. Was worrying that i cant hit the sales target. But luckily not bad laaa! Last minute decision to meet sister-in-law for dinner at Kovan after work. Had dinner then went back to CompassPt to walk around. Library to return and borrow books then to Best Denki while waiting for my brother. (: And she bought this XBOX for my brother! WAHHHHPIANG.

Im aiming for smthing! Hopefully can faster save up to get it yeaa!
I have got so many things i wanna buy!
And i have got the sweestest boyf! He promised to buy me the things i want when he get his pay!
Love him to the max!
And then he called yesterday and the first thing he told me was "today is the day i've known you for a year already!". So sweettttt right! :D

And im finally meeting him today cause it's our off day! (: YAYYYYYYYYYYYY!
Feeling really really super happy nowadays.
:D
Gonna go prepare now already! BYEBYEEEE!

Blogger sucks now. NOW AS IN AT THIS TIME. I dont know why their layout very very weird. But whatever, at least i can blog.

Am at workplace now, brought my lappy along to work to keep me company for the 8 hours. Exams over, now my life only got work and more work. ): Sad yeh.

Last paper was manageable, but forgot all the Relational Algebra things so i anyhow wrote answers. But i still can pass i think. (: Have been very tired the past few days/past 1 week because of the exam. Sleep late, wake up early in the morning to go school study with classmates before exam. Went to boyf's house after my last paper, he was sleeping when i reach but he woke up to accompany me. End up sleeping again when i was watching movie on his lappy! Was feeling so bored and sleepy halfway through the movie so i surfed internet instead and his IE sucks cause i couldnt close the IE. Woke him up at 8pm, watched tv then ate dinner before we leave the house tgt. He sent me to bus stop and i head home on my own because he didnt take back the helmet so he couldnt send me home and he had to go meet his friend. ):

Thurs work from 12 to 6, went to Velocity then to Bishan then to SK then back home.
Fri was a long day. Woke up at 8am to prepare, msn chat with Tk early in the morning before going over to MM's house to take smthing then to CompassPt to meet Sher to take back my card. And i didnt know POSB wont be open till 11am! End up going to Hougang's POSB to make my card instead. Went to work after that, 12 to 6pm. Bugis after work with sister-in-law. Walked around Bugis Village and Bugis Junction and Iluma. Boring place. Now i know i love town. :D Reached home at 11++pm.

Today work from 1pm to 9pm! No break smore. Havent had a proper meal today yet. Biscuits and whipped potatoooo! Im craving for more whipped potato now. :P Still gotta work tmr 12 to 4pm. I NEED TO SLEEP! Luckily there's my lappy with me today! Msn chat with MM all the way from afternoon. :X And my boss is so nice today, she said she'll pay me commission too and best, today sales quite good! :D Happy deh.

Anyway, boyf have been busy wrking everyday ever since exam ended. ): So now our lifes are all about working. SAD RIGHT. But at least next month, both of us get to enjoy. :D :D

ALRIGHTTTTTT. BLOG AGAIN NEXT TIMEEE! Dont know when though! (:

Havent been updating this blog frequently. Sorry peepos! :D

Stayed home the whole day on Sunday to do some studying, ended up watchng tv and surfing net all the way till 11pm then start studying. (: Studied till around 2am then went to bed.

Monday woke up at 6am, went to school to do some studying with classmates. Nothing to say! Those that i didnt memorise didnt come out for short qns! ): But MCQ and calculations are good. Talked for awhile after the exam then went back to Sk with Sher. Rivervale Mall to buy my lunch and her things then went home. :D Supposed to do some studying for DBMS but ended up watching tv and surfing net the whole afternoon and night instead. Went out for late dinner with brother and sister-in-law at 10+pm at Mall again. Damn lazy to study!

Gonna study later! Die also must study dehhhh. Finally last paper tmr!
:D

Upset! Wanted to go watch movie tomorrow but boyf actually told me he left the other helmet in his friend's car! I told him im very disapppointed because i told him last week and he said OK so he told me to go over to his place for dinner tmr if i want and i asked him, then at night you accompany me take bus back to Sk? :D :D He said that he will try to get the helmet back in the end. If got helmet, means can watch movie! YAYYYY! I want to watch The proposal!

(: (: (:

I want to watch so many movies! I still havent watch Hangover in boyf's laptop yet! ):
And im feeling hungry now! Gonna go cook maggi mee nowww.
GOODBYEEEEEEEE!

Boyf and me are alright now already.
:D
Love him love him love him!

And it's funny when we dont even know the reasons why we're quarrelling this few days.
Probably pms. Probably exam stress.
We've been really tired due to the exams! ):
Cant wait for it to be over yehhhh!
And both our papers end on the same day. YAY!

