And because i'm damn f-ing bored at home so i decided to do all these quizes found from Friendster.

First Quiz:
How old will you be in 3 years?
20

Do you think you'll be married by then?
Guess not, probably by 25. (:

What do you look forward to most in the
next 2 months?
Totally nothing, O's is starting.

Who was the last person you talked to?
My dad, to take money from him. ;DD

what do you think about the
person that took this survey before
you?
Sockling

Who was the last person to text you?
My Hgtr Pig.

What were you doing at midnight last
night?
Asleep

Parents separated/divorced/married?
Married

Last time you saw your
dad?
20mins ago.

What happened at 11:00 a.m. today?
Um, it's only 0929am now.

What is your fav color?
Black, limegreen, orange, white

Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare
feet?
Barefoot.

Are you a social person?
To some people ONLY. (: Depends.

What was the last thing you drank?
Strawberry milk which i drank last night.

Favorite ice cream?
Moo's Ice cream!

What is your favorite dessert?
Mango Milk Iceeee!

Whats your favorite song right now?
Hell many. ;D

What kind of jelly do you like on
your peanut butter sandwich?
I dont eat peanut butter sandwiches, i dont like jellies to be on my sandwiches.

Do you like coffee?
Only Mocha Ice blend.

How many glasses of water do you drink
a day ?
Depends

What do you drink in the morning?
Nothing

Do you sleep on a certain side of the
bed?
Sometimes

Do you know how to play poker?
Yes but i'm a noob at it.

Any plans for this week?
Yes yes yes!

Do you eat out or at home more often?
Eat out, all 3 meals every single day.

Have you ever been in an ambulance?
No

Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
Ocean!

Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle
seat?
Window seat.

Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
Nope

What is your favorite thing to spend
money on?
Apparels &Food.

Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
Nope

Do you speak any other language?
Is mandarin counted? ;D

Can you roll your tongue?
No

Who is the funniest person you know?
Hell many. Am i fortunate? *GRINS

Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
Yes, they're my babies. (:

What is the main ring tone on your
phone?
Chuang Wai

Do you still have clothes
from when you were little?
No

What is the color of your bedroom
wall?
Blue

Do you shut off
the water when you brush your teeth?
No.

Are you crushing on someone right now?
Not crush anymore. (:

Do you have any tattoos, or piercings?
Just a pair of piercings

Are you bored?
Right now? Yes yes yes!

Second Quiz:
1. Your ex and you
- are not togther anymore &we're friends now

2. I am listening to
- Lin Jun Jie; Xi Jie

3. Maybe I should
- study hard for my O's

4. I love
- my babies, Hgtr, friends.

5. Chocolates
- are too sweetening.

6. I dont understand
- why i keep thinking too much, i just keep having this feeling that tells me you still have feelings for her.

7. I have lost my respect for
- my family, slowly. I respect people who respect me.

8. I last bite on
- Burgerking's food.

9.The meaning of my display name is
- my name.

10. God
- make wonders sometimes.

11. Someday
- i hope my 3wishes will come true.

12. I will always remember
- all the happy and unhappy moments spent togther with him

13. Love seems to
- be bias, some people can be so happy with their bf/gf with no troubles but some just can't be happy and has alot of troubles

14. I never ever want to lose
- my pig.

15. My Friendster is
- way too boring.

16.Tomorrow I will
- be out studying with the 3 guys and the girls. (:

17. I get annoyed when
- he ignores me and doesn't care about me.

18. Parties
- can be fun

20. Simple kisses
- are sweet.

21. Today I
- am going to stay at home and be a good girl.

22. I wish..
- for my 3wishes to come true, so thats 4 wishes alr!

IS YOUR / ARE YOU...

01. is your hair wet?
- no

02. is your cell phone right by you?
- yes

03. do you miss someone?
- hell lots.

04. are you wearing chap stick?
- nope

05. are you tired?
- quite.

06. are you wearing pajamas?
- Nop, i don't have any.

08. are you mad?
- if i am i'll be inside IMH

09. are you upset?
- now? no.

HAVE YOU...
01. Recently done something you regret?
- no

02. ever stuck gum under a desk?:
- no way

03. ever licked someone?:
- no

04. ever tripped over your own feet?:
- yes

TODAY HAVE YOU...

01. cursed?
- nope

02. have you gotten mad at someone?:
- no

Q3. any person who is on your mind right
now?
- yes.

Q4. do you have any siblings?
- yes

Q5. do you want children?
- if someone is willing to give birth for me? ;X

Do you untie your shoes everytime you take them off?
- Nopes.

Q8. do you like your handwriting?
- So-so

Q9. Are your nails painted?
- Nopes.

Q10. are you a friendly person?
- Depends

Q11. whose bed other than yours do you
sleep in?
- mine

Q12. what color shirt are you wearing?
- Pinko

Q13. what were you doing at 7pm
yesterday?
- On the train to Somerset

Q14. I cant wait for
- that day and the O's to be over.

This is wayyyy too boring. Mum promised to bring me out yesterday for 881 and she didn't fulfill the promise and she didn't even tell me that she's not bringing me out. But it's ok, never trust them. (:

So i went out alone to Hougang Mall after chatting with Kenny on msn and bought food to reward myself for being such a good girl these days and headed home. Wanted to go on bus tour but lazy is the word. Studied awhile, went down to help mum with groceries. Her daughter is strong! Dad and brother came by and fetched us up so we went to Punggol Plaza for dinner and i just sat there without having anything. Dad words insulted me again so i didn't give face at all and insulted them back. I just dislike people to turn one big round and shoot me, just say it directly. Drove dad to his temple and we headed home. Onlined then out to fetch dad home before going down to Clementi to fetch my brother's gf and her friends. Sent her friends home at Woodlands and Yishun then down to Amk for supper at S11. ;D Was feeling so bloated that i felt like vomiting. Back home at 12+am.

Kenny says i'm gonna lead a so unromantic relationship next time. True, unless that guy loves me more than his games. First day of Sept is here! Yayness. (:

GENERAL

001. Name : Soo Ying Jie Sha---
002. Nickname: Sha---, xahying, Ying
003. Single or taken : Single
004. Zodiac sign : Virgo! (:
005. Male or female : Female
006. Elementary : Ping Yi Primary, Fengshan Primary School
007. High : NorthVista Secondary
008. College : Wait till next year.
009. Eye color : Black
010. Hair color : Black
011. Long or short hair : Long
012. Shoe size : 10 i guess.
013. Asthma? : Nooooo
014. Are you health freak : I guess not.
015. Height : 175cm
016. Do you have a crush on someone : Yes yes yes.
017. Do you like yourself: I guess so. ;D
018. Piercings : One pair
019. Tattoos : None
020. Righty or lefty : Left.

FIRSTS
022. First surgery : Never had one
023. First piercing : k2 i think.
024. First best friend : Kelly in Pri school
025. First movie : Cant rmber
026. First sport you joined: Netball
027. First pet : None
028. First vacation : Malaysia Truly Asia
029. First concert : Cant rmber
030. First crush : Primary 4 (:

CURRENTLY

049. Eating : Nothing
050. Drinking : Nothing also
052. I am : TALL & Fat.
053. Listening to : My blog song.
055. Waiting for : The big O's to end soon and moolahs to enter my pocket.
057. Wearing : Just a tee & a shorts.

YOUR FUTURE

058. Want kids? : Most probably not. Someone wanna give birth for me instead?
059. Want to get married? : YES YES YES.
060. Careers in mind? : Tour guide, My favourite.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?

068. Lips or eyes?: Eyes
069. Hugs or kisses : I prefer hugs, don't ask me WHY.
070. Clever or stupid : It doesn't matter to me.
072. Romantic or spontaneous : Romantic!
073. Stomach or arms : Arms
074. Sensitive or loud: Loud i guess.
075. Hook-up or relationship : Both

HAVE YOU EVER

078. Kissed a stranger : No
080. Lost glasses/contacts : I never lost it before.
081. Ran away from home : When i was in primary school, too many times.
082. Broken any bones : Nope.
084. Broken someone's heart : I guess so.
085. Been arrested : Nope
086. Turned someone down : Yeaps
087. Cried when someone died : Yeaps
088. Liked a friend : Yesssssssss

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

089. Yourself: Maybe?
090. Miracles : Maybe?
091. Love at first sight : I dont know, maybe not.
092. Heaven : Yes ;D
093. Santa claus : No!
094. Fairies : NO
095. Kissing on the first date : Maybe?
096. Angels : Maybe yes.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY

097. Is there one or more people you want to be with right now? : Yes but but but ...
098. Is Superman really better than Batman? : Of cos!
099. What do you think of players? : They should really die right away.
100. Can u handle another survey? : Why not?

So i stayed home the whole afternoon yesterday. Dad and brother called back to ask if i want to go Suntec and i agreed so they came back to fetch me at 5+pm. (: Down to Suntec and they brought me to Comex Fair. It's super boring ok. Almost died there so i pulled the two of them as fast as i could and went for dinner at Fish&co. Walked to Citylink becos brother wanna get havianas and i saw the design i want there but i'm financially unstable now. Back to Suntec, went to get donuts from Donut's Factory and head home. ;D

Today went to school and only a few of us wore school uniform. I didn't know until i reach school and i found out only Wenyan, Alena, Janna, me and some other guys wore school uniform in our class. N3 had like 6 people wearing uniform so we went to change into our house tee but i didn't bring mine so i wore pe tee. (: Back to class, slack for an hr and had chinese lesson for 1/2hr before going for the 3.2km run. The whole group of us walked instead because we found it stupid to run around Punggol Park. Walked back to school after that, slack in class till around 1130am then to the hall to see the celebration but it sucks lah. Change back to uniform then walk over to Rivervale Plaza with Wenyan. Went to see smthing then 88ed home. Cooked instant noodles for brkfast-cum-lunch just now and it's yummy.

Tmr study session with Wenyan again. (: Our weekly study session. Planned to buy fries and cheese to eat but looks like i can only buy cheese and she's bringing down mashmallows for me.

