So i stayed home the whole afternoon yesterday. Dad and brother called back to ask if i want to go Suntec and i agreed so they came back to fetch me at 5+pm. (: Down to Suntec and they brought me to Comex Fair. It's super boring ok. Almost died there so i pulled the two of them as fast as i could and went for dinner at Fish&co. Walked to Citylink becos brother wanna get havianas and i saw the design i want there but i'm financially unstable now. Back to Suntec, went to get donuts from Donut's Factory and head home. ;D

Today went to school and only a few of us wore school uniform. I didn't know until i reach school and i found out only Wenyan, Alena, Janna, me and some other guys wore school uniform in our class. N3 had like 6 people wearing uniform so we went to change into our house tee but i didn't bring mine so i wore pe tee. (: Back to class, slack for an hr and had chinese lesson for 1/2hr before going for the 3.2km run. The whole group of us walked instead because we found it stupid to run around Punggol Park. Walked back to school after that, slack in class till around 1130am then to the hall to see the celebration but it sucks lah. Change back to uniform then walk over to Rivervale Plaza with Wenyan. Went to see smthing then 88ed home. Cooked instant noodles for brkfast-cum-lunch just now and it's yummy.

Tmr study session with Wenyan again. (: Our weekly study session. Planned to buy fries and cheese to eat but looks like i can only buy cheese and she's bringing down mashmallows for me.

And last but not least, Mr WeiLiang, please come online asap so that i can send you the photo! ;D I bet you'll like it very very much so please appreciate my effort ok. And i'm SINGLE lah. Urgh. This guy keep saying i've a boyfriend when i dont have one. I know candy fong loves you hell lots. *GRINS

I saw one Puma jacket at Amk Hub yesterday. It's damn nice but it's gonna cost me alot. ): Shall clear my wishlist first before getting that one. ;D

Gonna depend heavily on my family for food and instant noodles this whole week till next Thurs. Dinner will be on theirs, Lunch will be instant noodles. I've planned to stay home this whole week unless there's school. But will be heading home straight right after school so that i won't spend a single cent! (: YAY. I'm craving for Seoul Garden anyway. After next Thurs, gonna pull either my brother or anyone alongggg.

There's no school today, gonna study Chemistry notes ltr on. (: Shall go cook instant noodles!
Mum bought alot of instant noodles home last night, now you know my family love to eat what. Esp me!

I miss my pig.

Tiring day. Wanted to take a cab down to school in the morning because of the rain but all the cabs were either on call or hired so i took lrt instead and thank god, the rain stopped. (: E-Lit paper was ok, did everything just in time. 87ed to CompassPt after school alone because brother called me to buy food for him so i had to go over to CompassPt. Lrt-ed home after that. Bath and change, use the computer awhile then 136ed to Amk. Met Wenyan on the bus and we went rounds at Amk Hub. Bought her havianas, my pencil case and food then went over to void deck to enjoy. (: Exchanged gadgets again, she played with my psp and i played her hp's game. 136ed back to Hougang, alighted at HougangPlaza and walked over to Hougang Interchange. She went to meet her mum and i 161ed to house nearby, studied for awhile till 7+pm then went home. The lorry scared me off just now, almost got a heart attack. >.<

Found alot of nice photographs on DeviantArt. Next Thurs Bugis Day! (:

I think i'm going crazy soon. I'm not thinking too much but studying is murdering me. Been busy mugging all day long ever since prelim started. There's smthing bothering me this few days. I dont know what to do.

Because i choose to give everything up.

I almost freezed to death throughout Paper1 today. The air con was so strong today. Chinese paper was ok today. 82ed to Serangoon, 109ed to HougangPt. Bought food and drinks then walked over to the void deck. Wanted to study there but Alena called us to go over to CompassPt library to study instead. Went home bath then lrt-ed over to CompassPt library. Wenyan couldn't make it in the end so i studied with Jia Hong and Alena. JiaHong left at 7, Alena and me studied till 8pm then we went rounds around CompassPt before going home. Continued studying just now and i'm still not done yet. Gonna continue tmr morning before my Lit paper. (: And i've yet to have my dinner until now. Gonna go to sleep right after this!