Study session at CompassPt yesterday morning for awhile in the morning. Head home at around 130 because i was feeling so tired and M wants to go home. Went home, tv awhile and i slept till around 530pm. Wokeup, surf net again then watched tv then went to prepare. (: Boyf came over to Sk to pick me up before going to Pasir Ris for his brother's 21st bday celebration/bbq. Was feeling so sleepy still! Left the place after cutting cake at 11++pm because boyf had to go meet his classmates for studying. They do midnight study only, dont ask me why. :O

Reach home, washup and i went to bed soon after. :X Doubt i will be going out today. Gonna stay home, cook my lunch for myself and study! (:

Goodbyeeee!

Too lazy to update blogger.

Exam officially started today. Finally the scariest module paper down. 2 more left. (:
Have been studying with classmates recently, otherwise would be working. And thanks JJ for lending me his calculator. Been a great help for my networking paper. :D

Study session again tmr.
Not sure if im going to boyf's brother 21st bbq tmr night or not because of the huge quarrel just now. See how it goes though i doubt we will patch things up by tmr noon. (:

I cant wait for exams to be over. I cant wait to start working everyday. I cant wait to enjoy and go out with my friends. (:

Gonna go study ERP for awhile before going to bed.
GOODNIGHT!

Went on a date with boyf today.

Went to his house in the morning to wake him up, Vivo in the afternoon. Job interview, movie and he bought for me the water bottle i wanted! Shall not go into details, more at wordpress. (: Dinner at Carls' Junior after movie, slowly walked around because we were both damn full and bloated. Went back to his house for tv and rest. He send me back before he go to meet his classmates for studying. :D All in all. Thankyou for everything today dearest!

Goodluck to everyone having exams now.
Goodluck to boyf!
Goodluck to EI08!
Goodluck to Cass and JP for their N's!
Goodluck to Junheng!
Goodluck to myself!
(:

A pity. They are all going out this coming Sunday and i cant join in cause i got a paper on Monday. SAD TO THE MAXXXXXXXXXX! I WANNA ENJOYYYYY. but gonna wait till after 2nd sept! WISH ME LUCK!

Any updates will be over at wordpress for more. (:

I think it's time to change my contacts. ): OH MY GOD. $_$

Anyway, today work not bad. Sales not bad, time never pass so slow because i got my CLEOOOO. :D Was reading the magazine for 3-4 hours. Then talk to neighbours awhile. Fast! Handover at 6pm, walked around the mall and i saw smthing i like again. Oh my gosh! ): Went over to Thomson Plaza, bought some groceries and walked around the mall for awhile before i meet Sheila to get smthing from her. (: Head back Sk, 1hour journey! Was so cold in the bus or rather the whole day cause of the rain in the afternoon and i forgot to bring jacket out. Ohyessss, boyf's comfortable windbreaker is in my hands again! :X Took it home ytd and he agreed cause he still got his jacket with him. Cooked my dinner. NICEEEEEE! Tomyam soup base. Ultra double nice.

Boyf slept the whole afternoon, and he's still sleeping now i think. What a weird guy. He sleeps at near to 12pm when i was on my way to work today. I feel so tempted to eat Sakae sushi ever since i start working at Novena because my workplace is just DIRECTLY infront of sakae. And im dying to try out the korean cusine located at level 4, probably pull boyf to go try it out next month after payday. :D Job interview next monday(coming monday) at Vivo. Then gonna start mugging for exams for the remaining days of the week. Gonna die so badly! OH GREAT. I left two days to study for networking paper. Tues and Wed plus Monday night. ): Dammit! Gonna try to ask for Thursday off. Hope she agreees!

Happy 9 months anniversary boyf! (:
Love you boyf!
And im feeling tired now alrdy.
MEANS. GOODNIGHT ALL! :D

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY. :D Me attack boyf today. End up he promise me two things. TEEDEEE.
(: (: (:

Went to work in the morning, almost late and i missed the train smore so end up, gotta waste money to work. ): YOU KNOW WHAT LA. Damn sad please. Open shop, rot there. Sales not bad. And then, Michelle Chia and her group of friends came into the shop and i gotta serve them. Pretty ladies! And luckily they damn nice to buy. :D Handover shop at 6pm, meetup buyer to trade then to boyf's place. Apologies to Ry, Xueqin and co. for not going to have dinner with them. Damn broke alrdy now thts why. Went to boyf's house alrdy, waited for him to bath then to golf house there to meet his friends Tk and Sj for number ball. Slowly, their other friends came. Alan, hoifai and one more guy. Boyf won money again! But end up, the money he win is mine! Cause he promise to get me that top! :D HAPPY! Watched them play till 9+pm then went to have dinner at Bishan with boyf, tk and sj before tk send me back to sengkang along with boyf by car cause boyf lazy ride bike! (: LAZY PIG! Reach home at 11pm sharp today because of 7th month.