And last but not least, Mr WeiLiang, please come online asap so that i can send you the photo! ;D I bet you'll like it very very much so please appreciate my effort ok. And i'm SINGLE lah. Urgh. This guy keep saying i've a boyfriend when i dont have one. I know candy fong loves you hell lots. *GRINS

I saw one Puma jacket at Amk Hub yesterday. It's damn nice but it's gonna cost me alot. ): Shall clear my wishlist first before getting that one. ;D

Gonna depend heavily on my family for food and instant noodles this whole week till next Thurs. Dinner will be on theirs, Lunch will be instant noodles. I've planned to stay home this whole week unless there's school. But will be heading home straight right after school so that i won't spend a single cent! (: YAY. I'm craving for Seoul Garden anyway. After next Thurs, gonna pull either my brother or anyone alongggg.

There's no school today, gonna study Chemistry notes ltr on. (: Shall go cook instant noodles!
Mum bought alot of instant noodles home last night, now you know my family love to eat what. Esp me!

I miss my pig.

Tiring day. Wanted to take a cab down to school in the morning because of the rain but all the cabs were either on call or hired so i took lrt instead and thank god, the rain stopped. (: E-Lit paper was ok, did everything just in time. 87ed to CompassPt after school alone because brother called me to buy food for him so i had to go over to CompassPt. Lrt-ed home after that. Bath and change, use the computer awhile then 136ed to Amk. Met Wenyan on the bus and we went rounds at Amk Hub. Bought her havianas, my pencil case and food then went over to void deck to enjoy. (: Exchanged gadgets again, she played with my psp and i played her hp's game. 136ed back to Hougang, alighted at HougangPlaza and walked over to Hougang Interchange. She went to meet her mum and i 161ed to house nearby, studied for awhile till 7+pm then went home. The lorry scared me off just now, almost got a heart attack. >.<

Found alot of nice photographs on DeviantArt. Next Thurs Bugis Day! (:

I think i'm going crazy soon. I'm not thinking too much but studying is murdering me. Been busy mugging all day long ever since prelim started. There's smthing bothering me this few days. I dont know what to do.

Because i choose to give everything up.

I almost freezed to death throughout Paper1 today. The air con was so strong today. Chinese paper was ok today. 82ed to Serangoon, 109ed to HougangPt. Bought food and drinks then walked over to the void deck. Wanted to study there but Alena called us to go over to CompassPt library to study instead. Went home bath then lrt-ed over to CompassPt library. Wenyan couldn't make it in the end so i studied with Jia Hong and Alena. JiaHong left at 7, Alena and me studied till 8pm then we went rounds around CompassPt before going home. Continued studying just now and i'm still not done yet. Gonna continue tmr morning before my Lit paper. (: And i've yet to have my dinner until now. Gonna go to sleep right after this!

Gonna have Maths tuition with the guys next week either Monday or Tuesday togther with the girls as well. Next Thurs will be Physics extra lesson from 9am onwards, guess it will last till late noon. 5n2 just gonna unite and mug through the O's togther. ;D I've alr planned my schedule for the 1 wk holidays.

hgtrymevoli

Today Ss paper, was quite tough for me because i got all the points mixed up. Screwed up the paper. Had our paper in the LT Room and it was quite cold for me. But whatever. (: We gonna enjoy the air-con for this whole month until 20th. 87ed to Hougang Interchange, 101ed to Hougang Green but there isn't any nice food so we walked over to Ave8 after buying my facial cleanser. Had McDonald's for breakfast and it wasn't enough for me. Played Wenyan's handphone game while she played my psp then walked over to Hougang Mall. The saddening thing is that my bag is not selling anymore. How disappointing, probably going down to Bugis during the holidays to find. (: Popular to get pens then 27ed home. Use the computer awhile, bath & change. Lrt-ed to CompassPt to get lunch for my brother then lrt-ed home. Watched tv then out to meet Hgtr, finally! ;DD Not gonna elaborate as usual* I finally know how to play the majong game in my psp, thanks to that pig of mine. He taught me how to play just now. (: Home at 8+pm and i'm feeling super tired right now. Shall go to dreamland! Tmr Chinese paper then gonna go studying with Wenyan again after the paper. Shall study hard for my E Lit paper.

How i wish the time could stop so we would be togther forever.

Stayed home for the whole morning and afternoon. Dad came back when i was about to go out in the evening so i manage to save money again! (: Drove down to Tpy then to Newton Circus for my brkfast-lunch-dinner. Down to town area to fetch my brother and his gf up before going over to Amk Hub. Window shopped around, didn't see the bag in Amk Hub's Eight Percent outlet. Going over to HougangMall to check it outtt. ;D

Today i'm in a damn happy mood because someone made me happy again! (:

I suddenly thought of a stupid idea again because i want to make 3wishes so badly. The 3 wishes are so so so so important to me that i'll think of such idea. Am not gonna say out that stupid idea of mine, shall just keep it to myself till that day comes. ;D

I realise that i need to get so many new things, it's been a long time since i got smthing for myself. Ok, I know i got myself a jacket yesterday but i need more things. Shall add more things to my wishlist so that i can make myself save up and go on a diet as well. I think i'm fat, i need to burn all those fats on my legs and body. Can't i just take a knife and slash the fats? What a great and fast way to get rid of those fats right but it's gonna be so painful and i wouldn't dare do such a thing to myself. I shall go on a diet this month and see how it goes. (:

Mood wasn't that good last night, Hgtr knows why. I always sms him whenever this kinda things happen and i'll feel better after crying like a baby. As usual, i cried again last night. Other people thinks that i'm so so lucky that i've this family who will buy me whatever i want and so on but that's just the outside. Being looked down at and being despised by them shows how fortunate i am? Whatever. Since they refuse to trust me there's nothing more i can do.

Ltr going over to HougangMall to check out my bag. (: Gonna ask for the price and gonna save up the next few days so that i can get that bag by Sept holidays! I miss working so much, i need money. Gonna go study Ss now, i still have two chapters to go and i've to summarise all 5 chapters into my head by tonight so i've to rush thru.

Today study session wasn't that good for me. I was slacking like 80% of the time, was feeling very very sleepy. Lunched at McDonald's, happiest thing today because i get to see my pig. (: Walk around awhile then to HougangPt nearby void deck to study. Studied till 4+pm, walked back to HougangPt. Bought oreo drinks then 161ed to Causeway Point. Couldn't find the jackets we want so mrt-ed down to ChoaChuKang Lot 1. Bought our jackets and left the place. Back to Causeway, 161ed back home. ;D I'mma happy girl again today, finally found the jacket i want. Next will be that bag then the shorts!

Pig is playing maple again. That's sad because he'll be super busy whenever he plays. But it's ok, i shall be a good girl and not disturb him. (: I wanna get that bag so muchhh!

Yay. I finally changed my blogskin. (: English paper was alright yesterday, 87ed to CompassPt after school to buy lunch then home. Studied for an hr plus, use the computer and watched tv. Slack all the way till evening when dad came back, out for dinner at Kovan. Bought some misc stuff before going home. Continued studying, watch tv, out to Woodlands with brother at 10+pm. Fetch his gf, down to Yio Chu Kang for supper then to Amk Park Drive-thru McDonald's to buy more food home. (: Sent his gf home then home sweet home! Ate my supper then off to dreamland.

Ltr going out for study session with Wenyan again. ;D I've been so hardworking recently, so anyone willing to get me that bag i've been aiming at? (: Sept is coming coming coming! But the exams are just gonna spoil everything!

Today went back to school, meet Wenyan at the bus stop. (: Went to canteen for brkfast and we saw Mr Devan enjoying his brkfast with the Principal, Vp and other teachers at 9am so we had our brkfast as well. ;DDD Waiyang and Jiawei came down for brkfast as well, Joan came down to remind Mr Devan about the lesson so lesson only started at 930am. Physics mock exam after Ss lesson, dismissed early so we went off at 1135am. 87ed to CompassPt, bought lunch for my brother and walked home. (: Psp-ed awhile, bath and prepared, 88ed to HougangPt. Meet Wenyan, bought nachos from Cheers then to void deck for study session. Studied till 6+pm, walk back HougangPt. Bought her stuff, she accompanied me for dinner at foodcourt before going home. 88ed home and i saw an adorable baby! ;D She's really very adorable. Bought foolscape from Econ then head home, continued studying and now i'm gonna go sleep after blogging. Tmr is the start of Prelims, English paper tmr. Wish me luck!

Suppose to meet him today, but didn't in the end. Sorry Sweeeeet! (: I'm gonna make sure i plan my time!

Yayness. I pass my 2.4km run today! (: Was feeling super hungry after the run today. And ltr i've to be street directory, hell tired.

There's school tmr anyway, Social Studies extra class and Physics mock paper in the morning. I've plenty of homework and studying to do. Please remind me to study every now and then. (:

Happy Birthday to Alena on 21st Aug!

Was also my O'level English Oral Exam, i screwed up the whole thing because my brain cells wasn't working when i was sitting right infront of the teacher. I didn't know what to say and i just stopped after a few sentences for each question. Dammit. Called Hgtr up, talk for awhile, hang up. My after exam mood was like so so bad, i wasn't concentrating in all the things that i'm doing. I wish i can kill myself off.

I'm having 2.4km run today after school! Rah. People end school at 4pm, i've to run at that time. Wth. It's ok, i've Janna to run with me today! (: Prelim gonna start this coming Friday, Thurs no school. I'mma happy girl again. Meeting Hgtr on Thurs, finally. I'm gonna go to the library to study on Thurs morning than see how it goes. ;] Study study study. Off to prepare for school. School's starting early today because of the extra Ss class at 10am.

I dont like it when people come to you only when you've smthing, they're just only trying to make use of you. I don't care much or less because i know these people are not my true friends right from the beginning. I agree with what Chin Chong and the guys say about some people.

I love him the most although i'm always sad because he scolds me all the time. ;]

Fell sick on Friday so i stayed home both Friday and Saturday. (:

Sunday woke up in the morning to use the computer. Dad came back to fetch mum and me up togther with brother then we went over to the temple to pray. Lunch at 267 before going home. Played with psp awhile, cabbed down to HougangPt to find Hgtr and the rest. 159ed to their place nearby, waited downstairs for Hgtr Sweeet togther with Kenny. (: Thanks alotttt NieNieeee! Not gonna elaborate further. ;D But i made him angry yesterday evening. Sorry sorry x10000000000.

