HELLO EVERYONE.

YAY YAY YAY. Today is Saturday you know? ;D Had fun lame-ing around with polymates yesterday on Msn. I realise my life is so bitter, i always get bullied by the guys in my class and they chicken. Don't dare to accept my challenge for the scissors paper stone smore, afraid of treating me cheesy hotdog. SEE, DARE TO BULLY DONT DARE ACCEPT CHALLENGE. ;P And for your information, my school sells the yummiest and cheapest cheesy hotdog okay! want try? Come NYP buy, come come. ;D

The conversation only got two girls and thts me and sher ytd so i got bullied until super jialat. OWN CLAS REP BULLY ME LEH. Smore gang up with 0807 people, tht galexy. ): Must train our girls' power alr. ;X Girls so poor thing. I want to play counterstrike. HEHE. And Sher say she love bball, so we're gg to play soon! But still dont know which basketball court to go, jealous tht Pam's boyfriend Gary is a basketball pro. I want to be like him. EVERYTIME SHOOT CONFIRM GOAL. ;X YAY. GOAL! Then like tht everyone will cheer for me at the basketball court, SHARON WAN SHUI. Lame lah. I shall go prepare to meet tht couple soon, then to HougangPt to have lunch and do project with QingLi joining us ltr in the afternoon. HOHOHOHO.

I need to help Sher draw notes later on, she say she wants to draw money today so i told her i'll draw for her lah. ;X SEE, WHT A GOOD FRIEND I AM. Next Sunday suntanning day! HEHEHE. Super happening sia. Everyday so many things to do. Die also must complete my assignments by today! ;D

Sayo everyone.
I'm lazy to type sayonara so i type sayo. ;X

Scissors paper stone is my new game. I am going to play it with everyone tmr! (: Hell many assignments this wk. Poly not nice to study. ): Need to clear up most by tmr because it's common test wk next wk! BOOHOOOOHOO.

STUDY HARD PEOPLE TO PULL UP GPA! ;X HGTR, tht includes you. (: Jiayou jiayou jiayou. Mickeymouse and shroomy is super nice to hug at night when i'm feeling very lonely. Jealous i got shroomy right. ;X

I stay at hougang chalet level5, smbody sent me in today after verifying tht i've got serious illness for being so crazy and lame and childish. ): It's okay, i found alot of games tht i can play with them when i am bored. At least i have my shroomy and mickey to accompany me. ;D Everyone will stare at my shroomy and think wht a cute baby i have. Of course cute lah, he give one hor. Nobody can snatch. ;P Kns. Gavin checking in next tuesday and because he got a very serious illness, he's gg to stay at level 1 because the people there is afraid tht he'll commit suicide if he xiang bu kai. ;X Sher is joining him also i think. SEE, FOR THE SAKE OF LOVE LEH. I jealous alr lor. I have turned into a lightbulb alr lor, everyday be tht super bright lightbulb. ;X So sorry da ge and da jie. I shall find new friends at my new chalet so tht i won't be so bright. But bright also good right? PIKA.

Off to do smthing, very impt. And tht is to play with my lame khakis. ;X

Very very boring in schoool now. Whole class is at lab now doing some revision for the HTML test ltr on. So shitty and boring. I hate tests! Next wk is the Common tests for all modules alr. I only knew about it this morning when they mentioned tht the Manufacturing common test is just next wk, have to chiong for this whole wk alr. THEN HOLIDAY TIME! (: Holiday = party time. Gonna wrk more and play more. ;X HEHE. Zoo outing on the 17th with polymates is confirmed. I haven't eat at all today. It's okay, no idea why i've no appetite since last wk. Whtever, it's either i dont eat the whole day or eat only a snack everyday. DIET LEH. WHO CAN WIN ME. ;P I want to have small waist but the stupid bone on the sides of my waist is stopping me to have small waist so i can't wear small sizes. STUPID BONES!

I need to go rest, feeling sick. SO SICK.