Gonna have Maths tuition with the guys next week either Monday or Tuesday togther with the girls as well. Next Thurs will be Physics extra lesson from 9am onwards, guess it will last till late noon. 5n2 just gonna unite and mug through the O's togther. ;D I've alr planned my schedule for the 1 wk holidays.

hgtrymevoli

Today Ss paper, was quite tough for me because i got all the points mixed up. Screwed up the paper. Had our paper in the LT Room and it was quite cold for me. But whatever. (: We gonna enjoy the air-con for this whole month until 20th. 87ed to Hougang Interchange, 101ed to Hougang Green but there isn't any nice food so we walked over to Ave8 after buying my facial cleanser. Had McDonald's for breakfast and it wasn't enough for me. Played Wenyan's handphone game while she played my psp then walked over to Hougang Mall. The saddening thing is that my bag is not selling anymore. How disappointing, probably going down to Bugis during the holidays to find. (: Popular to get pens then 27ed home. Use the computer awhile, bath & change. Lrt-ed to CompassPt to get lunch for my brother then lrt-ed home. Watched tv then out to meet Hgtr, finally! ;DD Not gonna elaborate as usual* I finally know how to play the majong game in my psp, thanks to that pig of mine. He taught me how to play just now. (: Home at 8+pm and i'm feeling super tired right now. Shall go to dreamland! Tmr Chinese paper then gonna go studying with Wenyan again after the paper. Shall study hard for my E Lit paper.

How i wish the time could stop so we would be togther forever.

Stayed home for the whole morning and afternoon. Dad came back when i was about to go out in the evening so i manage to save money again! (: Drove down to Tpy then to Newton Circus for my brkfast-lunch-dinner. Down to town area to fetch my brother and his gf up before going over to Amk Hub. Window shopped around, didn't see the bag in Amk Hub's Eight Percent outlet. Going over to HougangMall to check it outtt. ;D

Today i'm in a damn happy mood because someone made me happy again! (:

I suddenly thought of a stupid idea again because i want to make 3wishes so badly. The 3 wishes are so so so so important to me that i'll think of such idea. Am not gonna say out that stupid idea of mine, shall just keep it to myself till that day comes. ;D

I realise that i need to get so many new things, it's been a long time since i got smthing for myself. Ok, I know i got myself a jacket yesterday but i need more things. Shall add more things to my wishlist so that i can make myself save up and go on a diet as well. I think i'm fat, i need to burn all those fats on my legs and body. Can't i just take a knife and slash the fats? What a great and fast way to get rid of those fats right but it's gonna be so painful and i wouldn't dare do such a thing to myself. I shall go on a diet this month and see how it goes. (:

Mood wasn't that good last night, Hgtr knows why. I always sms him whenever this kinda things happen and i'll feel better after crying like a baby. As usual, i cried again last night. Other people thinks that i'm so so lucky that i've this family who will buy me whatever i want and so on but that's just the outside. Being looked down at and being despised by them shows how fortunate i am? Whatever. Since they refuse to trust me there's nothing more i can do.

Ltr going over to HougangMall to check out my bag. (: Gonna ask for the price and gonna save up the next few days so that i can get that bag by Sept holidays! I miss working so much, i need money. Gonna go study Ss now, i still have two chapters to go and i've to summarise all 5 chapters into my head by tonight so i've to rush thru.

Today study session wasn't that good for me. I was slacking like 80% of the time, was feeling very very sleepy. Lunched at McDonald's, happiest thing today because i get to see my pig. (: Walk around awhile then to HougangPt nearby void deck to study. Studied till 4+pm, walked back to HougangPt. Bought oreo drinks then 161ed to Causeway Point. Couldn't find the jackets we want so mrt-ed down to ChoaChuKang Lot 1. Bought our jackets and left the place. Back to Causeway, 161ed back home. ;D I'mma happy girl again today, finally found the jacket i want. Next will be that bag then the shorts!

Pig is playing maple again. That's sad because he'll be super busy whenever he plays. But it's ok, i shall be a good girl and not disturb him. (: I wanna get that bag so muchhh!