I think i won't be able to make up to all the things i've done no matter how many sorrys i've said or no matter what i say because things alr happened but true enough, i cried again last night after hanging up his call. Things just go wrong at the wrong time, the time when i'm feeling so alone alr yet these things just happen suddenly. I feel as if i'm going to lose this guy soon, real soon but he reassured me only after a few hrs. This makes me go crazy and think more because all the bad feelings are back once again. Just what should i do????????

Was late for school today because i slept late last night and i was threatened by Miss Zu. I'm gonna be kick out of school the next time i'm late. What a sucky school right? Told my brother and dad about it, my brother might be calling up the school to complain about it. So not a good day indeed. Ate my brkfast during recess and thats it for the whole day. EastPoint after school with Wenyan hoping to get her jacket and search for presents but the clearance sale is over! >.< No more our nice jackets! Urgh! Bought Hgtr's present then mrt-ed to Pasir Ris after that. Walk around then 89ed back home. Bumped into my brother and dad downstairs, bath then down to Bedok. Both of them quarrelled throughout the journey and i just kept quiet today. No mood, not feeling well so i just kept quiet. Cried on the car also. Screwed day. They had dinner but i skip it. Home after that. (:

Everything is just going against me ever since last week. Just leave me alone and don't ask anything from today onwards. I get irritated easily now so please dont irritate me!

I'm not gonna blog about school anymore. School life is just the same every single day. After school went home to bath, assembly was cancelled so we ended school at 140pm but the girls had to stay for Geography extra lesson. Out to meet Wenyan at 3pm, walk over to bus stop. 27ed to Tampines, Century Square for lunch. Rounds at Century Square then to Tampines Mall. 72ed back because Wenyan wasn't feeling well so we went back early. Alighted at Hougang Interchange, 27ed home. (:

Today school. I'm feeling quite sick, down with slight flu and cough but it's ok. (: I'm still enjoying all the yummy food, skip brkfast and dinner because i had lunch only at 4++pm. I'm gonna start mugging for my first 3 Prelim papers. ;D

Sunday was so hell boring. Spent my day at home till evening when dad come back. Fetch brother from CompassPt because of the rain. Brkfast-lunch-dinner All in 1 meal at Rivervale Plaza but the Korean Cusine sucks terribly. Don't ever try the food there! Walk around then home. Brother bought another White Psp and i exchanged with him so i've the white one now and he's holding onto the black one. (: Tv awhile then studied till 9pm. Played psp till 10+pm then went to sleep.

Today school just sucks. If not for the results, i doubt i'll go school today. Got back my Chinese O'level result, it wasn't what i expected but i'm not saying anything. Blame myself for not checking my E-dictionary before stepping into the classroom. Am just not in the mood, throat hurts alot now, almost fainted just now when i was on my way home. Feeling so giddy today. Gonna go study now. ;]

There're lots of thoughts in my mind right now. Unhappy things keep coming and not going. I need a break from everything again, anyone willing to bring me to the beach to relax?

Thanks for all your patience and care that i've never receive before.

Found all this from Friendster Bullentin Board and i like to read all this. (:

Message:
1-touch their waist
2-talk tothem
3-share secrets
4-give her yourjacket
5-kiss them slowly Are you remembering this?
6-hug her
7-holdher
8-laugh with her
9-invite hersomewhere
10-let her be with you when you're with your friends
11-smile with her
12-takepics with her
13-pull her onto yourlap
14-when she says she loves youmore, deny it. fight back
15-when herfriends say I love her more than you,deny it. fight back and hug her tightso she cant get to her friends. itmakes her feel loved Are youthinking about someone?
16-alwayshug her and say I love you when yousee her
17-kiss her unexpectedly
18-HUG HER FROM BEHIND AROUND THE WAIST
19-tell her shes beautiful not sexy!
20-tell her the way you feel abouther! you need to show her you mean it too
21-kiss her on the lips
22-DON'T ask her to buy you stuff. youbuy HER stuff
23-TELL HER WHAT FEELS GOOD
24-make her feel loved
25-buy herstuff. small things can still help we might deny it but we accutally likeand kinda want you to get us things
26-DON'T LIE TO HER.
27-DON'T CHEAT ONHER.
28-take her anywhere she wants
29-txt messege or call her in the morningand tell her have a good day atschool, and how much you miss her
30-be there for her when ever she needsyou, & even when she doesn't need you,just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you Are youstill reading this u better be it's important
31. Hold her close whenshe's cold and she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her closeand kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the tipof her nose; (it will give her thehint that you want to kiss them).
34.While in the movie, put your armaround her and then she willautomatically put her head on yourshoulder, then lean in and tilt herchin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Dontever tell her to leave even jokinglyor act like you're mad. If shes upset,comfort her Remember this next timeyou are with her
36. When peoplediss her, stand up for her.
37. Lookdeep into her eyes and tell her youlove her.
38. Lay down under the starsand put her head on your chest so shecan listen to the steady beat of yourheart, Link your fingers togetherwhile you whisper to her as she restsher eyes and listens to you.
39. Whenwalking next to each other grab herhand.
40. When you hug her hold her inyour arms as long as possible
41.Call her at night to wish her sweetdreams.
42. Comfort her when she criesand wipe away her tears.
43. Take herfor long walks at night
44. Dedicate asong to her.
45. Always Remind her howmuch you love her. youll never knowwhen she needs just a lil more love

I'm grounded. >.< Brother and dad went out in the afternoon so i stayed home unwillingly but Fiona called me up and i sneaked out of the house! ;P Waited for her at CompassPt, 159ed over to HougangPt and we started talking about this guy who kept staring at us and he's one of our crew's boyfriend. Wtf. His stares are so pervertic that i almost felt like gorging his eyes out. Had lunch at McDonald's, chatted awhile with the usuals and played poker again while waiting for Fiona to finish playing Lingixang's psp. 159ed to CompassPt after that, walk around alone awhile and met my brother. CyberActive to check out the psp prices, Popular to get photo paper then Cup Walker again! ;D Father came to fetch us up, head home. Evening time head out to Kallang/Geylang to search for smthing but couldn't find so we went to Boon Keng, walk around awhile before going back to Sengkang to fetch my brother up. Rivervale Mall for dinner, bought Nachos from Cheers then home sweet. ;D

Sweet's stares always make me faint.
My second brother was telling me to find someone as cute as him and as lame as him. My god!
Shall go touch on my PSP! I'm a lonely girl whos stuck at home.

Thurs was really a nice day! (: Went out to CompassPt to buy waffles, wanted to get a top but hesitated so i just walked away. Lrt-ed home, played maple for awhile before cabbing down to Tpy with my eldest brother. Went to his office first before accompanying him over to another block for viewing. Pizza Hut for lunch, hell full. Mrt-ed over to Amk, walk around Amk Hub. Brother paid for my havianas! ;D Went out of Amk Hub and bought a game. Second brother came down to fetch me so i left while eldest brother went home. (: Far East for shopping, walk over to Wisma. Bought 2 tops from Fleshimp then to Taka searching for my skinnies. Bought my skinnies from Fox Women. (: Had dinner at the foodcourt, only ate fruits. Went home after that, brother drove me home. I wanna get the tops from JunkFood!

Yesterday went out with family and brother's gf to Amk Hub for lunch. Went to meet Wenyan at 12+pm, walk around Amk Hub and outside. Movie at 310pm, Secret. (: The show is so so so nice! I wanna watch it again again again! 166ed to Novena, walk around before taking a train back to Amk. Separated, took 86 home. ;] Studied for like 2 hrs, accompanied brother to his friend's place to purchase the Psp as my birthday presenttt! Got a black one instead of the white one. Another strike off on my wishlist! ;DD Imma happy girl!

I still lack smthing that i always wish and pray for since April. I bet that wish wouldn't come true so soon, i'll just have to wait for someone to do smthing. (:

I think i'm emotionally unstable again this few days. Urgh. I feel like spouting vuglurities and crying out to make myself feel better. This just sucks so muchhhh.

Brother came back in the morning at 7+am to bring me out for breakfast. (: Bathed and changed then he drove us over to Bedok for breakfast! His driving skill improved so much ok! ;D

Yesterday was quite a nice day for me except that i'm so tired so my attitude came back again. Sorry Sweet! ): Kept thinking of somethings that made me feel so so so restless and moody. I dont like this feeling at all but the thoughts just come and go easily. Urgh! Dinner at McDonald's before my dad fetch me home. I just love the times spent with him. (:

Off to CompassPt to get smthing. (:

Yesterday went out with brother and father again. (: Clementi for my lunch+dinner while brother went for house viewing. Rush to Bras Basah hoping to get my board but the shop was close by the time we reach so we went over to Sim Lim instead. Walk around, compared prices and got a 2GB MP4. Wanted to get Psp but dad told my brother not to get it for me first. Urgh! >.< I almost succeeded ok! But it's ok. I'm not gonna curse them this time round cos i guess i rather save up and get it using my own money instead of using theirs because i'll have to share with my brother if i'm using his money. Home at 8+pm after rounds and rounds around Bugis. (:

National Day celebration was pretty alright today though it was kinda boring to see 3 groups of band performing on the stage but the modern dancers dance was the only one which wake me up. (: Walk over to Rivervale Plaza after school with Wenyan and Alena, Wenyan bought cheese fries from Kfc then we 80ed down to Kovan. Wenyan went home. (: Bought sushi to eat and went to the washroom before taking 81 down to Tampines. Mrt-ed to Simei and walk around. (: Kfc for lunch, IP Zone and we added some more things to our wishlist. Got one of the printed tee at IP Zone but i'm aiming for another design from Amk hub IP Zone. 38ed back to Tampines, bought bubble tea before taking 27 back home. ;D

I'm waiting for My Sweet's sms! ): Irritating ok. Wanted to go down to Bras Basah alone to check out the art materials just now but damn bloody tired and lazy to go down after i bath. ;x And if i go down now i think it's most likely gonna close when i reach there so i'm gonna stay at home awhile more before going on the bus tour again. ;D I love to travel on bus for no reason!