Really go bonkers alr. Early in the morning come blog because i need to do smthing to occupy my braincells or else i'll be thinking about it again. PIKACHU. Add smore things to do alr! ;X I'm gg to learn how to play CounterStrike(CS) and get hooked on it. SHOOT SHOOT SHOOT. So cool right. ;D I want to play badminton, learn to play bball, tennis and play online games to make my life more happening. ;X Bball is because can tan okay, the color super chio. Who can teach me how to play around with tht ball?! If Junlong still around in Sg then good, can get him to teach me. Maybe i should swim over to Msia and find him. Hehehe. (:

Kenneth tay suan me ytd, he says tht i'm trying to revive my stupid friendster acct by adding comments to people. Fine, lame and kiddish comment. ;X He's just jealous tht i've more comments then him lor. RIGHT KENNETH? ;D And i hate taking 159, seriously. Whts wrong with those tikopeks who like to look look. Tikopeks. No matter wht time you take 159 also have tikopek one okay! I must complain alr. ): I must go prepare for school alr. SEE, poly students need to go school so early. I also must complain. RAH. TMR IS THE DAY! HEHEHE. HAPPY OKAY!

And when i say sher and bf, Gavin it means HER BOYFRIEND. DONT MISUNDERSTAND OKAY. Very impt hor. ;X

I didn't realise tht i waited so long for him alr, yet i still refuse to give up until today.

Many places to go and many things to do. (:

1) Zoo & Night safari(Act like kids there)
2) Kbox(Party time!)
3) Club/Pub(I only want to bio bio only okay!)
4) Tht playground beside Macs@AmkPark(I WAN TO PLAY THE SWING!)
5) Tanning every 2wks! START ALR!
6) Miss him
7) Think of him
8) Wait for him
9) Love him
10) HgPt Macs gathering! (I'M PLANNING ONE NOW OKAY PEOPLE!)


Interesting anot? So many places to go. ;X Gone bonkers alr me. Saturday super shiok, intend to play badminton but because of time constraint, we had to postpone. RAH. All because of tht stupid PD project, do a parachute or a glider. So stupid right. Meeting Sher and bf, Gavin to do the stupid thing and before tht, we're going to have breakfast at Hougang McDonald's! HEHE. (: Super happy. Don't tell you all Hougang whre. BLEH. Sher didn't have to do the project but i don't want to do with her boyfriend alone lah. ;X People's boyfriend leh, so of course i have to call her along right. (: A TEAM CAMP IS COMING! HIGH LAH PEOPLE. Decided not to go for dontknow who's wedding dinner afterall. Next sunday suntan session at SWIMMING POOL. Imagine me jumping inside the BIG swimming pool, so shiok. ;P Don't worry people, I'm alright. I went ki siao on the bus just now because i kept laughing to myself. But, i'm perfectly normal okay!

Gavin say my blog super emo while her girlfriend's blog very cheerful. Kns. BIAS RIGHT? ;X I shall laugh at him from today onwards. WHO TELL HIM TO SAY MY BLOG VERY EMO. (: PIKACHU TONG bite you then you know. YAY.

I'm still waiting for tht day to come, hoping tht my prayers are heard by God.

Very lucky this whole week. Lost my thumbdrive just now, and i only realise tht i didn't take back awhile ago. Must have left it there at the lab after Photoshop lesson. So sucky. Tell me how lucky am i? Now all the impt information are losttttttt smwhere on this earth. I feel like killing people lah, seriously. I want to go to ECP to blow wind. ): Yeah, thts wht Bryan said last time. Wind blow, blow wind. ;X

Anyway, i haven't joke around for a week alr. I know everyone miss my super lame jokes and crap, i'll be back soon okay! ;X So sorry to be so lame in school. Apologies to Sher and Pam who tried so hard to make me smile but sometimes i just couldn't force myself to smile. Yah, i'm damn tired this wk. So screwed up also. ):

Thankyou thankyou everyone in EI0808 who didn't ask me anything or talk about my problem. (: I WILL ENTERTAIN ALL OF YOU WITH MY SUPER LAME JOKES FROM TMR ONWARDS! Lame. ;X

I'm starting to lose confidence in winning you back from her alr. Maybe right from the start, i've alr lost but i knew how hard i've tried. And up till now, i'm still trying very hard. Not that i refuse to let go, it's because you choose to go just when i needed you most but you didn't know. Friends ask me tht day, why do i've to tear so badly for you? The reason is stated above. I choose to keep quiet and not tell them about this because i deserved it. Yeah, i deserved it for trying so hard yet receive nothing in return. I deserved it for refusing to let go and keep bugging you with all sorts of messages. I tried to stop myself from thinking about all these but i'm not you, you can just let go at once because all along, your heart was with her not me. You can't forget her and i can't forget you. Even if you've said that it's impossible anymore, i still rather wait then regret.I'll continue to try but maybe i still need sometime on my own before i can continue to be strong.