Ownself give target to be home by 11pm. :D And what's next. I HAVENT STUDY FOR MY EXAM AT ALL! Great. Most probably tomorrow gonna go home straight after wrk and chiong the next few days alrdy. MOTIVATE MYSELF!

20mins more. I think boyf forgot about it alrdy. Sigh.
Wait for him to talk about it first. ):

Gonna go sleep soon. TIRED LEHHHHHH.
Goodnights!

Quick post before i go to work.

Monday - Stay home the whole day. Tw drama all the way. Forgot what i did alrdy that day.

Tuesday - Stay home again for tw drama the whole day. Dinner at night with father at ave8. Home.

Wednesday - Morning and afternoon spent watching tw drama again. Fine finee, my life is all about tw drama now. But it's damn nice! :X Went to Bishan to take key from Jo in the evening, back home to change cause of the last minute decision to head out. Home at 11++pm. Continued again. :D Chatted with Tk awhile last night too. Sometimes we cant control this thoughts from entering our head but there is nothing we can do about it too. Sigh.


Working till 6 later on. Gonna meetup with a buyer to trade my dress and hopefully the other buyer doesn't play me out then i will have extra moolahhhh! :D Might be going over to boyf's place after work today.

Go and do smthing about it before i really really give up.

Very tired now still despite sleeping from 6pm to 1am. :O

Im irritated with irritating boyf now. HE KNOWS THE REASON WHY! From last night ok. I never say anything about doesnt mean i dont mind. IT IS FOR YOU TO REALISE. YOU BETTER DO SMTHING ABOUT IT BEFORE I @($*%)^!# YOU.

Stayed home the whole day today. Damn super lazy these days, probably because of my eye infection which made me dont feel like going out, dont feel like doing anything.

Managed to pack my room on Sunday and my wardrobe on Monday anyway. Threw away alot of clothes already. :D Sense of achievement! But im still not done yet deh. Kinda lazy to continue packing my room already. Im hungry now! And there's nothing for me to do. Probably go dig out food later on but i guess there's nothing for me to eat. OH MY GOSH. Hope i wont be tempted to order McDelivery. I hate to pay that extra $3 surcharge just for one meal because i rather go to the outlet and buy it myself! :X

Am getting very lazy now again. Blog tmr! (:
9th month anni in another 3 days!
YAYYYYYY.
And guess what? I will be wrking at Novena on Thursdays too so drop by to buy me drinks ok!
:X

Went to work on Friday, sales not so bad. And that was when i realise my atm card is missing also. Head home straight after work at 6pm, dig out all my bags to search for my two cards but still couldnt find. ): Onlined till around 9+pm, brother and sister-in-law came to pick me up. Left the house for supper at Geylang, dimsum! :D Went over to Geylang East NPC to make my police report then they send me to Bishan. Boyf came to pick me up at J8, went over to 186 to meet his friends. As usual, their daily routine. Went back to his house at around 3, had a chat before going to sleep at around 4 or 4+am. TIRED DEH.

Woke up at 8 to go do the registration thingy again at Orchard Hotel with Hweezi. (: DAMN TIRED. Didnt felt like going actually but that is the only day Jimmy will be going so have to go in order to settle the thing at one time. Reached there at around 10, lasted till 10++am then we went back to Sin Ming cause too tired. :X And i actually fell asleep till 2+pm. Bathed, prepared, eat then boyfriend send me to Yishun IN THE RAIN. But he told me it stopped raining when he was on the way back home. Well, smbody said that i didnt spare a thought for others just because i fall asleep. If i didnt, would i even bother to apologise in the first place and yet rush down and we had to travel in the RAIN. I didnt know that i will be so tired to fall asleep when i get home. I know it's my fault. I should have known that if im so tired then we shouldnt meet. But i didnt mean for it to happen AT ALL. ):

Boyfriend said that it was my fault too and i know it. But i was being said like i did it purposely and didnt feel sorry for it. I apologised and i've explained. Sigh. Let it be then.

Didnt have my dinner last night, left for home at around 8pm. Head home and dropped dead on bed. Did i mention that my eye is getting worst now? And now i cant wear my contact lens out. ): GREAT UH! UNLUCKY TO THE MAX THIS WEEK.