Today school was hell boring! 6 students were absent including my girls and more people reported sick after recess. Special thanks to the guys in 5n2 for accompanying me throughout the day. ;] Joined Waiyang, Wei Wen, Nigel and Zhi Xun during recess instead of FengWei and co. because i don't like their seating area but thanks anyway! Went back to class after eating and slept. Chinese lesson was again Maths Mock paper and i slept throughout the whole 1hr, manage to do 2questions out of the whole paper. Assembly was briefing on tmr's National Day celebration followed by a skit by some people and it was funny! 89ed to CompassPt to get bubble tea then walk back home. (:

Yayness! Friday heading out with Wenyan to Amk Hub for movie session - Secret. ;D I'm gonna study today because i've been sleeping in class lately. Change back my blog song to my all time favourite! There's another song that i'm listening over and over again but i've yet to upload it into my computer because Lingxiang send it to me through bluetooth and it's nice for me. (:

Shall go study now! Gonna dump my phone in my room for now because somebody is ignoring me and i hate to wait for smthing that makes me feel so upset. Urgh!

I'm saving very hard for one WHITE psp now! ): But i'm getting it after my exams because everyone is saying that if i get it now i'll not be able to concentrate so i'm gonna start saving now and buy it on the last day of my major exam!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HDuxb_8Z1SY

Watch this people. (: It's a nice and hilarious video by Hossan Leong! Mr Rashidin showed us this video during CDP lesson yesterday and the whole class was laughing throughout. ;]

Sat was Prelim Oral Day. Got 33 out of 40 for my oral and i went home at 11++pm. Use computer awhile then went to bath and got changed. (: Lrt-ed to CompassPt then 159ed to HougangPt. Waited for Lingxiang at 952 then walk over to 540, waited for My Sweet &Kenny. Down to HougangPt for lunch at Kfc, McDonald's to crap while waiting for JiaLing &Rickson. 109ed down to Serangoon and mrt-ed to Harbourfront. Met Fiona and Saoyi on the train. ;] Breadtalk to buy a small cake before Kenny, Lingxiang, Rickson and me walk over to Harbourfront Centre Pastamania to reserve seats then walk back to Vivo. Took the monorail to Sentosa and slack at Siloso Beach. Played poker and we gambled. Took the monorail back to Vivo, walk to Harbourfront Centre for dinner at Pastamania. (: The whole group separated after dinner. Saoyi, Fiona, Sweet and me 80ed back to Sengkang while the rest mrt-ed over to Yishun for movie. Home at 11+pm.

Sunday went to work. Woke up late so i cabbed down to work and i was late by an hr. ;D Work till 330pm, slack awhile, cut cake session for Mike, Wendy and Saoyi. Played poker again then home. (: Void deck awhile before going back home at 7pm.

Today school was boring. Slept during D&T free period like a pig because i was hell tired. Could hardly keep my eyes open. There were many absentees today and many reported sick halfway through. (: Geo crt after school then home because SS crt was cancelled and we didn't know about it so we decided to skip 6pm SS crt as well.

Happy Birthday to Saoyi on 5th Aug!
Happy Birthday to Wendy on 5th Aug!

Happy Birthday to Wei Liang on 6th Aug!

And lastly, iloveeee My Sweeet!

Thurs after school 87ed home to CompassPt and bought lunch home. (: Bumped into Joanne and Shumei, chatted for awhile and i left first. Home from noon onwards.

Fri school was slacking day. English slack & read books, D&T lesson an hr half played games but my mood somehow change again halfway through and there starts my bad mood. After recess was Maths lesson, had Maths Paper 1 mock exam again and i didn't touch the paper at all luh. Did my other stuff and read books throughout that whole hr. (: Discuss with Waiyang smthing and i went off after school. Rushed home, bath and changed, lrt-ed to CompassPt and 159ed down to Amk to meet Kenny and Lingxiang. Pizza Hut for lunch and we waited for a long time for our food and soup! The guys were busy playing their Psp & Nitendo! >.<>.< Went to meet MeiQi at 77th street, Kenny bought his stuff and we stayed in the interchange to wait for Rickson. 159ed home togther with Kenny, Rickson, Hgtr & Lingxiang, Mei Qi went to funland. (: My sweet sent me home & i was so tired that i couldn't keep my eyes open when walking home. Wanted to sleep when i reach home but brother called me up to help him check smthing. Went to bath and help him to check smthing before going to sleep. ;]

Happy Birthday to Mike on 3rd Aug!
Happy Birthday to Benny on 4th Aug!

Urgh. Having English Prelim Oral ltr on! Dead tired right now. Blog again tonightt!

Today school was ok. Did Physics and Chemistry practical. (: 80ed to Kovan after school with Alena and Wenyan. Popular to check smthing then to get Wenyan's school shoes before taking the bus home. 82ed home. ;] I've to go do my English situational writing now! Saturday going out with Fiona and co. to celebrate Saoyi's and Mike's birthday! (: I'm hungry!

Updated the birthdays' dates just now. (: Mike's bday this fri, Benny's this Saturday, Saoyi's this Sunday and WeiLiang's this coming monday. ;D

That hgtr pig fell sick on Monday and he slept like a pig from Monday's evening all the way till yesterday late noon. (: Get well soon!

Went to CompassPt to print the class photos last night, printed 8 of it but there's a problem with the machine so only 2 were printed out. The lady helped me print the other 6 using their high quality machine and so 2 of the photo that were printed using the lousy machine was kinda blurry and the quality sucks while the remaining 6 was better compared to the 2. ;D Hell man. Today is gonna be a new day for the 5n2's without Miss Ezarin. >.<

I'm so hungry now. Urgh. Waiting for my carrot cake to come back homee! (:
HGTR ^^

Yesterday school was okay. H&F lesson was ok, played basketball. Just kept shooting but my shooting skill sucks alot. I think i'm gonna spend time learning how to shoot! Next lesson gonna be 2.4km run. Spent D&T lesson doing my SS notes while the rest do the present for Miss Ezarin. (: I wasn't in the mood so i just kept quiet throughout the free period. Lessons then home after school. Dad drive me over to Wenyan's place at 6+pm to save the class photos into my phone and we went back to fetch my brother up then down to Lorong Ah Soo to drop him off before going to Kovan to print the photos. Back to Lorong Ah Soo to have dinner at 9+pm before going back home. ;]

Today school was ok. Rush through the present duing recess time and finally complete it during Geo lesson. ;D Sat at the back of the class with the guys and finish up everything. Assembly was boring luh. Back to class and the whole class waited for Miss Ezarin and her bf. Speech by Roy representing the whole class followed by presentation of the present by Wai yang, presentation of presents from individuals and lastly, class photo taking. ;] Quite a few people teared, held back my tears again. Home after that by lrt. Chatted with Weiwen a little. (: Cooked instant noodles, my only food since morning ok. I'm trying very hard to save money luh. Gonna go over to CompassPt to print class photos again ltr on. The latest photos! ;D

I hate them for looking down on me. Yesterday was really a bad day, i wasn't in the mood for anything and my father just nagged at me. I couldn't be bothered with my brother and my dad of cos, so i didn't answer them or clarify anything at all. I teared while eating, not because i'm guilty that i didn't study but because they don't even give me that little bit of trust at all and i was feeling quite vexed. I dont see any need to clarify anything if they insist on smthing and my father kept saying that if it's my second brother, he would be able to trust him and so on but not me and he just kept shooting me that i'll fail my O's. The whole family is like all ganging up to go against me 1 person. 3 against 1 now. How great uh. (: My second brother left the home first because of this family, i guess next will be me. I'm definitely sure that i'll move out one day but i'll just have to wait till after i've graduated from the poly life and after i've got a stable job to support myself. ;D

I swear i'll prove them wrong, Muthufuckers.

Apologies to my lovelies in school today because of my sucky attittude towards everyone and every single thing today.

I decided to study hard for my Prelims from today onwards, gonna mug hard for the exams and prove my parents wrong for looking down on me. For the time being, please do not ask me out for shopping or slacking except for special occasions. (: And please tell me in advance!

We've agreed to have study sessions 3 days each week togther, both Wenyan and me and most probably Alena will be coming along with us if she's free. ;D Tues and Thurs will be in school for night class and Saturday will be at our usual place i guess. But i doubt i can make it this saturday if Fiona and co. wants to celebrate Saoyi's and Mike's birthday. Damn. My money getting lesser each day. I guess i've to start saving all over again because i'm gonna get smthing tmr and there goes every single cent i have.

Amk study session with Alena at Amk Park McDonald's on Friday night was alright. We didnt smoke but we breathed in those smelly air that almost killed us so we changed seats. (; Had dinner at 7+pm and left at 8+pm. 159ed to CompassPt, Popular to get my glue and accompanied her to the bus interchange before i leave to meet my dad. Home after dad had his dinner. ;]

Yesterday had Chemistry Mock Exam. I don't want to talk about it because i didn't study hard for it. I only studied one chapter for the mock paper so i doubt i'll do well for it. Accompanied Wenyan to wait for Nita and we went home. (: Cabbed down to HougangPt, chitchatted with Cynthia and she told me smthing so sweet ok! Ate and studied a little there before going over to void deck and continued studying while waiting for Wenyan. Meet Wenyan up, Kfc for lunch before going over to the void deck for study session till 5+pm. ;D Walked to ave8 to buy my dinner home and we had a good time laughing at someone, i'm not being mean ok! Walked to bus stop and we separated. ;D

Today went to work, took a cab down because i was running late. Work till 3pm and help out awhile more. (: 161ed home alone today and i've no idea why my backbone hurts so much since morning! Gonna get dad to massage my back for me ltr on. ;P Yayness! Tmr school and there's H&F and D&T lessons so we've got free periods! (: Gonna do Miss Ezarin's present tmr during D&T lesson and i dont look forward to Tues! It's her last day and her fiance is coming to school so we've got phototaking with her again! I think most of us will cry again on Tuesday.