Before our relationship started, i waited for 6months.
In our relationship, i waited for 8months 10days.
After our relationship, i'm still waiting for the day when you'll forget her.

Tell me when you're ready, tell me when you've alr let go of her.

When she walks away from you madly
[ Follow her ]

When she stares at your mouth
[ smile...then kiss her ]

When she pushes you or hit's you
[ hug her tight ]

When she starts cursing at you
[ say i love you ]

When she's quiet
[ hold her hand and ask what's wrong ]

When she ignores you
[ act cute so she'll notice you ]

When she pulls away
[ Pull her back ]

When you see her at her worst
[ tell her you love her and she still
looks amazing ]

When you see her start crying
[hold her...ask her what's wrong]

When you see her walking
[ approach her..give a kiss on the
cheek. ]

When she's scared
[assure her you're not goin to leave
her ]

When she lays her head on your
shoulder
[ tilt your head too..and hold her
hand ]

When she steals your favorite hat
[ let her keep it]

When she teases you
[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]

When she doesnt answer for a long time
[ reassure her that everything is
okay ]

When she looks at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]

When she says that she likes you
[ she really does more than you could
understand ]

When she grabs at your hands
[ Hold hers and play with her
fingers ]

When she bumps into you
[ bump into her back and make her
laugh ]

When she tells you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]

When she looks at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until she does ]

When she misses you
[ she's hurting inside ]

When you break her heart
[ the pain never really goes away ]

When she says its over
[ she still wants you to be hers ]

When she repost this bulletin
[ she wants you to read it ]


- Stay on the phone with her even if
shes not saying anything.

- When she's mad hug her tight and
don't
let go

- When she says she's ok dont believe
it, talk with her

- because 10 yrs later she'll remember
you:

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday
to
te ll her you love her

- Call her before you sleep and after
you wake up

- Treat her like she's all that matters
to you.

- Tease her and let her tease you back.

- Stay up all night with her when she's
sick.
- Watch her favorite movie with her or
her favorite show even if you think its
stupid.
- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes.

- When she's bored and sad, hang out
with her.

- Let her know she's important.

- Kiss her in the pouring rain.

- When she runs up at you crying, the
first thing you say is;
"Who's ass am I kicking babe?"

If you do post this in the next four
minutes the one you love will :

•Call you.
•Kiss you.
•Love you.
•Text you.

As most of my friends or rather our friends know, this whole thing ended alr. And because of tht, i haven't eat anything for 3days. So no appetite and feeling damn sick now. Made up my mind yesterday to continue waiting no matter wht and no matter how long.

Apologies to pam and sher who've seen me cry throughout yesterday. Couldn't control. Cry until no more tears and water inside my eyes alr. Boohoohooo. Okay, i shall be strong from today onwards because i vow to wait. (:

Okay, there's this event after school tmr. Have to do duty smore lor but the shiok thing is tht we're stationing at the swimming complex which means i can suntan again. HEHE. ;X My burn is not yet healed but i dont care lar. (:

15 Sept is gonna have a place inside my heart and i will wait no matter wht happen. Even if you said tht there wont be a chance for us anymore but it doesn't matter. All your promises for me are not true but my promises will be true. ;D

Smthing terrible happened this morning. I dont want to talk about it. I hope things will be fine soon for us. (: But anyway, i went swimming with cousin today at my aunt's place over at Simei. I got sunburnt lah. Parted with her at Tampines, i took 72 then 25 back to boyfriend's place there. Thts when i couldn't control my feelings. I didn't get to meet him anyway, but i saw his brother by chance. He told me alot of things tht made me understood why boyfriend will make this choice. Instead of pushing him and forcing him, i guess i should listen to boyfriend and not make him worry anymore. ;D I love my boyfriend plenty. I hope you'll give me a chance to work things out with you once again. ):

I still choose to trust bf despite wht happen. I know him and i think i should trust him. He's the one who trusted me all along and gave me whtever i needed, i will continue to trust him until the day he mention tht hurtful word. (: I loveyou dearest!

15th Sept'07

No more doubts in the future, i promise not to make him worry anymore. (:

I don't know if boy will see tht anot but i just hope he sees it. (: Anyway, i went out today in the afternoon to meet Sher and we watched Wht happens in vegas. The movie was so-so but still okay. Abit not used to watching movie with friends alr because have been watching with boy for the past few movies. ;X And i dont like the seat today, it's kind of squeezy.