Thanks to Sher for the help btw. She's there to help me out everytime i face problems and my family refused to help me out. Thanks alot sexy! :D

Thanks to Boyf for being so nice to me. Well, maybe he was right not to answer some of the question marks and insecurity in my heart. He said that he dont want to answer the questions because he would be lying to me and himself if he answered yes or no. Because he wouldnt know what will happen in the future. Maybe i shouldnt even talk about the future anymore and the more i shouldnt talk about the past anymore. But there are times when i just couldnt control the attacks by all those questions that made me feel insecure. Boyf said that we should just care about the present and cherish all the times we have now. (: (: Love him! 9th month anni coming soon but it's on a friday. SAD! He got soccer on fridays, i got work on fridays though it ends at 6pm but it's the time his soccer game start! And his exam is 4 days after our anni. ): See how it goes yeh. I was expecting a meal tgt only thats all but it just coincidently happen to be on a friday. BLAHHHHHH.

Gonna go study now already. (:
Probably stay home today.

I realised...

there are so many things i still cant let go up till today.

.I dont know what i want either. I dont know myself anymore. So many things kept aside in my heart. So many things i chose not to talk about. So many things i pretended like it is no longer bothering me. So many things i want to let go long long long time ago. So many things i regretted.
.So many things i thought i had already forgotten and let go.


.And when it come to times like this. The only thing i yearn for is boyfriend's comfortable hug, telling me that everything will be alright and he'll be there for me. But a pity, he's not here with me right now.
I just hate to think about the past. I am gonna try again, try to let go all of it.
All over again.


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Back home after a long and tiring day. Slept at 4 last night, woke up at 9 this morning. Hell sleepy. Rushed to Woodlands to meet KY at the library to study. Yawning non-stop. As usual lah. Rubbish all come out in between to make us laugh. :X And damn greatttt. ME KANA SORE EYE! PAIN YOU KNOW! ): Left the library to have lunch at 2pm, and i regretted eating ban mian cause it sucks. NOT NICE. Didnt even finish half of it, walked around the whole mall again and again after eating. He accompanied me to wait for time to pass cause i only had to reach town at 430. :d Took mrt to town, meetup with Hweezi. Wasted trip. And i realised smthing. IMPORTANT NEWS. Got a shock of my life and i only just realised today.

DOUBLE.
SWAYNESS.

Went to Taka with her after that, then back to Bishan to buy desserts then back to the guys' house. Our boyfriends laaa! (: Dinner followed by dessert followed by teeveee. Almost fall asleep. Boyfriend accompanied me to Thomson to collect my dress then he send me back.

Im feeling so shitty now. I cant find my IC. WHERE THE HELL DID I PUT!
DEEP SHIT.
Work tmr.
PLEASE LET ME FIND MY IC BY TMR! ): ):

Gonna turn in already cause of my SORE EYE.
RED EYEEEEEE! :d

Studied, nua-ed at home today. Still feeling damn lazy and tired after around one month of chiong-ing for tests and projects. Slept for near to 12hours last night but the more i sleep, the more tired i am. Killer.

Told mum about the HK trip in December and she allows! :D Happy shit. Cant wait. I wanna go Bangkok, I wanna go HK, I wanna go TW. So many places i wanna goooooo but have to one at a time. ): Gonna study hard for the upcoming exams and prove my dad wrong.

Gathering next Friday evening! Not sure am going or not but i wanna gooooo so much. Miss them alott but gonna see if im still broke by then or not. Am very broke this month especially now. I miss going out with cliques too but i guess everyone are busy for their N's and school and everything. ): And im busy with my schoolwork and exams. Wont be having too much fun during this two weeks of study break deh.

Gonna go watch tebe again! (:
And lastly, i love teri teoooo! Sometimes i miss disturbing him so muchhhh. :X

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Life is damn short. ):
R.I.P Noorzan.
Seriously, he's a really nice guy. He kept quiet throughout the times when people commented about him and everything. He didnt even say anything about it and tolerated it. He talked to us nicely still despite all. And now, he's gone. To a better place i guess. ):

Last minute change of plan in the evening. Went down to usual place to meet Cass to have dinner. JP was there too. Sat down and talk after dinner at Kfc, talked with riders and Rohman uncle. Rohman uncle is another guy i admire, he's like a father to us who give us suggestions and advices. And he gave me advices just now. :D Damn long never see them already especially Syazwan! He was there working today, had a short chat with him while i was waiting for Cass too. (: Glad everything's fine for everyone of us now. A pity i didnt get to see Azri and Azhfar today. Left even before they arrived.

Left for home soon after cause my head was hurting. Shitty. I hate it when my head spins. It gives me headache. Tmr study in the morning with KY at Woodlands then to town in the late afternoon to meet Hweezi for the F1 registration thingy.

Gonna sleep early again tonight.
((:

Finally its overrrrrrrr! Shiok to the max. Like a burden off your chest. But another burden entered my chest.