Off to study Social Studies! ;D
HGTR is my love despite all the quarrels. ^^

Wed after school went down to Amk with Wenyan, hoping to get her cardigen but we just couldn't find the shop. Popular to get the board for Yunda's card and had dinner at S11 before going back. 136ed home and i reach home only at 8+pm. Hell tiring. (:

Thurs school was ok. Soccer is getting more and more boring for me. I prefer Mondays cos it's basketball. ;D Maths Mock Paper 2 after school for 2 and half hrs, bet i'm gonna flunk that paper again. Home after mock paper, bathed and changed. 161ed down to HougangPt. Meet him up, had dinner at Kfc then 161ed back to Sengkang. ;D Home at 9+pm. Thanks to him.

Today had Physics paper after school. It was a re-test but i didn't study for it. Meeting Alena at 5pm ltr on. (: Amk for study session today! I realise i've been going out every single day this whole week and not staying at home. My family relationship has been getting worst and i realise he's the only one who i can confide on when i've problems although he always scolds me. >.< Thanks to my lovelies as well!

I'm somehow annoyed by someone's behaviour. Just stop acting like it's her fault alright. Blame it on yourself because your character just turns people off so dont blame her for ignoring you and etc. Change your character before you try to act kelian and you dont deserve any sympathy at all!

School was ok except that we're having more and more mock exams. >.< 24hrs is really not enough for me. I dont know what's wrong with me this whole week and last week. Throwing tantrums, making a fuss out of everything, breaking down and crying suddenly and etc.

Monday had school until 530pm because i went back for Geog Crt at 430pm. (: Yesterday meet R up and i showed him attitude again. Cried again in the night. Poor him, he've to tolerate all my temper and attitude everytime we meet up. ): I'm really sorry. Home at 8+pm and luckily, the night was good before we went home. ;D

My schedule is like so packed this whole week again. Have to get Yunda's bday card and get everyone to sign the card by Saturday, probably going down to find them this coming Fri. (: Alrights! off to school!

Quarrelled with him badly yesterday, one of the worst quarrel ever. I don't want to talk much about it but his words are always so hurtful to me. Choices have consequences.

A great marriage is not when the perfect couple comes togther. It is when an imperfect couple leaves to enjoy their differences. (:

Monday had my O level's Chinese Listening, it was quite tough but still pretty alright for me though. (: After school cabbed down to HougangMall togther with Alena and Wenyan. Bought candies and to the libray to borrow books then home. ;D

Tues after school rush home after class photo taking togther with Miss Ezarin and Mr Rashidin, bathed and changed then meet Wenyan at Kovan. Bought drinks and Popular to get pens and notebooks before taking the train down to Parklane Mall. Had a hard time in the shop because everything was in a mess and we just had to rush everything. 65ed down to Tampines, had our late dinner at LongJohn then went to get snacks for the camp. (: 72ed down to her place to get the class list and i went home. Started making calls and it was tiring but my dad was nice to fetch me home anyway. Brother came along and we went back to Sengkang to fetch my brother's girlfriend before going over to Amk for supper but i skipped it. ;D Home at 11++pm.

Wed to Fri was motivational camp. It was awsome because of the trainers. Danny, Adam Khoo and Andrea. (: They really changed my life and woke me up from all the stupid things that i've done for the past 16years. Really appreciate them for everything on the past 3days and i salute them! Home at 10+ or 11+ for the past 3 days cos we're dismissed only at 9pm. And now, i really miss those 3 people esp Danny because he's so so so cool, his strawberry, his jokes, his vulgurities! And Adam Khoo because of his poses that make us laugh alot and his motivative words. They're just like one of us throughout that 3 days, the 5N's togther with them cried togther, laughed togther and cheered togther. Cheers to them and they'll just stay in my heart forever and the 5N's will definitely rmber them for life! The last day of the camp was closing ceremony at night, Danny was suppose to close but because of us, his friend took over the job. >.< The closing ceremony was really touching, esp KenT words to his parents and Lisa's one. I almost teared but i held back throughout. After the closing ceremony, 5n2 went to look for Miss Ezarin immediately. Everyone spoke to Miss Ezarin and hugged her. ;D She's another lady who inspire 5n2 and never gave up on us for the past 2 years. We're just gonna miss her and keep her in our hearts as well! (:

Today school for mock exams. Only sat for the Physics paper and skipped the English paper togther with Feng Wei, Darren Choo, Ah boon, Alena, Wenyan and Yue Seng. ;D 5N2 united. Went to Rivervale Plaza to withdraw money then to Kfc for brkfast/lunch at 10+am. 80ed down to Bugis with Wenyan while the rest went home. Wenyan and me bought a top each then walk around there. (: Started raining but we still walk to Parklane Mall. Waited for 2hrs for the class tees to be ready, collected the tops and train-ed down to Serangoon. 82ed home. ;D


your words sometimes hurt me deeply, so hard that i feel so useless and have the thought of giving up.

This week gonna be hell busy. >.<>.<>.< I think i'll probably die soon.

Tuesday school again then to Kovan with Wenyan and Alena for snow ice but only Wenyan ate snow ice because Alena and me changed our mind to have a proper meal instead although i was quite full. Kinda regret because i was full but i still ordered the food. ): Whatever. Home after that because i needed to do smthing. Hah. Out to meet R at 6+pm and back home at 10+pm.

Wedneday school but it rained when i was preparing luh. Wanted to take a cab to school simply because my house doesnt have any umbrellas but the rain stopped! (: So took lrt instead and reach school just on time. Home after school.

Thurs school, had Maths Graph test after school. I bet i'm gonna flunk that paper as well but who cares. Quite a bad day for me anyway. Ladies know why uh. ;D He came down to Sengkang to find me after my school. Met him on the bus when we were alighting. Slacked at void deck before going home at 5+pm. Time just flies whenever i'm with him.

Fri school. Home after school, played Time Crisis II on my brother's Ps2. ;D Bathed and prepared den bused down to his place and waited for him downstairs. Went separate ways at 8+pm. I walk alone to RivervaleMall and it was kinda scary for me but was quite a bad day for me anyway so i needed some quiet time. (: I just love walking so much because it makes me feel comfortable. Friday the 13th just sucks.

Today woke up early in the morning, helped my dad dye his hair. ;D Watch movie on crunchyroll till 2 den prepared. Out to meet Wenyan, 80ed down to Bugis. Went to get her shorts then 80ed back. She went to her grandma's place and i alighted at Sengkang. (: Walked back home really slowly. The cramps are killing me. Damn. Did my Maths homework just now and i've alot more to go. (: Gonna complete it by tonight cos i've work tmr!

Lots of unhappiness between me and him these few days, but there's still happy moments as well. Thanks alot for giving in to me and tolerating my sucky attitude. I just want to tell you that i'm sorry for spoiling your mood. ):

Friday school. Rivervale Plaza after school togther with Wenyan and Alena for lunch then back to school for Chinese Oral with Wenyan. It was tough but who cares, it's over. (: Head home, bath and prepared. Meet R and trained down to PlazaSing for movie, Transformers. ;D Nice! Home at 11+pm after having supper at RivervaleMall Mcdonald's.

Sat school for Chem & English Mock Papers. Prepared to fail these two papers because i didn't study for Chem and i didn't have the mood to do my English paper. Home after school then meet Wenyan at Serangoon at around 2pm. (: 105ed to Singapore Poly and we just walk aimlessly around the school. Mrt-ed down to Bugis, search for Kenny's present and got him a top. Window shopped awhile then 80ed back to Kovan at 5+pm. Popular to get Wenyan's stationaries and we went to see smthing before going back. I left first at 7+pm. Mrt-ed then lrt-ed home, showered and changed before heading out again. ;D Waited for R then we slack at void deck again before going to Amk at 10+pm to meet the rest. Waited for that birthday boy and we had super late dinner/supper at Kfc. Cab home at 12++am.

Sunday went back to Msia in the morning with my dad and had lots of durians over there despite the heat. The sun was killing me when we went out to have lunch togther with my uncles and cousins but i love the sun! (; Slept in the afternoon then we went back to Singapore. Reach Sg at 6+pm, had dinner at Tpy before going home.

Today back to school. Lessons sucks on Monday lah. But we get to play Bball during H&F lesson every week! ;DD But i didn't get to play it today because i didnt take my Napfa test last term. >.< Meet R again after school. Home at 5+pm. ;D

Dad fell sick alr and i may have to go school alone tmr. ): How sucky.
Life rules with so many loved ones around especially my sisters and R. (:

I'm gonna have lots of Mock Exams coming up every Saturday and Motivation camp from 18th to 20th 8am to 9pm for that 3days. And i won't be able to eat every day during recess because i skip CCA ever since sec4 and i've to make up for it. ): The school is just trying to stress all of us out.

Friday was outing day togther with Wenyan. Amk followed by Bugis then to Far East and back to Serangoon then lastly, home.



Saturday was CIP day followed by lunch togther with 5N2 then walk around CompassPt togther with Wenyan and Alena then home. (:

Sunday was working day, Pea Program so i had to help Wendy to work. Work till 430pm and wasn't such a good day anyway. Cynthia's bday so Laytin bought a cake and we had cake cutting session after we punch out at the lobby togther with a few people including our birthday girl! ;D Went home at around 5+pm. CompassPt to buy dinner home and then walk home.

Monday Youth Day. Went out with Wenyan and Alena to Pasir Ris Downtown to play arcade. (: Played for a few hrs then we went to Mcdonald's for drinks. I left at 5++pm and took bus down to his place nearby. Went to Hougang Green for dinner then went back Sengkang. Smthing happen after that, not gonna talk about it but it made me sad and i cried alittle. >.< But ltr on things were ok alr. ;D Slacked at void deck till 10+pm then home.

Tuesday school day. After school went out with Wenyan and Alena to CompassPt for Burger King. (: Home after that then went out to Amk with them again in the evening for study session. But turn out to be a slacking session instead for me. ;x Didnt have the mood to touch my books that night. Home at 10+pm.

Wed school then home after school because school ends late on Wed.

Today school then CompassPt with Wenyan to get her brother's bday present. Bought candies and seaweed and milk tea! (: Home after that.

Tmr and saturday gonna be a long day for me! And i'm having my O'levels Chinese Oral tmr!
Kenny's bday this coming Saturday! One after another..