Okay, i removed the whole chunk tht i typed down there awhile ago because i remembered smthing. ;X Not gonna talk it out but whtever. You can ask me personally if you like to know. ;D PIKACHOO.

Sudden craze over PIKACHOO nowadays, i dont know why. ;P PIKACHOO AND MICKEYMOUSE IS EFFIN' ADORABLE. (: When i say PIKACHOO, your say PIKA! I'm serious okay. You can ask how great my friends were when i always disturb them with pikachoo. ;X Love them plenty lah! Cept' for kenneth who actually replied me "zapzap!". Seriously funneh. 0808 YAY.

Oh yes! I rented P.S I love you vcd just now over at Hg Mall. (: Haven't watch it yet because i reached home only at 1130pm. So tired okay. Shall watch it tmr morning instead and i've to return it by tmr. So sucky. RAH. ): Company supper was really great. Food was great, people were great too. ;D Cept' tht this time round alot of people didn't turn up. Alrights. Off to wonderland! (: YAY.

Happened to see this smwhere else and i find tht it's really true lah.

A girl wont cry easily, Except in
front of the person who she love the
most, she becomes weak..

A girl wont cry easily, only when she
loves you the most, she put down her
ego.
Guys, if a girl cries because of you
please hold her hands firmly, she's
the one who would stay with you for
the rest of your life.
Guys, if a girl cries because of you,
please dont give her up, maybe because of
your decision, you ruin her life.
When she cry right in front of you,
Look into
her eyes, can u see n feel the pain n
hurt she's feeling?

She cry not because she is weak, She
cry not because she wants sympathy or pity,
She cry, because crying silently is no
longer possible, the pain, hurt, and
agony have become too big a burden to
be kept inside..

YAY. I am back from work and i am freaking hungry now because i havent eat my lunch plus dinner. Holy crap. I haven't been updating often because of my busy schedule. ): Cca, tests, assignments, work. 24hrs seriously not enough for me. ;D But anyway, thank god for tht 3 aces in a week. I did my photoshop assignment myself this week. HEHE. Good girl right? (:

Haven't been eating on time recently. It's always very very late dinner for me or no dinner. So sucky. Gastric pains kept visiting nowadays also, sickening. >.< Anyway, 8th monthsary was very great. ;D Really. Although me and boyfriend only meet at 6+pm but we still went to Amk hub to watch movie and he was super duper sweet tht day! Love him hell many. I'm like half sick now, since few days ago. Holy crap again. I can't fall sick lah! Doing grad duty on Tues! YAY. Super fun i think. Signed up for OGL thing and i'm bloody looking forward to it also. Signed up for many events as well. (:

Alot of craps nowadays. Yaya, concentrate on studies first. ;X I am a hardwrking girl who's lazy to study. Manufact process test this coming Wed, wish me luck because i know i'll fail. HO SEH LIAO. ;P Sayonara. I shall go disturb my father to bring go eaT!

I'm a super lonely and sad girl today. Whole family out for the whole day okay, so i'm left alone. ): Hell sad. Last min decision to meet boyfriend so i had to rush over to his place in the noon time. Accompanied him till around 330pm and he had to go to work so i took 315 togther with him but i alighted at Serangoon Interchange. (: Seeing him makes me smile! Super cute boyfriend. ;D

And i 82ed to Rivervale Plaza after tht to rent dvd 'Stomp The Yard' and it's very nice okay! (: Bought my late lunch home and ate it while watching. Super bored at home luh. Family wont be back until 10+pm. There goes my Sunday. Wanted to go work initially today but luckily i didn't or else i won't be able to meet boyfriend today. ;D 2hrs also can make me smile okay! love.

I still don't know wht to eat for dinner. Shall go night market and buy food back to eat. ;D So shiok to eat and eat and eat when i've nothing to do. BLAH.

I'm still widely awake now all thanks to the list of assignments i have to complete and the stupid photoshop project i've to submit by next week and i've yet to touch on it. So shitty. ): Happy bday to Pamela now, because it've past 12am! ;D Hehe.