Spent the whole day doing project, rushing like hell yesterday. Afternoon went over to RVM to meet MM and YL before going to Sher's house. Was feeling damn sleepy. Head home at 6+pm and continued doing all the way till 12+am. And yes, my "GREAT" father actually took out the plug and i left my battery at home. Great uhh. The whole laptop shut down on me and i didnt save. Was feeling so pissed off. Curse and swear!

This morning woke up at 6+am to rush the report, meetup with Sher and we cabbed down to school at around 8. Last minute rush through the project work and report, presentation over. Went off with Sher back to Sk to put our laptops at home then to PS for lunch. ION cause she wanted to get smthing and we had to rush over to Lavendar for my interview which i didnt go in the end at the very last minute because of the environment around the building. Walked back to bus stop, took bus back to Amk and that pighead didnt answer my calls. Went down to Eunos alone in the end to collect smthing then head back home. Expected, my dearest boyf fell asleep again! ):

Very tiredddddddddd. Gonna go watch tv already! :D
Finally can relaxxxxxx.

Too lazy to dress up on National Day. Dressed casually and went off to Novena for my interview. Or rather go there to sign contract only. :X Starting work this coming Friday at Novenaa! Bought McDonald's for lunch then to boyf's house. Ate our lunch, watched tv, watched him play dota and then tv again. Bored to the max. Head out at 7+pm to meet Hoifai and gf and their friend at Macperson. The journey there ultra shiok. :D ME LIKE. Went up to blocks cause wanted to watch fireworks but realise it's over already. Went back to Sin ming cause the guys wants to play number ball. Watched them play then TK came and yayyyyyyyyyyy.Boyf won money! (:

Left the place at 12, boyf wanted to ride his bike home first so TK drove us back to boyf's place to fetch boyf after parking his bike. (: The way he drive and corner, one word. SCARY! Reckless driver indeed. :X Went to fetch their other friends at Bishan then wanted to go to Jalan Kayu for supper but boyf decided to let me go home first cause i said i didnt want to go back late. END UP, NO FOOD FOR ME. Sad or not! Quarrelled with boyf after i reach home, BIG BIG QUARREL. WTH. Double sadness for me. Slept without eating after i got so pissed off. ):

Boyf's family gonna go watch GJ today! In the afternoon which means i cant join in cause have to go to Sher's house with MM and YL to chiong project. STUPID PROJECT! Curse and swear. ):

Blog again tonight! :D

Friday was spent in school. In school from 12 to 6pm doing project with the guys + Yannan. ): What a project. Worst than any other projects. Left the school at 6pm for Clementi then to Whampoa then to Serangoon then cabbed home. Killer tired. Continued project awhile then knocked out on bed at around 2.

Today cabbed down to boyf house cause i was DAMN lazy. Ate the bread that his brother's gf made then watched tv and continued on my project. The whole afternoon till evening was spent doing that project. Ate our dinner after his father came back, bathed and went out to meet his friends. And his friend actually said that im so quiet. I think for boyf's friends and relatives and family would always be saying that im very quiet. :D Good sign or bad sign? Up till now i still cant open up to them, probably because i seldom see them. VERY VERY SELDOM. ): Boyf sent me home tgt with his friends at around 1+am after we got so bored sitting down at st22. And he got pissed off because of smthing when he reach my place downstairs so i shall be a good girlfriend and not irritate him now. :X

Tmr National Dayyyyyyy. Gonna be another day spent with boyf. (: Afternoon will be going Novena for my interview first. Gotta go back to do my project now. TOOOOOODOO.

I realise we got alot of things left undone. One word. DIEE!

Yesterday was really a busy day so didnt update. (:

Woke up at 7+am yesterday morning and realise i was about to be late. Rushed all the way to school, reached at 9am instead of 8. And furthermore, i got a test early in the morning. Lucky manage to finish within an hour. :X Hiak hiak. After netcom, to library to study WAD and CA with classmates. 1-2pm netcom lecture then to level 5 to continue study for that two test. Kinda screwed up my CA test. Did study for it but out of a sudden when i realise i only have half an hour left for 2 or 3 qns, my mind went blank. WTH. And i just anyhow scribbled the answers down. ):

Walked to yck with the guys and Joyce caught up with us after awhile. Last minute decision to have dinner with Kimyong and Joyce over at Bishan. :D Love having dinners with friends! And i brought them to all 3 coffeeshops and finally settled down at S11. And irritating cleaner at Kim San Leng who said that we were blocking the way just because me and joyce was playing sissors paper stone to decide on where we should eat instead though no one was trying to walk pass us. So we left that coffeeshop and went to the other. Talked after eating, then head home. (:

And today, woke up at around 10+ in the morning, head out to TP to meet Sher and Kenneth to do our proj. Gavin came afterwards, was like stoning there instead. :X Left the school at around 5+pm, took bus to Tampines and walked around awhile before going home. Started on making my ERP notes just now. (:

Boyf called just now. Plans to go HK in Decemberrrrrr! :X Not sure if im going or not though. Gonna confirm by end of this month. If im going means gotta save up every penny for this trip! OHHHH MY. But the good thing is that, we dont have to worry about our lodging issue cause will be going back with his friend who's staying in HK! See how it goes yeh. (:

Gonna go back to my ERP notes while waiting for boyf's call! (:

Edited post options again. Time check: 0224AM.
Everytime post at 2am then go sleep. :O

Very bery tired. To the max already. Body system gonna die soon. ):
Mood wasnt very good since Sunday. Broke down at night on Sunday. Sudden attack. Buried myself in the wet pillow to sleep.

The next day Monday was super bad. Whole day having severe headache but not to the extent that i will faint. Was damn tired. Went to school, supposed to meet boyf after school but he decided to bring his bike for inspection because i end school late. So end up not meeting but its alright. (: Had dinner with Kenneth after school and i went to CompassPt to get my solution for my lenses before going home. Small tiff with boyf but after that made it up. Gotta apologise to boyf about it deh. Forgot what i did in the night. Watched tv, studied abit of CA. Slept at near to 3 again. WTHHH!

TODAY. Slight headache still. Despite sleeping late, i went back to school in the morning even though no class. Studied with Anthony, MM, YL, Joyce, Yannan and Gavin came in the afternoon. (: CA the whole morning, WAD in the afternoon but MM only went through with me. DBMS lecturer was damn nice to let us have his 2hours of class to do our own revision for our test. I think even he pity us for having 3 TEST in a SINGLE DAY. Killer. He went through DBMS test paper for an hour and let us have the rest of the time. :D Left school at around 530pm, cabbed to boyf's place because i was too tired to walk to yck and take a bus. Ended up, i waited at his house downstairs for half an hour! >< Went up, had dinner, watched movie, had pizzas and short nap for like 10mins. (: Cold war with boyf all the way till back home. Or rather until now still cause i said smthing wrong. Though i know i've been feeling so tired thats why i feel irritated and will pick a fight with him. But i guess he's clever enough to ignore my nonsense. :X Love him deh. BUT IRRITATING HIM IGNOREE MEEEEE.

Studied WAD and CA just now. Double killer. Anthony was damn nice to call me go sleep just now at near to 1am. Mother said that i would definitely collaspe if this continues. Tomorrowwwww or rather later. Less than 2hours of sleep left for me now. Have to wake up at 530am cause class is at 8AM. I AM VERY VERY TIRED.

F1 job secured. Thanks to Jimmy. Managed to pull in Sher and Hweezi too. :D
Novena job interview changed to Saturday morning. Teedee.

Me not enough rest = mood down = DONT IRRITATE ME.
And if i did show a moodless face to anyone of you, please dont mind me! ): Just too tired and stressedup already. I NEED REDBULLLLLLLLLL.


I miss Teri teo's hugs now. I NEED IT!

Today is just so not my day. I feel like hurling !#$%(^)&@$* but i know i shouldn't.

Enough nonsense, enough shit to make me break down today. When i was feeling better after complaining to someone, the other person was making the other part of me GO UP again. Adding on to everything.



And conclusion, im feeling very down now. Hope i wont break down today. NOT TODAY. I AM NOT GOING TO SHED ANY TEARS FOR ANYONE TODAY.



I AM SUPPOSED TO STAY STRONG AND NOT CARE ABOUT THESE PEOPLE WHO DOESN'T APPRECIATE ME AND MY HELP. I AM NOT GOING TO BOTHER ABOUT PEOPLE WHO DOESN'T GIVE ME BASIC RESPECT WHEN I GAVE THAT SOMEONE. So what if you have the rank? So what if you have the authority? AT THE VERY LEAST. Give someone the respect if you want them to respect you. I dont deserve such treatment at all.

We are all human beings. And so much for going down to work today. Shouldn't even have agreed to help out if i know that such a thing will happen. And they will definitely say, not happy dont work. They can live without us. Not the first time hearing that from them anyway.



And i think i have to apologise to KL. But yeh, KL and the topic im talking about above is totally irrelevant. I have nice RM. (:

URGH.

Enough about it. Last minute called down for work, 330 to 7. Head home straight. TV, abit of ERP and abit of CA revision. Tomorrow ERP day because morning 2 hours of ERP, 2hours of WAD and another 2 hours of ERP make-up class. I hate long school days.