Days getting more and more stress and busier each day ever since school started.

Met him on Monday but luckily he accompanied me till 8+pm. (: Din get to meet him after that day because of school and the piles of homework i've to complete each day. I feel so glad that i'm in 5n2 sometimes with so many nice classmates. ;D

Suppose to be on leave for work since last week but Wendy need my help this weekend so i've to help her out this Sunday because of the Pea program. Apologies to her. I can't help her out this Sat because i've CIP! Urgh.

Had our height and weight taken today, kinda sad to see i've grown fatter and taller again. >.<

Cynthia's bday this coming Sunday! And gonna go out with Wenyan tmr! (:

有些緣份是註定要失去的。愛一個人不一定要擁有﹐但擁有一個人就一定要好好去愛他。

Past few days work and school again. My only off day yesterday, finally. School in the morning, heard a sad news from Miss Ezarin early in the morning. Disappointing. I guess 5n2 is starting to learn how to cherish our teachers more especially Miss Ezarin and Miss Tan.

Home after school, bathed and prepared. Down to East Coast, smthing happen after alighting from the bus stop and i almost wanted to take a bus back to Sengkang. >.< I dont know what is happening to me, even a smallest thing can make me angry and upset and someone has to give in to me every 5mins because i'm petty. I'm sorry lah. Went to find the two couples and i feel weird and abit bored. Only meal for the day at BurgerKing, almost died of hunger before that. 43ed back to HougangPt at 7+pm, suppose to alight at Sengkang but i need to go somewhere so HougangPt. (: Check schedule, he sent me home. Sat at void deck till 9++pm then home!

Rah. School's starting next week for the rest and him and this Sunday is my last day before my months of leave. (: Time to motivate myself!

Past few days either work or spend the day with him. (: I realise i didnt meet up with my schoolmates during this holiday but school's starting! >.< School suppose to start at 8am today but now i'm still at home because SS lesson is always so boring. Still considering whether to go to school for Chem lesson but i guess i'll be going or else people will tell me might as well dont go school today. ;D But i'm a good girl lah! Got work ltr on in the evening again but it's ok cos tonight's manager is nice. (:

I will hold on to the promises forever. ;D

Wanted to stay at home the whole day on Monday but went out in the late noon for lunch with him. (: I feel bad for pulling him out lah but it's ok. LJS at HougangMall den 161ed to CompassPt because i didn't feel like going back early. Walk around awhile den went to void deck. Home at around 8. ;D

Yesterday morning went to CompassPt, waited for the rest at Kfc. ;D Saw Kenny and Rick so i joined them but they lied to us! >.< Went to McDonald's, waited for the couple. Lingxiang came to find us after awhile and the couple came after awhhile. (: Mrt-ed to Plaza Sing, bought movie tickets Men In White, arcade then to Daiso and went for the movie. Stupid show but it was funny and the company was great. ;] Mrt-ed back to Hougang, back to workplace. Meeting and off to Marina South. (: Left the place at 8+pm, alighted at Dhoby. Walk to Paradiz Centre but wasted trip. Walk back to mrt station at 9+pm, Iris went to find Wendy and co. and the rest of us went back. ;D

Working at 12pm ltr on and i havent prepare. Gonna cab down ltr on i guess. (:

HGTR -

Work both on Sat and Sunday but went home alone yesterday because someone didn't talk to me for the whole day.

Suppose to be working today but got Huizhen to take over me cos i've to complete my homework by today or else i'm gonna be stuck at home tmr as well. Tmr brkfast in the morning, movie in the afternoon and steamboat at night. (: I dont want to grow fat anymore!

I just have to wait ...

I'M DAMN JEALOUS AGAIN! >.<
why must he make me jealous! ):


HGTR

Urgh. I'm so bored now! Gonna go get breakfast from McDonald's later on. (: Slept very early last night, had my dinner then went to sleep at around 8pm. Woke up at 4+am, saw 2 sms-es from him, 1 from Alena and 1 from my brother. Set alarm clock then went back to sleep, woke up again at 7am and woke my brother up. ;D Poor thing luh. I'm like an alarm clock so next time if anyone of you need morning calls just tell me huh. I'll just charge you accordingly, depends on what time you need me to wake you up. Brother might be paying 1/2 of the amount for my mp3, he's still considering so please pray for me again. (:

I love reading his sms-es because it's always so sweet lah. Maybe except when he's angry, i just hate to talk to him when he's angry because he'll ignore me for at least 5 mins or more than that. >.<

Alot people are asking me whether we're togther or not but i've said alot alot of times that we're NOT togther! >.< So stop asking me this question again. No point asking it over and over again because we are NOT togther but i can only say that i love him! (:

Monday work 10am to 2+pm. Punched out early because no sales and i wasn't in the mood to work. Too tired anyway so Mike allow me to punch out. (: Stayed in store with him till 6pm den he sent me home.

Tueday work 9am to 3+pm. Punched out early again because too many crews and no sales. (: Stayed in store, talk to Wendy, Mike and Agnes then meet him for lunch. He send me home and we went out again. Mood turn bad on the way back from Bishan, almost cried but soon ok alr. ;D Thanks alot to him again for accompanying me the whole night even though he's tired lah. I can see that he's tired. (:

Today back to school, down to Orchard for Literature seminar and it was boring. Almost fall asleep in there, talk and talk with the girls. Didnt join the class back to school, Alena and me walked off and we walk to Lucky Plaza for breakfast at McDonald's. (: Wisma for window shopping den back to Far East bus stop, 132ed down to Amk. Window shopping again, lunch at Pizza Hut. 159ed back to CompassPt. She left first so i went window shopping alone. Saw Saoyi working there, Fiona and her mother shopping. ;D Walked home after that!

Won't be going for Literature Seminar tmr i guess. (: Waste of time and they didn't take our attendance at all lah. Busy working this whole week!

Back from work! (: Today is like any other working day but mood was quite bad today. Kept everything to myself anyway, Agnes said i'm like a crazy girl in the morning. That's bad ok! I'm gonna learn to keep quiet during work but i think i'll feel uneasy if i don't talk.

Disturb Pech ChinYee during work today. I swear i'm not going to promote, turned them down lots of times alr and i was blamed today. Someone said i taught the wrong counter steps to John and i was pissed off. I only taught him how to get the drinks and introduce to him the counter front. I didn't even teach him how to assemble the items all that and Someone just say i taught him ALL the wrong stuff. Fuck ok. I swear i'm not going to teach anyone else in the future.

Talking about this makes my heart boil. I think i will die from working sooner or later.

Was too tired to blog for the past few days. Work everyday since Thursday. (:

Thurs work was ok. After work stayed in store talk then went to Kovan to get Bday party stuffs. Thank Rick for accompanying me lar. Had lunch den went back to store, played poker again den went home around 6pm. (:

Friday school in the morning, work from 12pm to 7pm den stayed in store chat togther with Mike and Wendy till around 9pm den went home. ;D

Today work again. Hell bloody tired alr and i still got work tmr, Monday and Tuesday. Off day on Wed and Thurs but there's Literature Seminar then work again on Friday Sat and Sunday. For the sake of my mp3, i'm gonna sacrifice my sleep but don't blame me when i give you a black face because i'm hell tired. (: Switched off my phone alr. Not gonna switch on until i go to bed. Off to eat maggi again!

Love him plenty!
I wish we can stay like this for as long if possible..
I promise i'll never let go until you let go first..

Back at home. Sorted out my feelings alittle. Didn't want to think about it anymore although i still have mixed thoughts about his feelings. (: As usual, i'll never be able to guess what he is thinking.

Went out to meet LingXiang and Derrick twintwin. ;D Played poker and slack, went to Lingxiang's house awhile then back to HougangPt. Razid's last day today! I lost daidee by 3rounds to LingXiang and Derrick lost 1 or 2rounds to me but because he's not working tmr, i'm gonna be the one who has to do the forfeits tmr! >.< Sway luck i have.

Thanks to Joy who consoled me today again. Cried really badly in the afternoon but i felt better after that cry. (: Everyone is telling me to trust him after they hear the whole thing. Am i really the one making wild guesses and not trusting him? Urgh! Yay. Work tmr means i get to see him. (: But i've to do forfeits.

That feeling is back once again, the fear. I really don't know what to do anymore. Forget it. I know i have to face this alone everytime. How many times do i have to tear because of this issue? Last time it was her, now it's another her.

I guess i have to sort out my feelings again.
Just feeling alittle tired thats all. (:

>.< I'm so unhappy today because he's neglecting me for his game AGAIN! Work today was hell tiring.

I don't feel like going to school tmr because there's two hrs of Maths and 1hr is enough to kill me alr. ): Probably home after school tmr, i bet he's gonna stay at home and play his game again. and i'm working on Thurs and Friday this week but not Sat and Sunday because wendy didn't know that i can work! Urgh! Shall tell them to put me on schedule this wkend!

i don't know what happen to me nowadays, i feel so tired and always in a bad mood. I can never get enough rest! >.<

i still love that guy although he's always playing his game and ignoring me. Stop neglecting and ignoring me you this guy! >.< It makes me sad.

Didn't have time to update blog. Either busy working or watching drama serial for the past few days. (:

Sat work from 1pm to to 7pm was okay. Had my first and only meal at 7pm after i punch out, almost die of hunger. Home after work alone, drama serial after bathing. (:

Sunday work 12pm to 6pm. Only meal for the day at 3+pm. Kept having one meal each day for the past few day but it's okay for me. ;D Home after work alone again den went out with dad at 7+pm.

Today Chinese O'level exam was quite tough. Not sure whether i can do well for today's paper but i'll definitely retake if i get a B. I must do well for my Chinese paper! >.< Headache during work and i was unlucky enough today because my E-Dictionary couldn't be switched on! Was so tired while doing the paper too. Home after the paper, finish watching Smiling Pasta alr! It's damn nice ok! Introduced by Wenyan. ;D Out to Rivervale Mall for dinner just now then home.

Tmr gonna be a long day at work, 8am to 4pm. >.< Gonna be so tired. I feel like screaming when the money i saved up for the past few weeks was being took away by someone from my family. Now i've to start saving ALL OVER again and i'm feeling very very pissed off. I'm going save up every single cent that i have from today onwards, who cares if i eat only one meal each day.