Completed most of my assignments alr, only left with the freaking hell PCMP and photoshop. Both are on the top list of Sharon's most hated modules. Sicko. Okay, whtever. I dont know wht i am talking anyway. Feeling so shitty nowadays. Anyway, so many people quitting pop. I dont know why. Our outlet shuaige JL is leaving this month end instead of tmr, thank god. ;D He decided to stay on till this month end instead. Teehee. Must be because of KBY and i am joking. I went to work today and everyone said tht i've become so bloody tired, the look of my face i mean. No choice, i am indeed very tired. You tell me lah, so many assignments to complete everyday tired anot. And everyday so late then reach home. Kns. ;X Okay, fine. I chose to return home late. So whtt. Boohooohoo. Feeling super duper broke nowadays cos i've been saving up and i choose to put my money at home instead of bringing it out so i choose to skip my meals and eat 1 meal perday. Must be nuts lah. ):

But anyway, A-team's GM meeting is super great cept' tht i fell down while playing wind blow wind. Fine, go ahead and laugh at me. ;D Fun lah, looking bloody forward to the camp. *GRINS* HIGH lah. But the bad thing is tht we've to get 1 full set of formal blouse + skirt + heels by next wk i think. So sucky. It will be around $100 for the cheapest set okay. Yah, we went to check out the prices at G2000 tht day. Boohoohoo. Now you know why i'm trying to save up and since i've overspent my savings this month, i'm feeling even more worst for godness sake. ): Shitty feeling. Stress over everything this whole month, made me cry so badly tht day in the morning. It's just yesterday morning, to be exact. I dont know wht happen. Don't bloody hell ask me why did i cry, because i myself dont know the reason lah. Stress i guess, over everything. Thts it, end of topic. ;D Felt better after the crying. Rahhhh. (: Alrighttt, i'm gg to sleep now and complete my Pcmp hwrk tmr instead. I am so so so tired and sad.

First of all, i got into the Ambassadors' Club! ;D So glad i got into it, it isn't easy okay. Have to go for interview one heh. ;X Quite sad tht Kim Yong didn't get into the cca, but thank god the rest got into it. ;D EI0808 got 5people in the cca! YAY.

But the sad thing is, i have to go for meeting on Wed and it's from 6 to around 9pm i think and i end school at 12pm on Wednesdays. ): Alright, i shall be grateful tht i'm able to get into it. So whtever.

Friday school isn't tht great afterall. I'm not going to talk about it anyway, since the matter is over. (: I just hope she's gonna stay strong and think through whether if she's willing to give him a chance anot. This is her future afterall and i'm going to send her an email ltr on! ;D STAY STRONG GIRL! You have EI0808 alrightt!

Alright, let's blog about ytd. ;D I went down to boyfriend's place and waited for him then went for lunch at Shieng Shiong and he went to work so i took 159 back to CompassPt, window-shopped awhile then 80ed to RivervalePlaza to rent vcds. (: Went home to find out tht my father brought my laptop out so i couldn't do my assignments so i watched vcds to waste time. ;X Out to Amk with father at night when he comes home, my super late dinner at 9++pm near to 10. Bought two tops there, i should stop bringing my wallet out. ): I keep buying new clothes lah. So shitty. Went to ave8 nightmarket after tht and bought food home. ;D

Meeting sher ltr on to do smthing and study maths. ): 4tests coming up this wk. RAH.

8monthsary coming up! ;D

Alright, weekly update again. (: Nothing much again this wk except i got to meet boyfriend twice last wk and i met him again on Tues. Happy girl again. Smthing happen to Pam last wk too but i have faith for her, she've to be strong. ;D Yah, Yiling too but i guess her mood was still pretty alright.

Today's PH and i didn't go work, so so so wasted. Sickening. $5.50 per hr lor! Whtever, i've become so lazy to work ever since i enter poly. Working only on Sundays every week and half day smore! ): HOW TO EARN MONEY LIKE THT. I must get smbody to feed me alr! Sher, see tht anottt?! ;X School's been pretty fun since the very first day cept' when we've alot assignments den you'll see everyone's very tired face. (:

Super sad because my pay's like all gone within 3 days, i need to dig out our savings again. Yah, i mean ours because it's my + bf's money. But i got put back one okayy, i always put back the next mth! ;D So honest right? *GRINS* Got my contact lens a few days ago, a new flats from Kappa few days ago, hoodie and bf shirt from online shopping a few days ago too. Dammittttttt. I feel like i'm buying things for nothing lor. But i think i'll benefit because i get to wear pretty clothes! ;DDD

Need to go do my assignment alrr, I seriously hate tht PCMP teacher. They're the only ones who give us so so so many assignments every wk, like we only have got theirs to do. SELFISH BRATS. Next wk hell lots of quizzes coming up which means i've got hell lots of things to catch up. No more playing after today! ;X Going Bugis to shop with sher ltr! Triple YAY!