Im really feeling so down inside me, perhaps all these meant to happen right from the starting but i chose to avoid. Putting on a false front &happy face infront of my friends &family is the only thing i can do now, again even though i know i would break down soon, very very soon. I've been like this since young, i choose to keep everything to myself probably because i dont want others to know how i feel &my problems. Its my own problem, i should be able to settle all these myself but not everything goes my way all the time, in fact everytime. Apologies to my family for being kinda irritating at home nowadays, turned playful at home &went berserk most of the time because of this problems. I cant afford to be sad &down at this moment of time because i know at this very moment, IF if the people around me gives me more stress especially my parents, i will definitely break down. And that almost happened 2days ago when my dad actually couldnt stand my behaviour, they probably thought their daughter have changed into another person whos totally different from the past. Watching Devil Beside You made me feel worst, re-watched it just a while ago but only Episode 1&2 is enough to make me feel worst. I miss my boss! He was always there to listen to my problems whenever im down but we hadnt been contacting for quite sometime alr. I need someone to talk to! To my closest, its not that i dont trust you guys okay? Its just that i dont want you all to worry about me &spoil the happy mood that you all are having. I shall see when i can still stand all these but i can only say i've totally give up on this matter.