Yay. I finally changed my blogskin. (: English paper was alright yesterday, 87ed to CompassPt after school to buy lunch then home. Studied for an hr plus, use the computer and watched tv. Slack all the way till evening when dad came back, out for dinner at Kovan. Bought some misc stuff before going home. Continued studying, watch tv, out to Woodlands with brother at 10+pm. Fetch his gf, down to Yio Chu Kang for supper then to Amk Park Drive-thru McDonald's to buy more food home. (: Sent his gf home then home sweet home! Ate my supper then off to dreamland.

Ltr going out for study session with Wenyan again. ;D I've been so hardworking recently, so anyone willing to get me that bag i've been aiming at? (: Sept is coming coming coming! But the exams are just gonna spoil everything!

Today went back to school, meet Wenyan at the bus stop. (: Went to canteen for brkfast and we saw Mr Devan enjoying his brkfast with the Principal, Vp and other teachers at 9am so we had our brkfast as well. ;DDD Waiyang and Jiawei came down for brkfast as well, Joan came down to remind Mr Devan about the lesson so lesson only started at 930am. Physics mock exam after Ss lesson, dismissed early so we went off at 1135am. 87ed to CompassPt, bought lunch for my brother and walked home. (: Psp-ed awhile, bath and prepared, 88ed to HougangPt. Meet Wenyan, bought nachos from Cheers then to void deck for study session. Studied till 6+pm, walk back HougangPt. Bought her stuff, she accompanied me for dinner at foodcourt before going home. 88ed home and i saw an adorable baby! ;D She's really very adorable. Bought foolscape from Econ then head home, continued studying and now i'm gonna go sleep after blogging. Tmr is the start of Prelims, English paper tmr. Wish me luck!

Suppose to meet him today, but didn't in the end. Sorry Sweeeeet! (: I'm gonna make sure i plan my time!

Yayness. I pass my 2.4km run today! (: Was feeling super hungry after the run today. And ltr i've to be street directory, hell tired.

There's school tmr anyway, Social Studies extra class and Physics mock paper in the morning. I've plenty of homework and studying to do. Please remind me to study every now and then. (:

Happy Birthday to Alena on 21st Aug!

Was also my O'level English Oral Exam, i screwed up the whole thing because my brain cells wasn't working when i was sitting right infront of the teacher. I didn't know what to say and i just stopped after a few sentences for each question. Dammit. Called Hgtr up, talk for awhile, hang up. My after exam mood was like so so bad, i wasn't concentrating in all the things that i'm doing. I wish i can kill myself off.

I'm having 2.4km run today after school! Rah. People end school at 4pm, i've to run at that time. Wth. It's ok, i've Janna to run with me today! (: Prelim gonna start this coming Friday, Thurs no school. I'mma happy girl again. Meeting Hgtr on Thurs, finally. I'm gonna go to the library to study on Thurs morning than see how it goes. ;] Study study study. Off to prepare for school. School's starting early today because of the extra Ss class at 10am.

I dont like it when people come to you only when you've smthing, they're just only trying to make use of you. I don't care much or less because i know these people are not my true friends right from the beginning. I agree with what Chin Chong and the guys say about some people.

I love him the most although i'm always sad because he scolds me all the time. ;]

Fell sick on Friday so i stayed home both Friday and Saturday. (:

Sunday woke up in the morning to use the computer. Dad came back to fetch mum and me up togther with brother then we went over to the temple to pray. Lunch at 267 before going home. Played with psp awhile, cabbed down to HougangPt to find Hgtr and the rest. 159ed to their place nearby, waited downstairs for Hgtr Sweeet togther with Kenny. (: Thanks alotttt NieNieeee! Not gonna elaborate further. ;D But i made him angry yesterday evening. Sorry sorry x10000000000.

I think i won't be able to make up to all the things i've done no matter how many sorrys i've said or no matter what i say because things alr happened but true enough, i cried again last night after hanging up his call. Things just go wrong at the wrong time, the time when i'm feeling so alone alr yet these things just happen suddenly. I feel as if i'm going to lose this guy soon, real soon but he reassured me only after a few hrs. This makes me go crazy and think more because all the bad feelings are back once again. Just what should i do????????