I need something to make me feel better. I need someone to make me smile.

Today woke up at 12 all thanks to my alarm. :O I think i would still be sleeping if my alarm doesn't sound. Job interview later on at Eunos. FAR DEH! Hate travelling so far now cause i will be very very lazy to go. And i dont like job interviews!

Gonna go home after job interview and wait for F*47**D to comee pick me up! (:
Should i work on National Day? Wahpianggg. I wanna go out i wanna go out!
And the more i dont think i should work after last night.
If im unappreciated at work, then why do i have to work right?

See how the interview goes later on. :D
Blog tonight after i come back from boyf's cousin's bbq.


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Time check: 207AM. Just bathed finish, smell super nicee now. Plus boyf's jersey, make me ultra comfortable. I think if at boyf's house plus his bed, would be perfect already. ):

Watched tv, onlined while waiting for boyf to come pick me up just now. He finally came at around 8pm, reached Pasir Ris park for his cousin's bbq at around 830. All the way till 1am. Eat, talk, laugh, cut cake. :D One of boyf's aunt family only came in near to 1030pm and the other one about 11pm. Kept eating throughout the whole night. :X Grown fatter again. Boyf was so nice to peel prawns for me, take out the crab meat for me, feed me stingray and sotongs, take water for me again and again. Me love him! :D He then send me home at 1+am after we cleared up the place. Gonna stay home tmr to study i guess. (: Gonna nights out soon!

Goodnights people!

Friday was a working day this week. Woke up at around 11+ and watched tv and eat. :D Was feeling damn lazy to work though. But cause it's the last day of the month, still have to go. ):

Worked from 330pm to 11pm, fast bite for break. Didnt want to have break initially but cause the good sales, making me very tired and hungry. Needed a rest. Wanted to bring my meal home after work but too bad, they dont allow so have to finish up there and i had to eat very fast cause of the stupid last bus. Didnt even finish my food! >< SO IRRITATED OK. Went off, saw JP outside so talked to him awhile then rush to the bus stop. Took last bus home. (:

Onlined and slept at near to 2. :D

Was so sad this morning because i couldnt ping my networking lab test. ): IDIOTICC. And i dropped my phone TWICE early in the morning. Make me feel that my day isnt going smoothly. Didnt have the mood to attend lesson so decided to go over to boyf's place after WAD class.

Got back WAD result. Did OOP report during WAD class, went over to J8 to buy my lunch then to boyf's place. Had my lunch and we love shaker friessss! :D Watched tv awhile then made him help me with my report. Finished it up then surfed websites and watched movie on his lappy. (: Had early dinner but only crab, cooked by his mum! Damn nice! Went back room continue watch movie on his lappy and he wanted to rest for awhile BUT i got pranked by him when i went back to his room after getting a drink!

Wahpiang. I think i whole life must get prank by everyonee. ): And we were both laughing non-stop just because i was pranked. Watched tv awhile after all the laughing then he went to meet his friends and i went home. :D


We're getting better and better as days pass. Happy eh! Im really glad. Even though we still dont meet as often as last time but he calls me about every few hours now, at least better than last month! (:

Saturday he gonna come pick me up after his soccer game to go to his cousin's bbq. (:
Finally OOP project DOWN! IADP proj gonna chiong over this wkend then study for that 3 upcoming test.

Gonna go do some work already! :O

Imagine doing the SAME lab exercise from 1pm until 10pm. And i still cannot get it to ping succesfully. Well done. ): I give up!

Tmr's lab test is killing all of us! Didnt attend class today. Woke up at 8am so i decided not to go school. Back to sleep, woke up at 11 and prepared. Head back school at 12+pm, studied with Anthony. He taught me the lab exercise until 3+pm then he accompanied me for lunch at South canteen before going home. (:

Have been working on that stupid thing from 5pm after i reach home till now.
TEE. Not sure meeting boyf tmr or not even though tmr is Thursday cause he got soccer tmrrrr!
):
Urgh!

Happy todayyyyyy!

Today early in the morning, OOP project assessment. 2nd group to present, got it over with. Went to Cheers with MM and YL but i bought nothing. Went to meet my dearest boyf over at the atrium, went to Koufu for lunch tgt then to entrance. (: Talked for awhile then he walked me to Block L. DBMS test was so-so. Luckily it's open book + Sher's help. Finished the paper, went off to boyf's house and he MIA-ed for that 1hour plus.

Called him no answer, smsed him no reply and he wasnt at home so i waited for him at his house. Watched tv and fell asleeep on his comfortable bed again. :D He finally came back at around 630pm. Rested for awhile, watched tv then ate dinner at his house and back to TV till around 9+ and he send me back.