Roars.

I'm gonna work like hell during this holiday but i'll definitely find time so that i can meet him. (:

Reported late for school today because i woke up late. I didn't set my alarm clock last night and i can wake up at 7am ok. (: Lessons before recess but the teachers just talk to us, Miss Tan gonna leave us and go on leave for the whole June holiday and probably extend her leave because she's sick. Can't imagine having another Geography teacher for the next month. This sucks like hell. Area cleaning after recess then got back our report books. Got 6th position in class despite having such lousy results. Another sucky thing. But Kenneth smuggled into the school today and he joined our class after recess! ;D

I wanna eat that so much and the mr nice guy agreed to accompany me for lunch ltr on! ;D

School on 29th, 30th May, 1st, 18th, 19th, 20th, 21st and 22nd June and Literature seminars on 6th and 7th. Shall go revise on my Chinese now. (: My saved messages inbox is full luh! I can't save anymore sms but i can't bear to delete away the old ones. >.<

Out to meet him just now. The sisters came down as well but left after awhile, his sister and lingxiang came down as well. (: Dinner at kfc den home.

I think i'm getting more and more happy with him around. ;D

I went to school today. (: Hang around with Lisa and group, Sharon and Angela and the guys! Quite a fun day because everyone talk alot today. Suntec for Elective module today, toured around the convention centre and we get to see the VIP meeting room and the big big big threatre room. Back to school, our group won the overall and we get to have Fish &co. dinner next week! ;D

Home after school and now i'm home. Not going for the class bbq anymore, don't ask me why but there's a reason to it. Only he and myself knows lah. (: Tmr last day of school, actually not the last day. Sec 4E and 5N has to go back to school for extra lessons on the first week and last week of school and we've got Literature talks on the first or second week of June. ;D

I'm afraid that i'll become too dependent on him one day.

Elective module for the past few days were ok. Chinese Intensive tests after the modules sucks though. Went on Monday but skip the test both yesterday and today. Whole of 5N2 skip the test today, that shows how united our class is. ;D

Rivervale Plaza with Wenyan and Alena after school today to check out the prices. I somehow feel quite weird, no idea why. It seems like only two people are organising this whole thing and i feel quite bad about it but there's nothing for me to do alr cos they've alr done almost everything. Having second thoughts about smthing, will see how it goes. (:

I haven't start revising for my Chinese O'level yet. Got back the overall results of everything alr and it sucks like hell ok. >.<>.<

Wei Wen just ask me along for his birthday celebration on 1st June, most of the N2 guys are going luh. Shall see how. ;D

Things are fine now alr. (: Thanks alot to Wenyan for that tag!

Met him for lunch again today. Lunch at Kovan den home. ;D Yesterday night's sms session with him made me feel happy, really. But he must make me unhappy once everyday. >.<

Roars.

Just came back not long and my brother spoke to me about him again. At this time when i'm feeling so down and jealous. Cried again while talking to brother. >.< Brother told me to give in to him more and brother tell me to say out how i feel if i'm really not happy. But how many times did i tell him about how i feel alr. Sometimes he care sometimes he don't. Guys always help each other! ): And now brother is helping him because he say at least he can make me laugh and smile again when i'm feeling downn when nobody else can do so so my brother likes him. Wth right!

He's now enjoying outside with another girl and i'm feeling so jealous. He broke his promise. And he say he want to accompany me for lunch tmr but now say he doesn't want to. Roar. This sucks man. I need to murder someone.

Stayed at home the whole night staring at the computer screen. (: I wanna get a glass bottle to put smthing in. Shall go get it after i save up, most probably end of this week!

School tmr again. Getting back all the results tmr but i'm prepared for the worst. ;D Not gonna care about my results anyway. O's Chinese is just next Monday and i'm still slacking like nobody's business and dreaming all day long. Gonna head home straight after school for the next few days again. (:

I must must must get that necklace no matter what!


I wanna meet him and see him so much.

Dad came home in the evening and we went over to Tpy to fetch my brother up and was forced to do the usual thing. Mood was hell bad because i was very tired lah. Had dinner at Tpy and i felt kinda sick again but mood turn slightly better after receiving his sms. (: Head home at 8+pm and was sms-ing with him throughout from 7+ onwards. Tv for awhile, was hell tired so i slept at 9+pm. Woke up at 1+am because of stomach cramp, sms-ed again with him till 2+am and i stoned for like an hr plus before i finally fall asleep at 3+am. The pain is killing me! >.< Woke up at 6+am, prepared for work den dad drive me over to work because of the stupid cramp.

Work from 830, extended till 230pm. Was feeling damn tired during work and togther with the cramp, i felt like dying. Ate a mouthful of muffin in the morning before work and didnt have anything after that. >.< I need food now but gotta save money. Home at 3+pm. ;D

Smthing cheered me up last night! (: Shall save hard for alot of things. Movie with him early next month after pay out! ;D

English Oral was ok, i was the first and i think i kinda screwed it up because i don't know what happen to my voice. Sms-ed with him on the way back.

Work cancelled because labour high, had lunch with him and the two sisters again at HougangPt. Or should i say, they went there to see me eat this time round. (: But i'm still grateful lah. The atmosphere was weird today, doesn't seems right. Brother called so i went to make bank transfer again and now my bank left $3+ only. Wtf right, my dream of getting a mp3 within 2mths gonna delay again. Shall stop eating from today onwards and save all the money that i have. ;D The two sisters left and then all separated. Kenny and him went home and i took bus home. Mood wasn't right again.

How i wish 18th May would last forever, how i wish that feeling will last forever but i guess that feeling will stay in my life. (: Do i still have a chance?

Everytime i have this thought inside my mind, i always feel like crying. >.<

Yesterday went to school in the morning for the Elective Module course and those in the Tourism &Hospitality course had a chance to get outta the school to this private school at Shenton Way. My eyes keep wanting to close throughout the session although it was quite fun. Ended at 12pm so we made our way back to school, left school at around 1230pm. Walk to Rivervale Plaza to transfer money, home after that. (: Wanted to sleep but the computer kept shutting down on me so i had to keep restarting the computer and wasted alot of time. Help my brother do some things, bath and prepared. Cabbed down to HougangPt, wasn't feeling very well so decided not to take bus. Didnt have any food, sat there looking around and them eat. Ntuc for candies after that den send the two girls home with him. ;D Not gonna elaborate what happen after that.

Took a bus down to Amk after everything, he went to find his friends and i train-ed down to Tpy to meet my dad. Shouldn't have gone down to look for him! He brought me to blocks as usual and started distributing the flyers. My stomach couldn't take it after 5blocks, gastric pain again so we stop. (; Went to have dinner while waiting for my brother, brother came to find us after i finish eating. And screw that uncle sitting beside us. Left for home after that. ;D Hell tired yesterday so i slept early!

School ltr on for English Oral. Feeling so tired still although i slept early last night. ): Off to prepare for school! ;D

i'll cherish the times we spent togther because i won't know if you'll walk away with her tmr.

Today went out at 11+am, went over to someone's place. Slacked and chit-chatted alot. 72ed back to Hougang, 82ed down to Serangoon and it rain heavily. Waited for his call, 101ed over to Hougang Interchange and meet him. (: Kovan for lunch, walk around and he accompanied me back to CompassPt. I think i made him angry again lah. He left and i wasn't feeling so well after that so sat down at one of the void deck and rested. Rested for like 1/2hr and walked back home slowly. Feeling much better alr 'cept that my head keeps spinning. ;D

Rah.
lovehimplenty;

Having a super bad mood now, partly because of the virus came back to find me again and now i'm having slight fever again. Guess it's time to stop having fast food.

Teared again just now, i feel so so tired that i alr dont know what to do anymore. Don't leave me alone tearing please..

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Things are better alr but my head still hurts now. Not feeling that well, gonna sleep early tonight because there's school tmr. ): He agreed to accompany me to collect my phone tmr! ;DD And my brother knows about him alr lah, just pray that he won't be so big mouth and tell my parents about it.

I always like it when the clock strikes between 1050pm to 11pm. (:

Was quite pissed last night luh. Jealousy kills but after that, i'm ok alr. ;D Stayed at home for the whole day yesterday, didn't have anything for the whole day xcept drinks. Slept at 11+pm last night! (: No matter how sad or angry i am, there's one message that will always cheer me up before i sleep and i always have to re-read the message to cheer myself up in the day when he ignores me.

Going out ltr to Tampines over to someone's place to play! (: At least he's willing to accompany me in the late morning before meeting him*. Might be meeting him* in the noon if he's not going to fly me aeroplane again.

I'm fine now people! (:

Today is not a good day at all lah.

Everything wasn't right since morning. And now i let some thoughts run through my mind again, making my tears drop. Having slight fever now and i'm stuck at home because i don't have the energy to walk out. Gonna be strong, i hate to be sick because everyone will be forcing me to eat medicine. Sucks. I wanna go on a diet! ):

I realise i've been throwing tantrums lately. Maybe i should just keep quiet bout my feelings and worries again. Never ending worries running through in my mind, causing me to tear. And i'm super hungry now, havent eaten anything since morning luh. I wanna cry out again because i'm really really tired of facing the same situation all the time. ): kill me please.

Looks like i really have to cut down on the amount of money i spend on my food and other stuff. July and August hell lotsa people birthday and thats the time when i'm not wrking alr. I shall be prepared for that 2mths of spending money. ;D


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Slept for a few hrs just now but my head still hurts and i feel as if i'm in the outer space. He's not replying me again luh but no choice, he's a busy guy. >.< My head hurts alot now and i'm waiting for his message! ): I'm hungry but lack of appetite. Probably going out to have dinner with family ltr on but i'm lazy!

Rah!

Exams finally ended! ;D Today Geography and Combine Science Paper 1 are ok but there a few questions i've no idea how to do for Science paper. But who cares, i've alr given up on my mid year exams. (:

4N and 5N are the only group of students who have to report to school on Marking day. Can't help cursing the school for taking away our marking day on Friday and worst still, our Sat. >.<

Stayed at home the whole morning yesterday and went out in the noon to meet him for lunch, LJS. Home at 4+pm. Studied in the night den computer for 1/2hr before sleeping. (: I hate bangalas! How i wish i can kill all of them.

Shall go sleep. Wasn't feeling very well today when taking Combine science paper. Pray that i won't fall sick ok. Shall try to stop taking heaty food but i know i won't do that lah. ;D

Dad came back to fetch me and my brother, off to Tpy. Helped distribute the flyers at mailbox and my hand got cut a few times. Now you know why i hate being a Property Agent! >.< 1/2hr of distributing, dad and brother went to have lunch while i sat there drinking my favourite ice milo! (: Send brother to office and we went off to Orchard. Dad went to find his friends for awhile so i went to CentrePoint and waited for him there alone and i didn't have any cash with me at all ok. So i went walking rounds and rounds in the shopping centre, luckily he was on phone with me. ;D Hang up with him, went to find my dad and we walk down to Wisma. Waited for like 40mins and thats when my phone left me! ): I hate this K700i i'm holding onto now, feel so pissed off whenever i sms because there's smthing wrong with the keypad and i've to use 80% of my strength each time i sms. And i'll only get back my phone on Friday after 5pm. Rah.

Dad ate again after that and we went to Chinatown. Walk for like 10mins and we went to buy porridge home. (: Back to Tpy to fetch my brother den home! Did my Chem TYS and fell asleep while doing. I'm just tired! A call from Bernard woke me up at 1+am, didn't answer the call. Saw his sms-es and i went back to sleep. Mum's alarm clock woke me up at 5+am, replied his sms-es and went back to sleep. 6++am wake up again, sms-ed with him awhile and back to sleep again. ;x Now you know why i'm always so tired in the night, waking up every few hrs or mins throughout the night makes me more tired. But it's ok if it's him or my sisters lah. ;D

Love Wed and Friday! (: Shit the school ok. Friday is suppose to be a marking day but the elective modules is starting this Friday. Most likely school will end ltr than usual because each session last 5 freaking hrs. Urgh.

Off to have instant noodles!

I'm craving for LJS, Yoshi and Kfc. >.< But for the sake of my mp4, i can't have all these!

Told my dad to buy back lots of cup noodles for me and he thought i must be crazy or smthing. (: Don't look down on cup noodles ok, it's the best food for me when i'm trying to save money. Either someone else pay for me or cup noodles for me so my poor dad has to pay for every single thing when i'm out with him. ;D

Completed my Physics TYS Paper 1 alr. Everything ok! Shall do my Chemistry TYS Paper 1 ltr on. (: Shall stay at home for the next few days. I must must get the mp4 asap! Sending my phone for repair ltr on so will be using my brother's previous phone for the time being. My eldest brother borrowed his girlfriend one of my previous phone. But it's ok! (: Just a few days without my phone!

Off to have my yummy cup noodles! ;D

I know that you're the one for me.

Today work was ok. (: Before work went outside to talk with ChinYee that sucker. But Jason told me to ignore whatever he said, why make myself angry because of him so i cooled down.

Worked from 830 to 2pm, Boss travel again. SaoYi was sway enough to serve her, i almost get to serve her but luckily there's one customer who saved me! (: After work walked to bus stop but halfway there, i walked back to HougangPt to find Kenny and Rick. Sat at Kopitiam for around 10mins and went off. Took bus home after that.

He said smthing that made me upset just now again but i told him to change his sentence but i feel uneasy still. Promised him smthing as well luh. ;D

Today is Mothers' Day! (: Doesn't make any difference for my family luh. Might be going for dinner togther tonight, hopefully as a family with everyone present and no quarrels please.

This week gonna slack alot because i only hav to go back to school on Wednesday, just one day. (: Gonna save up this two months for my Mp4 because my mp3 is spoilt and alot of birthday are coming up!

Yesterday Chemistry paper was not so tough but blame my bad memory. I couldn't remember alot of things that i actually studied throughout the paper and i was feeling so pissed off. Forget it. Rahh. Home after Chemistry paper, bathed and prepared. Rivervale Mall to get smthing then bus-ed down to HougangPt. Look for Agnes and chatted with them. Home at 4+ going to 5 and went out with family. (:

Today work started at 8 and punched out at 2pm without any food for the whole morning. Pain in the stomach pop out of nowhere at 12+pm, had my lunch after punching out but didn't eat alot because of the pain. MDS meeting for short while, hang around in store chatting and gossiping with Agnes and Fiona. Off to Kovan with Fiona to get flowers for her mum. By the time, i was alr half dead because i'm so tired! 119ed to Rivervale Plaza bus stop while she went over to her boyfriend's place. Changed to 136 because of the heavy rain and home! Slept all the way from just now till now, dad woke up me to ask me if i want to have dinner. Sucker right? Gonna go back sleep ltr on! Work tmr again.

I'm losing all the confidence as days pass by, i realise that holding onto smthing that isn't yours is so tiring. I only yearn to have more of your love, boy. When will you be ready?

Exams are killing me. Feel so tired after sitting for so many papers and i still got 3 more papers to go. Screwed up my Geography Paper II, Maths paper II and Physics Paper II today. I think i can just go to hell alr. Home straight after school nowadays because of the exams, was feeling tired as well. Kept having afternoon naps that lasted from early noon to late evening. ;D

Days getting better each day, at least i've someone to look for when i'm feeling troubled. Was being called down for MDS meeting on Saturday by Agnes and he promise to go with me. Might be wrking but i'm not sure too. Shall go study for my Chemistry paper II alr! Written papers end tmr then MCQ papers next wk! (: Gonna depend hard on all my paper I or else i'm gonna be in dead meat because i scored badly for my CA as well.

Thanks to Wenyan who borrowed me the mathematical set during Maths exam that day! ;D If not for her, my 5 marks would be gone just like that ok! Shall pray for her to see mph to reward her! (:

Saturday night mug until 3+am. Slept at around 4 then woke up at 6 for work. Prepared and dad offered to drive me there since he's going out so i reach there at 8+am and i was so bored luh. Studied a little then work from 9 to 1pm but i was known as the extra crew because Rickson came back to work and i wasn't replacing anyone. Appetite was bad, bought cup noodles from Ntuc after work but only had a mouthful of it and i threw it away. Continued studying after work and i was so tired ok. Chatted with Derrick & Lingxiang, wanted to go off at 3 but the guys decided to play poker so stayed for another 2hrs playing poker cards but i'm hell happy ok! ;D Went back with Derrick & Lingxiang at 4++pm and they send me to the bus stop. Thanks alot guys! Home, studied a little then off to sleep till 10pm. Studied for another 1/2hr and went back to sleep again.

Yesterday SS and Maths paper was tough. Screw SS paper, Mr Devan told us that Hongkong housing won't be tested but he gave us SBQ on Hongkong housing. Maths paper was tough for me because i didn't study for it at all. Maybe a few formulaes that's all. (: Plaza to buy lunch home with Alena after the paper, saw 5n2 guys there. Home after that. Happiest day yesterday luh!

Today Literature paper was ok but i was sleepy throughout the paper and the exam was taken in the hall. Slept for like 10mins after finish writing. Today isn't a happy day for me. Urgh! Gamed awhile just now. ;D Yayness!

Gonna chiong my game after the exams next wk for sure. (: Or probably starting from this wkend after the major papers are over!

the like has become love for me alr-

Studied for hours last night, computer for 2hrs plus. Slept at 3+am. Calls woke me up today at 7+am, agreed to help out to work so went to bath then prepared. Dad drove me down to workplace. Work from 930am to 130pm then rush home. (: Thank god the bus came as soon as i reach the bus stop. Bathed and prepared then 82ed down to Serangoon. Was late again luh. Meet Wenyan and we went to search for her M&M chocolates but couldnt find the one she wants so we 109ed down to HougangPt. Studied for like 1hr plus then walk around. Walk down to YioChuKang Pri bus stop and we went separate ways. ;D Not gonna elaborate what i did after that but studied outside for another 1hr plus alone before heading home.

Working tmr again despite having two papers on Monday. Promise to help them because Rickson is sick. (: I'll definitely fail my Maths for sure. Gonna mug and burn midnight oil today, gonna finish up all the chapters for SS by today!

Mug hard everyoneee!

Yesterday morning 82ed down to Serangoon and met Wenyan. (: Brkfast at McDonald's, Shop&Save to get choco and 82ed back to school. Phones were kept by the teachers because of Science Practical Exam and i think i screwed up everything because everyone had different answers.

Was feeling so bad at night that the tears fell again luh. Didnt have any food after the brkfast, stayed at home at night. Told him what happen at night when he finally replied me. (:

Today English Paper was quite tough but i've no comments. CompassPt after school, return library books then RivervaleMall to buy lunch home and i'm going to study after this. Gonna mug hard!

don't ask me how long, it's all up to you to decide.

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Yesterday was a good day except that my leg hurts alot alot alot because of the Napfa test on Monday.

Woke up at 6 and it was raining. Walked in the rain to the bus stop, not very far anyway. ;D 88ed down to bus stop, walked over to workplace. Chatted with Agnes before work, punched in. Work from 8-1 because i was extended for an hr, stomach pain and it was the sign that i'm very hungry so i couldn't smile luh. Punched out at 1pm, talk talk talk alot with the same people and 3 young girls, one of them likes someone from our store! (: Waited for Cynthia, accompanied her to Ntuc then walked her back home. Wanted to go home but walked back to HougangPt, chatted with Kenny and Wendy then Rick came. Studied a little, played poker but was caught by Laytin so we went to Cynthia's block downstairs and continued playing. Was feeling hell tired and somethings i heard after work made me upset. Urgh. Went home at 4++pm. Studied my Chinese after bathing, computer for awhile then slept at 8++pm going to 9. I'm tired ok! ;D

Was raining again when i woke up. Rah. I hate rainy days ok. First mid year paper was Chinese and it was ok luh. Just gonna pray that i'll score well! Gonna go study for my next Monday's paper Social studies alr. (: Tmr practical exam luhhh! Hope the easy ones come. Hah.

He makes me angry, he makes me sad, he makes me tear, he makes me happy..
SIGH.