Was late for school today because i slept late last night and i was threatened by Miss Zu. I'm gonna be kick out of school the next time i'm late. What a sucky school right? Told my brother and dad about it, my brother might be calling up the school to complain about it. So not a good day indeed. Ate my brkfast during recess and thats it for the whole day. EastPoint after school with Wenyan hoping to get her jacket and search for presents but the clearance sale is over! >.< No more our nice jackets! Urgh! Bought Hgtr's present then mrt-ed to Pasir Ris after that. Walk around then 89ed back home. Bumped into my brother and dad downstairs, bath then down to Bedok. Both of them quarrelled throughout the journey and i just kept quiet today. No mood, not feeling well so i just kept quiet. Cried on the car also. Screwed day. They had dinner but i skip it. Home after that. (:

Everything is just going against me ever since last week. Just leave me alone and don't ask anything from today onwards. I get irritated easily now so please dont irritate me!

I'm not gonna blog about school anymore. School life is just the same every single day. After school went home to bath, assembly was cancelled so we ended school at 140pm but the girls had to stay for Geography extra lesson. Out to meet Wenyan at 3pm, walk over to bus stop. 27ed to Tampines, Century Square for lunch. Rounds at Century Square then to Tampines Mall. 72ed back because Wenyan wasn't feeling well so we went back early. Alighted at Hougang Interchange, 27ed home. (:

Today school. I'm feeling quite sick, down with slight flu and cough but it's ok. (: I'm still enjoying all the yummy food, skip brkfast and dinner because i had lunch only at 4++pm. I'm gonna start mugging for my first 3 Prelim papers. ;D

Sunday was so hell boring. Spent my day at home till evening when dad come back. Fetch brother from CompassPt because of the rain. Brkfast-lunch-dinner All in 1 meal at Rivervale Plaza but the Korean Cusine sucks terribly. Don't ever try the food there! Walk around then home. Brother bought another White Psp and i exchanged with him so i've the white one now and he's holding onto the black one. (: Tv awhile then studied till 9pm. Played psp till 10+pm then went to sleep.

Today school just sucks. If not for the results, i doubt i'll go school today. Got back my Chinese O'level result, it wasn't what i expected but i'm not saying anything. Blame myself for not checking my E-dictionary before stepping into the classroom. Am just not in the mood, throat hurts alot now, almost fainted just now when i was on my way home. Feeling so giddy today. Gonna go study now. ;]

There're lots of thoughts in my mind right now. Unhappy things keep coming and not going. I need a break from everything again, anyone willing to bring me to the beach to relax?

Thanks for all your patience and care that i've never receive before.

Found all this from Friendster Bullentin Board and i like to read all this. (:

Message:
1-touch their waist
2-talk tothem
3-share secrets
4-give her yourjacket
5-kiss them slowly Are you remembering this?
6-hug her
7-holdher
8-laugh with her
9-invite hersomewhere
10-let her be with you when you're with your friends
11-smile with her
12-takepics with her
13-pull her onto yourlap
14-when she says she loves youmore, deny it. fight back
15-when herfriends say I love her more than you,deny it. fight back and hug her tightso she cant get to her friends. itmakes her feel loved Are youthinking about someone?
16-alwayshug her and say I love you when yousee her
17-kiss her unexpectedly
18-HUG HER FROM BEHIND AROUND THE WAIST
19-tell her shes beautiful not sexy!
20-tell her the way you feel abouther! you need to show her you mean it too
21-kiss her on the lips
22-DON'T ask her to buy you stuff. youbuy HER stuff
23-TELL HER WHAT FEELS GOOD
24-make her feel loved
25-buy herstuff. small things can still help we might deny it but we accutally likeand kinda want you to get us things
26-DON'T LIE TO HER.
27-DON'T CHEAT ONHER.
28-take her anywhere she wants
29-txt messege or call her in the morningand tell her have a good day atschool, and how much you miss her
30-be there for her when ever she needsyou, & even when she doesn't need you,just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you Are youstill reading this u better be it's important
31. Hold her close whenshe's cold and she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her closeand kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the tipof her nose; (it will give her thehint that you want to kiss them).
34.While in the movie, put your armaround her and then she willautomatically put her head on yourshoulder, then lean in and tilt herchin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Dontever tell her to leave even jokinglyor act like you're mad. If shes upset,comfort her Remember this next timeyou are with her
36. When peoplediss her, stand up for her.
37. Lookdeep into her eyes and tell her youlove her.
38. Lay down under the starsand put her head on your chest so shecan listen to the steady beat of yourheart, Link your fingers togetherwhile you whisper to her as she restsher eyes and listens to you.
39. Whenwalking next to each other grab herhand.
40. When you hug her hold her inyour arms as long as possible
41.Call her at night to wish her sweetdreams.
42. Comfort her when she criesand wipe away her tears.
43. Take herfor long walks at night
44. Dedicate asong to her.
45. Always Remind her howmuch you love her. youll never knowwhen she needs just a lil more love