Pampered by him this few days. I like! :D
Gonna go do OOP report already.
Feel like sleeping heh.
Miss boyf's bed. ):

Forgot to mention smthing yesterday. I met Wei Liang at my house downstairs bus stop when i alighted from the cab. (: Coincidence eh? Damn long never see 5n2 peeps. Suddenly feel like having a gathering to meet them up. ):

Slept late yesterday. Woke up at around 9 this morning, csharp codings again. Then prepared for school. Late for school, met KY and we went to school tgt. WAD lesson dismiss early again. Continued csharp codings, southcanteen for tako ball. Thanks Sher for treating. :D Free access lab continue codings then went for lecture. Lecture lasted only an hour today. I like!

Went to buy waffles with the guys + Joyce then walked to yck with KY, Gavin and Joyce. 72ed to Tampines then back to Sengkang to buy dinner back home. Boyf called when i was on my way back. And he just called again not long ago to ask if im okay cause i told him im very upset and stressssss. How can i not love him right! (: (:

And i have to apologise to this friend of mine who have been asking me for help but yet i couldnt help him cause i was busy with my projects and LOTS AND LOTS of tests this few weeks. Sorry! ):

OOP project assessment tmr followed by DBMS test and i have yet to study for it. Cisco test i dont know is this wed or next wed. :X Thurs FNET lab test. DIE DIE DIE! Friday last day for OOP project and report. SIGH!

Cant wait for exams to be over. ):
Urgh.
Goodnights all.
Gonna go continue csharp and wait for boyf's call. :D

Everyday have to edit the post date and time. TROUBLESOME! ><


HAPPY BDAY JP SISTER! (:

Woke up in the late morning cause of stomach cramp. ): Sad deh. Watched tv awhile then went to work. Damn tired and restless cause of the cramp. Work till 6, ate and talk tgt with Agnes, Eunice and JP sister then KL lonbang JP sister and me home by cab. :D thanks! Bathed, tv, project awhile then head out to CompassPt. Needed a break so i took a walk there. Bought dessert and whipped potato. Paid the price of a medium one for a LARGE one cause they didnt have a medium size one so they gave me the large one. HAPPY! (: Walked home again. Talked to boyf awhile on the way back. Tv awhile again then do project awhile, ERP and back to project. Talked to boyf awhile before he go to bed just now.

Gonna go sleep soon. Smokie loves me! He happily lie down on my bed and enjoy himself from just now all the way. :D

140AM ALREADY. Goodnights all!

Very sleepy now. Probably gonna go sleep after blogging. (:

Woke up at 11+ this morning but was still feeling very tired. Wanted to go back to sleep but i guess i will end up waking up very late for work! Onlined till 1+ then watched tv and ate maggi again. Late for work for about 15mins, worked till 11. Hafiz facial expressions and his jokes again made me laugh during work. :D

Sad case. I thought about him again at work today. Hoping that he would appear to make me laugh again. ):

Happy thing. My dearest boyf called me and talked to me during my breaktime and after work. Make me feel happier at work. :D

Stopped going out, gonna try to spend lesser money on everything including food cause im broke. VERY BROKE. ): DAMMITTTTTT. Projects due, tests, exams coming. When smbody pops out in my head is enough to make me feel restless. ): SIGH.

Stayed home the whole day today. Amazing. :D

Watched tv almost the whole day. Was feeling damn damn damn lazy and sleepy throughout the whole day. Head out for dinner with Agnes at point. Casual conversation with Azri and Azhfar while waiting for Agnes. Long dinner with her cause of the long talk. (: Head back store for awhile then home. Continued tv show followed by more csharp codings.

HK Shows are damn damn nice. Loving it cause i watched channel 55 & 255 the whole day today. :X

130AM ALREADY. Time flies. Work tmr! Cant wait! :D
Gonna go continue to bury myself in csharp codings again.

Thursday lesson was good cause it was somehow a short day as compared to other Thursdays! :D All the guys cept' Kenneth and Anthony left after Netcom class. So WAD class was short. The lecturer left after 40mins cause the class had around 11 or 12 people only. Left for early lunch at koufu with classmates, South canteen to get my green tea then library to do IADP assignment then to lecture. (: IADP class ended early also. FOR THE FIRST TIME even though only half hour earlier. Back to SK with MM, YL and Anthony again. CompassPt to buy my dinner then walked home.

:D

No calls from you for 2 days already. You did call today but i purposely rejected your calls because you never even bother.
No replies from you when i text you.
When you dont bother, i also can choose not to.
(:

Decided to work on Saturday cause i need monehhhhhhhh! And work gonna be so fun on Saturday again. Damn lazy to find a new job!

Goodbye!