Anyway, had a really bad weekend.

Friday was good. Went to Marina Square with dearby, Erwin, Ah Tank and AhTank's gf after school. Had dinner, sat awhile then back home because we reached there only near to 9pm i think. (:

Saturday was the ultimate bad day. Fell asleep just half hour before the time dearby is supposed to come over and he got angry. ): Woke up at 7+am, went over to his house at around 8+am. He end up decided not to go Sentosa cause he was too tired. Smthing happened and i cried like shit because of it. Patched things up, had maggi for lunch and back to sleep till 6+pm. Received another phone call that made me cried like shit again. 2nd terrible cry of the day. Thank god dearby was there. Wasn't in the mood at all so dearby brought me out. He wanted to bring me go Icezkimo for dessert but it was crowded so we went to Bishan's RK house for drinks and tomyam soup then he send me home. (: Slept early that night due to some problems.

Sunday went to work full shift, bought dinner at Amk before going home after work. Reached home only at like 1130pm. Dearby was kinda angry because i did something to myself. ): Can only say sorry but i cant help it.

Today back to school, late for school again. Stayed back to do project for awhile, didnt really do anyway. Cabbed over to dearby's house after that at 5+pm, he surprised me with chocolates! (: Left his house for his aunt's house at 6++pm. Went there to have dinner, watched tv awhile then dearby send me home.

Am just not in the right state nowadays due to some problems that had happened. What does it feels like to be blamed for everything? What does it feels like when you got no one to turn to in this family? What does it feels like when you cant do anything at all? What does it feels like when you have to resort to doing things to yourself to make yourself feel better?

Pardon me for my sudden mood change nowdays. I hate to be reminded of all those things seriously. But there are a few times when i can't help it too especially when i see guys trying to piss me off. I still got to thank dearby for being there this few days, he know everything that have been happening, taking care of me and cheering me up. (: I still love him deep deep depsite the super huge tiff that happened on Saturday.