I'm grounded. >.< Brother and dad went out in the afternoon so i stayed home unwillingly but Fiona called me up and i sneaked out of the house! ;P Waited for her at CompassPt, 159ed over to HougangPt and we started talking about this guy who kept staring at us and he's one of our crew's boyfriend. Wtf. His stares are so pervertic that i almost felt like gorging his eyes out. Had lunch at McDonald's, chatted awhile with the usuals and played poker again while waiting for Fiona to finish playing Lingixang's psp. 159ed to CompassPt after that, walk around alone awhile and met my brother. CyberActive to check out the psp prices, Popular to get photo paper then Cup Walker again! ;D Father came to fetch us up, head home. Evening time head out to Kallang/Geylang to search for smthing but couldn't find so we went to Boon Keng, walk around awhile before going back to Sengkang to fetch my brother up. Rivervale Mall for dinner, bought Nachos from Cheers then home sweet. ;D

Sweet's stares always make me faint.
My second brother was telling me to find someone as cute as him and as lame as him. My god!
Shall go touch on my PSP! I'm a lonely girl whos stuck at home.

Thurs was really a nice day! (: Went out to CompassPt to buy waffles, wanted to get a top but hesitated so i just walked away. Lrt-ed home, played maple for awhile before cabbing down to Tpy with my eldest brother. Went to his office first before accompanying him over to another block for viewing. Pizza Hut for lunch, hell full. Mrt-ed over to Amk, walk around Amk Hub. Brother paid for my havianas! ;D Went out of Amk Hub and bought a game. Second brother came down to fetch me so i left while eldest brother went home. (: Far East for shopping, walk over to Wisma. Bought 2 tops from Fleshimp then to Taka searching for my skinnies. Bought my skinnies from Fox Women. (: Had dinner at the foodcourt, only ate fruits. Went home after that, brother drove me home. I wanna get the tops from JunkFood!

Yesterday went out with family and brother's gf to Amk Hub for lunch. Went to meet Wenyan at 12+pm, walk around Amk Hub and outside. Movie at 310pm, Secret. (: The show is so so so nice! I wanna watch it again again again! 166ed to Novena, walk around before taking a train back to Amk. Separated, took 86 home. ;] Studied for like 2 hrs, accompanied brother to his friend's place to purchase the Psp as my birthday presenttt! Got a black one instead of the white one. Another strike off on my wishlist! ;DD Imma happy girl!

I still lack smthing that i always wish and pray for since April. I bet that wish wouldn't come true so soon, i'll just have to wait for someone to do smthing. (:

I think i'm emotionally unstable again this few days. Urgh. I feel like spouting vuglurities and crying out to make myself feel better. This just sucks so muchhhh.

Brother came back in the morning at 7+am to bring me out for breakfast. (: Bathed and changed then he drove us over to Bedok for breakfast! His driving skill improved so much ok! ;D

Yesterday was quite a nice day for me except that i'm so tired so my attitude came back again. Sorry Sweet! ): Kept thinking of somethings that made me feel so so so restless and moody. I dont like this feeling at all but the thoughts just come and go easily. Urgh! Dinner at McDonald's before my dad fetch me home. I just love the times spent with him. (:

Off to CompassPt to get smthing. (: